All things start and all things move forward and come to an end so shall it now be with This Beloved Blog of Mine!
The First entry was typed on The Night of Monday October 4TH, 2010. It now ends 3 years, 3 months and 5 days later.
I am thinking of 51 Weeks ago tonight, when I was struck by a car while crossing Little River Turnpike in Annandale, Virginia. It was during a week of dark, overcast, fog and frequent rain. I was in a hurry to get out of the dreadful weather and was not as careful in cross as I should have been.
51 weeks ago , I was limping to bed aching, sore and bleeding from severe hematomas. I remember that not actually joking with the people who worked with to help me in the Emergency Room of The Invova Fairfax Hospital.
I learned that day and in the weeks to follow that time takes time! I spend a year building a relationship with My Angel, Amanda, and I know now that getting through the far too long year of 2013 was worth it. Over The last year , I have been become much more prudent, insightful and more aware of the value of navigating long and tough days of last year.
I originally started this blog to learn if I had the ability to pursue the goal of writing a book. I think I have the ability to write a book.
However, Would it be a book that people would desire to read? Would others benefit from It? that is an answer that I'm still seeking to discover?
Sometime before The End of This Month, I do promise to lauunch a NEW BLOG here on Blogger. Until then, Thank you for supporting my effort.
- Johnny -
Thursday, January 9, 2014
As A Lover of History ,
I've thought a lot , of late, about the last nearly 36 years of my life. Thinking that I 'd be a powerful political actor here was an exercise of folly and foolishness.
That, however, did not mean that it was not right to have come to live in this area in March of 1978.
- Johnny -
That, however, did not mean that it was not right to have come to live in this area in March of 1978.
- Johnny -
Waiting is hard when you are on the verge .
However, That does not mean, even on the verge, that waiting isn't appropriate and most necessary.
A Washington Football Perspective on Politics
We are now hearing about what a BRUTAL and Nasty bully New Jersey Governor Chris Christie is.
The last two Redskin head coaches and the newly hired one gives us some good perspectives on Republican Presidential Candiates.
Some people believe that Senator McCain and Mitt Romney were out of focus, not togh enough, clueless and imprecise at times. Those same descriptors were also often used to depict Former Redskins Head Coach Jim Zorn.
Angry, Bitter, Reactive, Decisive and Arrogant - these words were used to tar John Boehner. Romney was said to be an elitist with no concern for American struggling to survive on a day to day basis.
These adjectives have also been connected to Mike Shanahan, especially of late. To me, I also see those attitude often being expressed by President Obama and Former Senator and Secretary of State Hillary Clinton.
The Redskins New Coach, Jay Gruden, impresses me as tough bit willing to listen, consider and adjust. He also seems to expect things of individuals and wants to know that they are actively committed to improve.
Hmmm, That does sound like a good archetype for the nominee the Republicans are looking for in 2016.
- Johnny -
The last two Redskin head coaches and the newly hired one gives us some good perspectives on Republican Presidential Candiates.
Some people believe that Senator McCain and Mitt Romney were out of focus, not togh enough, clueless and imprecise at times. Those same descriptors were also often used to depict Former Redskins Head Coach Jim Zorn.
Angry, Bitter, Reactive, Decisive and Arrogant - these words were used to tar John Boehner. Romney was said to be an elitist with no concern for American struggling to survive on a day to day basis.
These adjectives have also been connected to Mike Shanahan, especially of late. To me, I also see those attitude often being expressed by President Obama and Former Senator and Secretary of State Hillary Clinton.
The Redskins New Coach, Jay Gruden, impresses me as tough bit willing to listen, consider and adjust. He also seems to expect things of individuals and wants to know that they are actively committed to improve.
Hmmm, That does sound like a good archetype for the nominee the Republicans are looking for in 2016.
- Johnny -
Wednesday, January 8, 2014
The Way Things OUGHT to be !!!
I've now been in the process of getting ready to move for 3 months and a week.I am now 5 away from making the actual 600! mile move. I am, leaving where I have operated from and lived for 8 weeks short of THIRTY - SIX years.
That could be used to justful the INTENSE frustration, pique and major outrage that I'm process through as I type this using Computer 12 at The Attractive and Comfortable Beatley Library in Alexandria, Virginia. I could also offer that I'm not usually at my best during intensely cold weather.
However, These are all merely highly transparent excuses and rationales. I am tired of having to deal with people who seem to stumble and bumble through life, who simply do not really get proper behavior in public is vital , expected and necessary. We have become a society imprisoned by a mania of being understanding, forbearing, tolerant and rubber band flexible. To protest, to be dissatisfied and to SUGGEST that this is not worthy of being accepted and that we know all that we can do better/ much better than we are now as a people and as RESPONSIBLE individuals is consider to be a heinous and unforgivable sin and crime by many throughout our American Society.
Lest anyone think I'm merely being bombastic and shrill- Let me just relate some vignettes from this week.
On Monday afternoon, I was waiting for a Metrobus at The King Street Subway Station. I was standing at inside a Bus Shelter. I had my books on the edge of the bench . There were two other people inside that shelter. I finished a newspaper and walked about 5 feet from the shelter to throw it away in a trash receptacle.
As I got back the woman had pl;aced my books o the ground and had clearly gone through them. I reminded her that those books are private property and as she had not asked permission- that she had no right to touch them. The man sitting on the bench told me to " Calm The F Down." I told him that I did not want to deal with his vulgarity or attitude. I also thought that if he were concerned about what was right- he COULD have reminded this woman that those books were NOT her property! She was one of those women who cannot seem to speak without shrilling shouting. . What ever happen to the simple ability to respect the rights of others and not infringe and obnoxiously impose yourself others.
Then , Today! I was not able to deposit a check I had been sent as a refund for overpaying a medical bill. I know, quite often, the companies are very demanding, fill out all that we ask as we tell you must or your application will not be processed. The check that I had been sent was not signed by the firm that had been sent to me. NOW, as I'm getting ready to leave the area, a nuisance is imposed upon me. The demanding firm seems to be lax in expecting their employees to be accurate in the services that they provide to their customers. Arrgghhhh!
After The Bank, I went To Mc Donald's for coffee. I had to wait as no one behind the counter KNEW WHERE THE SUGAR AND CREAMER were. I waited a good 5 minutes. This , to me, seemed like a rejected skit from Saturday Night Live. Mc Donalds does have a national and international image- Do they really gain by anyone seeing them as useless and painfully obvious buffoons? Anyone ever hear of management and oversight?
Then, CVS! I went to CVS to fill a prescription for eye drops. As I arrived at the counter, A young woman asked if she could help me --- and then proved that she could not. I told her five times , " I have a prescription for eyedrops" and gained a blank stare in response. THEN , I was told someone else would help me.
We all know that litany- We are Multicultural and all ways are good. We have failing schools We have many people who are mentally ill or who struggle to process information. We can not judge whether a person is legally present in the us or not. You have not walked a mile in their shoes- you do not know his or her story or the pain, struggles, difficulties, hardships and barriers that he or she has had imposed upon them !
Enough, A wise person should laugh at all of this and say, " I can no longer take this seriously or give this one more moment of my believing this to be credible. You cannot make any of these guiding principles for how you operate a livable and functioning society!
There are many people who are limited, who are hard precessed to improve and do better! My heart goes out to them- We SHOULD do all we can to do well by them! Yet, Pretending that this is how we must treat 100% of our society is irrational, illogical and unintelligent!
Rush Limbaugh's First book was entitled - The Way Things OUGHT to Be. I think we need to once again be brave enough to think there ways. Our Society needs to go back to a Best Practices Society.
We know there are proper, intelligent, wise and efficient ways to operate. We can problem solve and enhance and improve our transactions and interaction to provide genuine and honest truly win-win situations. We can expect professionalism, skill and panache from people as they work. The people we employ can learn that they must prove to stay employed! customer Service can be a showcase of dedicated and beneficial serving excellence. Public Service can also be measured by these SAME standards.
A friend of mine, over 20 years ago,emphasized the value of competence to society. he said for us all to blend well and function well we need to act intelligently and with awareness and avoid being an obstacle to others being able to function this way as well. I now see how valid a concept this is.
I think that if more of us asked ourselves to honestly and thoroughly look at our lives and our society as it OUGHT to be, We'd all live much better ! It would be a blessing top our nation if we voted with this idea in mind. Mr. Obama would not now be our president. This standard would neve4r allow Hillary Clinton to be elected President!
There are ways that things simply OUGHT to be. Who profits when we deny this simple and valid reality ???
- Johnny-
That could be used to justful the INTENSE frustration, pique and major outrage that I'm process through as I type this using Computer 12 at The Attractive and Comfortable Beatley Library in Alexandria, Virginia. I could also offer that I'm not usually at my best during intensely cold weather.
However, These are all merely highly transparent excuses and rationales. I am tired of having to deal with people who seem to stumble and bumble through life, who simply do not really get proper behavior in public is vital , expected and necessary. We have become a society imprisoned by a mania of being understanding, forbearing, tolerant and rubber band flexible. To protest, to be dissatisfied and to SUGGEST that this is not worthy of being accepted and that we know all that we can do better/ much better than we are now as a people and as RESPONSIBLE individuals is consider to be a heinous and unforgivable sin and crime by many throughout our American Society.
Lest anyone think I'm merely being bombastic and shrill- Let me just relate some vignettes from this week.
On Monday afternoon, I was waiting for a Metrobus at The King Street Subway Station. I was standing at inside a Bus Shelter. I had my books on the edge of the bench . There were two other people inside that shelter. I finished a newspaper and walked about 5 feet from the shelter to throw it away in a trash receptacle.
As I got back the woman had pl;aced my books o the ground and had clearly gone through them. I reminded her that those books are private property and as she had not asked permission- that she had no right to touch them. The man sitting on the bench told me to " Calm The F Down." I told him that I did not want to deal with his vulgarity or attitude. I also thought that if he were concerned about what was right- he COULD have reminded this woman that those books were NOT her property! She was one of those women who cannot seem to speak without shrilling shouting. . What ever happen to the simple ability to respect the rights of others and not infringe and obnoxiously impose yourself others.
Then , Today! I was not able to deposit a check I had been sent as a refund for overpaying a medical bill. I know, quite often, the companies are very demanding, fill out all that we ask as we tell you must or your application will not be processed. The check that I had been sent was not signed by the firm that had been sent to me. NOW, as I'm getting ready to leave the area, a nuisance is imposed upon me. The demanding firm seems to be lax in expecting their employees to be accurate in the services that they provide to their customers. Arrgghhhh!
After The Bank, I went To Mc Donald's for coffee. I had to wait as no one behind the counter KNEW WHERE THE SUGAR AND CREAMER were. I waited a good 5 minutes. This , to me, seemed like a rejected skit from Saturday Night Live. Mc Donalds does have a national and international image- Do they really gain by anyone seeing them as useless and painfully obvious buffoons? Anyone ever hear of management and oversight?
Then, CVS! I went to CVS to fill a prescription for eye drops. As I arrived at the counter, A young woman asked if she could help me --- and then proved that she could not. I told her five times , " I have a prescription for eyedrops" and gained a blank stare in response. THEN , I was told someone else would help me.
We all know that litany- We are Multicultural and all ways are good. We have failing schools We have many people who are mentally ill or who struggle to process information. We can not judge whether a person is legally present in the us or not. You have not walked a mile in their shoes- you do not know his or her story or the pain, struggles, difficulties, hardships and barriers that he or she has had imposed upon them !
Enough, A wise person should laugh at all of this and say, " I can no longer take this seriously or give this one more moment of my believing this to be credible. You cannot make any of these guiding principles for how you operate a livable and functioning society!
There are many people who are limited, who are hard precessed to improve and do better! My heart goes out to them- We SHOULD do all we can to do well by them! Yet, Pretending that this is how we must treat 100% of our society is irrational, illogical and unintelligent!
Rush Limbaugh's First book was entitled - The Way Things OUGHT to Be. I think we need to once again be brave enough to think there ways. Our Society needs to go back to a Best Practices Society.
We know there are proper, intelligent, wise and efficient ways to operate. We can problem solve and enhance and improve our transactions and interaction to provide genuine and honest truly win-win situations. We can expect professionalism, skill and panache from people as they work. The people we employ can learn that they must prove to stay employed! customer Service can be a showcase of dedicated and beneficial serving excellence. Public Service can also be measured by these SAME standards.
A friend of mine, over 20 years ago,emphasized the value of competence to society. he said for us all to blend well and function well we need to act intelligently and with awareness and avoid being an obstacle to others being able to function this way as well. I now see how valid a concept this is.
I think that if more of us asked ourselves to honestly and thoroughly look at our lives and our society as it OUGHT to be, We'd all live much better ! It would be a blessing top our nation if we voted with this idea in mind. Mr. Obama would not now be our president. This standard would neve4r allow Hillary Clinton to be elected President!
There are ways that things simply OUGHT to be. Who profits when we deny this simple and valid reality ???
- Johnny-
Tuesday, January 7, 2014
I've actually found someone . . .
who sees amazing things within me that is splendid. Thank You, Angel!
When Our Elders smirk and declare " J' Accuse" .
You , no doubt, have been told to " Stop whining about the weather and cope with it." You've been told that " Winters are Cold and Summers are Hot and some are worse than others, You simply show gumption and get through it."
Then, You hear about how much easier it is for you to deal with the intense heat and cold because you have resources today that THEY DID NOT.
So, When YOU are accused of being a "Weather Wimp / Wussy", What is your response ?
- Johnny -
Then, You hear about how much easier it is for you to deal with the intense heat and cold because you have resources today that THEY DID NOT.
So, When YOU are accused of being a "Weather Wimp / Wussy", What is your response ?
- Johnny -
Monday, January 6, 2014
Aloha, Christmas !
As Today is now January 7TH , The Advent Season of 2013- 2014 is now absolute history!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Winter is A TERMINATOR on Steroids ...
as it has shown itself throughout these First 6 Days of 2014!
Words as intimidation and silencing tools !
A few years ago, I was a very active poster on a Forum Provided By The E-Dating and Socializing Site, The Book of Matches.
I expressed my opinions, often and boldly , on many issues. One of those issues was Pro- Life. This motivation of mine led me to ask people the following question- Are there causes that you are very devoted to and willing to go the extra mile to support? I , then, expressed my devotion to advocating for and speaking out on Pro- Life related issues.
I had some people who argued with me about the supremacy of a WOMAN'S RIGHT TO CHOOSE above all. That was fair and I argued my position reasonably well.
Then, There was the scurrilous e-mail that still chills my soul. The message was a hate-filled assassin's weapon. The message was - " My favorite cause, One that I enthusiastically take part in, is forcing gays who are hiding and in the closet out into the open. I force them out and then I imprison them. After that, I castrate them and subject them to brainwashing. I REMOVE any silly and useless ideas they have about expressing opinions that no one wants to hear. I have them focus on wanting to look pretty and sexy and nothing else. I give them long, clingy gowns to wear. After I have adjusted them ,They spend all of their time thinking about only having men look at them as they do all they can to look sexy and appealing to these men as well as the enjoyment that they will gain as they obediently pleasure the men who they attract . "
It was clear this rogue wanted to scare me into not expressing myself. My first reaction was to want to find out who this person was and alert the police about him. Someone this twisted and vicious might actually decide to practice this vileness.
I was told men like him vent because they are never likely to act on their antisocial thinking. This Forum Response really got me to become an active foe of cyber bulling, intimidation and those trying to terrorize anyone who disagree with them into silence and compliance. I must say that who ever that terrorist was, He does remind me a LOT of both of my parents!
- Johnny -
I expressed my opinions, often and boldly , on many issues. One of those issues was Pro- Life. This motivation of mine led me to ask people the following question- Are there causes that you are very devoted to and willing to go the extra mile to support? I , then, expressed my devotion to advocating for and speaking out on Pro- Life related issues.
I had some people who argued with me about the supremacy of a WOMAN'S RIGHT TO CHOOSE above all. That was fair and I argued my position reasonably well.
Then, There was the scurrilous e-mail that still chills my soul. The message was a hate-filled assassin's weapon. The message was - " My favorite cause, One that I enthusiastically take part in, is forcing gays who are hiding and in the closet out into the open. I force them out and then I imprison them. After that, I castrate them and subject them to brainwashing. I REMOVE any silly and useless ideas they have about expressing opinions that no one wants to hear. I have them focus on wanting to look pretty and sexy and nothing else. I give them long, clingy gowns to wear. After I have adjusted them ,They spend all of their time thinking about only having men look at them as they do all they can to look sexy and appealing to these men as well as the enjoyment that they will gain as they obediently pleasure the men who they attract . "
It was clear this rogue wanted to scare me into not expressing myself. My first reaction was to want to find out who this person was and alert the police about him. Someone this twisted and vicious might actually decide to practice this vileness.
I was told men like him vent because they are never likely to act on their antisocial thinking. This Forum Response really got me to become an active foe of cyber bulling, intimidation and those trying to terrorize anyone who disagree with them into silence and compliance. I must say that who ever that terrorist was, He does remind me a LOT of both of my parents!
- Johnny -
I never really looked back when I left The Bronx.
Treat DC in the same way. Visit from time to time- but know well after 35 YEARS - This is NO LONGER your kind of town!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Sunday, January 5, 2014
No !!!, NOT !!! THIS !!! TIME !!!
Rod Serling once spoke of His Twilight Zone touching " The summit of man's knowledge AND the depths of his fears."
This Sunday Night, January The Fifth, The official night before The Last Day of The Christmas Season finds me battling to not give in to the depths of my fears.
Tonight, I find myself scared that now that my life is in a great, exciting and long-awaited transition time, That I will let an old haunting enemy derail and demolish my long- worked for hope. I have been prone to collapse due to and surrender to home sickness.
As a boy, I often endured near Dickensian aspects in my life , growing up in an abusive family in the SouthWestern Bronx . When I was 8. I got a chance to spend 2 weeks in a beautiful location in Puerto Rico, I lasted there a week before I cried and moped my way into an early return. At the age of 11, I had a chance to spend 2 weeks in a beautiful Boy Club Camp in a wooded area in Upstate New York , I lasted 6 days .
I see my time as a student attending Western Maryland's Frostburg State as a major positive transition in my life. 6 weeks into my Freshman year, I wrote my parents a 30 page letter asking for permission to come home. They agreed that I should. Fortunately, I tore that letter from them up and chose to stay!
This has happened numerous times in my life. I fear now that this will again be a battle as I move for love, serenity and new opportunities and a fresh sense of mission and purpose to Mount Vernon, Ky, 600 miles from where I sit tonight.
I can imagine battling this old enemy and losing. Losing this chance at love and renewal to wind up returning here, to a place I have seen for years to be a location, that for me, is old, stale, limiting and confining. Greater DC has become a place where a cherished vision/ dream died stillborn ! An area that I've clung to, for too long, out of fear -fueled inertia , if I am to be BRUTALLY honest with myself.
This Time, I've vowed to give both myself and the currents of life a full chance and opportunity. It would be a monumental act of mindless self-sabotage.
Has anyone fought and lost numerous wars with homesickness throughout your life ? How did you finally learn to defeat and vanquish that vile and pernicious adversary ?
- Johnny -
This Sunday Night, January The Fifth, The official night before The Last Day of The Christmas Season finds me battling to not give in to the depths of my fears.
Tonight, I find myself scared that now that my life is in a great, exciting and long-awaited transition time, That I will let an old haunting enemy derail and demolish my long- worked for hope. I have been prone to collapse due to and surrender to home sickness.
As a boy, I often endured near Dickensian aspects in my life , growing up in an abusive family in the SouthWestern Bronx . When I was 8. I got a chance to spend 2 weeks in a beautiful location in Puerto Rico, I lasted there a week before I cried and moped my way into an early return. At the age of 11, I had a chance to spend 2 weeks in a beautiful Boy Club Camp in a wooded area in Upstate New York , I lasted 6 days .
I see my time as a student attending Western Maryland's Frostburg State as a major positive transition in my life. 6 weeks into my Freshman year, I wrote my parents a 30 page letter asking for permission to come home. They agreed that I should. Fortunately, I tore that letter from them up and chose to stay!
This has happened numerous times in my life. I fear now that this will again be a battle as I move for love, serenity and new opportunities and a fresh sense of mission and purpose to Mount Vernon, Ky, 600 miles from where I sit tonight.
I can imagine battling this old enemy and losing. Losing this chance at love and renewal to wind up returning here, to a place I have seen for years to be a location, that for me, is old, stale, limiting and confining. Greater DC has become a place where a cherished vision/ dream died stillborn ! An area that I've clung to, for too long, out of fear -fueled inertia , if I am to be BRUTALLY honest with myself.
This Time, I've vowed to give both myself and the currents of life a full chance and opportunity. It would be a monumental act of mindless self-sabotage.
Has anyone fought and lost numerous wars with homesickness throughout your life ? How did you finally learn to defeat and vanquish that vile and pernicious adversary ?
- Johnny -
Saturday, January 4, 2014
The Overwhelming Hollowness
I long to be with My Sweet Mandy and - weather permitting- I will exit Alexandria, VA and GREATER DC i the mid morning of January 13TH.
My Apartment is a shell, The Furniture is almost totally gone, either donated to The Salvation Army or disposed of Many books exited my apartment 2 weeks ago,
I want my future and the changes very much. It just seems I have very liitle to cover the 59 plus years that I have lived.
I will move on from this but TODAY that seems depressing and sad.
- Johnny -
My Apartment is a shell, The Furniture is almost totally gone, either donated to The Salvation Army or disposed of Many books exited my apartment 2 weeks ago,
I want my future and the changes very much. It just seems I have very liitle to cover the 59 plus years that I have lived.
I will move on from this but TODAY that seems depressing and sad.
- Johnny -
Friday, January 3, 2014
Ad Hominem Attacks
Wouldn't our 2014 by an amazing yerar if we all argued issues based on the facts as we know them? We can also learn to express our opinions eloquently, passionately and convincingly, while STILL reminding ourselves and others that we are expressing, after all OUR ! OPINIONS!
Personal attacks and the slanders, negativity and hostility that usually are tied to them produce nothing worthwhile!
If we can free ourselves from resorting to Ad Hominem attacks and convince other to abandon this folly, We will make 2014 a TRULY amazing and delightfully memorable year!
- Johnny -
Personal attacks and the slanders, negativity and hostility that usually are tied to them produce nothing worthwhile!
If we can free ourselves from resorting to Ad Hominem attacks and convince other to abandon this folly, We will make 2014 a TRULY amazing and delightfully memorable year!
- Johnny -
Thursday, January 2, 2014
The End is Nearing !
On Friday, January 9TH, 2014, I will post my last entry on this blog.
I have come to see that it is good to wrap up a creative effort - end it and begin freshly and anew!
I will be exiting Greater DC after being here since the Late Winter of 1978, to start life in rural central Kentucky.
It seems that it is time to create a new Blog with a new attitude.
This has been amazing but every writing effort does NEED a first and a last word!
- Johnny -
I have come to see that it is good to wrap up a creative effort - end it and begin freshly and anew!
I will be exiting Greater DC after being here since the Late Winter of 1978, to start life in rural central Kentucky.
It seems that it is time to create a new Blog with a new attitude.
This has been amazing but every writing effort does NEED a first and a last word!
- Johnny -
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