Friday, September 30, 2011
The Yankees are in The Post- Season !
Will The Fall of 2011 be a " Field of Dreams" or something best never spoken of again once it is finished!?????
Nine Months will soon be gone !
I'm glad that September 2011 will soon be over. The endurance fest is nearly over!
Johnny's New Year! - October First, 2011!
In a Few hours, It will be Saturday , October 1st here in The Eastern United States. You've long heard me state that a Johnnyssance is soon to be underway. I committed myself to start what I'm calling " The 18 Month Prime Direction" an effort that will allow me to live well, to be more confident and to allow me to truly enjoy being me- providing me a chance to live better and also become MORE of a blessing and benefit to others!
My mother wanted to be a mother in the worst way and chose a man she wound up totally loathing. This was a man who had zero respect for women. He was a proud Hispanic man and he married a woman who found Hispanics and Blacks and most other no white people beneath her! She planned to "Americanize " him- this effort was never to be a realistic option.
Neither parent found me to be acceptable. My dad wanted a son who would be quiet, obedient and subservient. He also wanted a son who would be irresistible to the women. He was sent a bright, creative, talkative, questioning and curious child. He loathed my abilities in public speaking. He often labelled me as being weak and " acting like a girl"!
My mother saw me as not tough and ready to be bold enough. She told me that " I was not good enough to be the child she'd long waited for". Both parents by beating, scolding and insults sought to crush and erase my personality and my very identity.
I fought them and suffered child abuse due to my resistance. In spite of my defiance, Some of their " rebuilding" took- even as a child I noticed many things about me that confused, distressed and alarmed me- things that I KNEW were not me!!!!
I grew up cowed and easily intimidated and I was very prone to being bullied and often have been bullied and subjected to intimidation. I 've often been mocked and dismissed. I found myself confusing, alarming and simply a troubling mystery.
I've lived my adult life largely this way. . I decided , 2 and a half months ago, while on a Mission's Trip to Mexico that I had to do something that would have me find out who I truly am, what I'm capable of and then opt to live that way!
I spoke to my pastor and while he lauded my desire, he warned me that to succeed I'd need to be patient and be devoted to pursuing an intense and demanding long term commitment to gain the results I desire.
There fore, With the help of a mentor and a 3 person board, I will strip way and banish from me what is not Johnny and I will learn exactly who I am! I will learn how to operate, over time with panache, poise and elan! I will work so that on April First , 2013, I will be someone I will enjoy being.
This all starts in a few hours. My goal for October 2011 is to be more positive and to learn how to relax and enjoy being positive! My Goal for November- My Birthday Month- is to learn that people like me and why they like me. I want to understand what people find appealing, likable and desirable about me. People have thought it amusing but , at present, I REALLY!!!! do not get why people wish to befriend me, and enjoy me. I don't get what they can gain from me and how they can benefit from knowing me. To me, at present, This is genuinely an unfathomable mystery!
- Johnny-
My mother wanted to be a mother in the worst way and chose a man she wound up totally loathing. This was a man who had zero respect for women. He was a proud Hispanic man and he married a woman who found Hispanics and Blacks and most other no white people beneath her! She planned to "Americanize " him- this effort was never to be a realistic option.
Neither parent found me to be acceptable. My dad wanted a son who would be quiet, obedient and subservient. He also wanted a son who would be irresistible to the women. He was sent a bright, creative, talkative, questioning and curious child. He loathed my abilities in public speaking. He often labelled me as being weak and " acting like a girl"!
My mother saw me as not tough and ready to be bold enough. She told me that " I was not good enough to be the child she'd long waited for". Both parents by beating, scolding and insults sought to crush and erase my personality and my very identity.
I fought them and suffered child abuse due to my resistance. In spite of my defiance, Some of their " rebuilding" took- even as a child I noticed many things about me that confused, distressed and alarmed me- things that I KNEW were not me!!!!
I grew up cowed and easily intimidated and I was very prone to being bullied and often have been bullied and subjected to intimidation. I 've often been mocked and dismissed. I found myself confusing, alarming and simply a troubling mystery.
I've lived my adult life largely this way. . I decided , 2 and a half months ago, while on a Mission's Trip to Mexico that I had to do something that would have me find out who I truly am, what I'm capable of and then opt to live that way!
I spoke to my pastor and while he lauded my desire, he warned me that to succeed I'd need to be patient and be devoted to pursuing an intense and demanding long term commitment to gain the results I desire.
There fore, With the help of a mentor and a 3 person board, I will strip way and banish from me what is not Johnny and I will learn exactly who I am! I will learn how to operate, over time with panache, poise and elan! I will work so that on April First , 2013, I will be someone I will enjoy being.
This all starts in a few hours. My goal for October 2011 is to be more positive and to learn how to relax and enjoy being positive! My Goal for November- My Birthday Month- is to learn that people like me and why they like me. I want to understand what people find appealing, likable and desirable about me. People have thought it amusing but , at present, I REALLY!!!! do not get why people wish to befriend me, and enjoy me. I don't get what they can gain from me and how they can benefit from knowing me. To me, at present, This is genuinely an unfathomable mystery!
- Johnny-
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
What If .... What would the Internet be like if it had been shaped to conform to and be responsive to slander and libel standards!!!!!!!!!!
The Internet is, in so many ways!!!!, a GodSend! It allows us to share our hopes, dreams, ideals, visions and most vital concerns with each other. It is a vital and dynamic engine of creativity and inventiveness!
And yet, It is used, to often, as a powerful, unrelenting, severe and merciless weapon , an attack tool!
I am a Heterosexual! Yet, I have been labeled as a Gay Man by " Outspoken Manly Man" who I have dared to have the temerity to disagree with. I like good argument- I am a Toastmaster and a teacher as well as a well-trained debater and analyst. Yet, rather than contend with my ideas in a mannerly way, I was told to perform anatomically impossible acts and asked " When I am going to come out of the closet????!!!!." That is both not germane to anything and is antagonistic and incendiary!
I got involved in a discussion of Abortion where I declared that I am militantly pro-life! This was on a Forum Thread on causes that you are dedicated to and would volunteer to support. Someone mentioned how much he disliked my not minding my own business. He said that his cause was castrating gay men in denial and training them how to mind their own business and how to focus on what they need to focus upon -- How to dress and act to attract the attention of other gay men!!!!
Quite repulsive and unacceptable in my opinion! Also, Clearly an act that in other media might cause the police to wish to become aware of said villainous and hatred encouraging poster!
The Internet is good- but if we had made it so that it could not be defiled by producers of " intellectual sewage", Would we not all be the better for it?
- Johnny -
And yet, It is used, to often, as a powerful, unrelenting, severe and merciless weapon , an attack tool!
I am a Heterosexual! Yet, I have been labeled as a Gay Man by " Outspoken Manly Man" who I have dared to have the temerity to disagree with. I like good argument- I am a Toastmaster and a teacher as well as a well-trained debater and analyst. Yet, rather than contend with my ideas in a mannerly way, I was told to perform anatomically impossible acts and asked " When I am going to come out of the closet????!!!!." That is both not germane to anything and is antagonistic and incendiary!
I got involved in a discussion of Abortion where I declared that I am militantly pro-life! This was on a Forum Thread on causes that you are dedicated to and would volunteer to support. Someone mentioned how much he disliked my not minding my own business. He said that his cause was castrating gay men in denial and training them how to mind their own business and how to focus on what they need to focus upon -- How to dress and act to attract the attention of other gay men!!!!
Quite repulsive and unacceptable in my opinion! Also, Clearly an act that in other media might cause the police to wish to become aware of said villainous and hatred encouraging poster!
The Internet is good- but if we had made it so that it could not be defiled by producers of " intellectual sewage", Would we not all be the better for it?
- Johnny -
Friday, September 23, 2011
We ARE MARSHALL!!!
One of The Most inspiring cheers in ALL of College Football. It came about as an instrument of healing! 37 members of the 1970 Marshall Football Team died in a plane crash.
After much grieving and soul-searching, It was decided that Marshall would re-build their Football Team the Chant " We Are Marshall" signifies the BOND that exists between the Marshall University Community and Their Football Team and vice-versa!
- Johnny-
After much grieving and soul-searching, It was decided that Marshall would re-build their Football Team the Chant " We Are Marshall" signifies the BOND that exists between the Marshall University Community and Their Football Team and vice-versa!
- Johnny-
Tomorrow will be about being ready...
to sparkle. For the First Time since The Fall of 2009- 2 long years- I will be in a serious contest- one that I need my juices up for!
I don't know what the results will be- but I am getting ready and getting focused. I just need to do my best- my creative, daring and dazzling best.
Will I- I want to and I am preparing to do so---- Yet, Only THE MOMENT- will actually reveal what my 2 and a half minutes on the stage shall produce!
- Johnny-
I don't know what the results will be- but I am getting ready and getting focused. I just need to do my best- my creative, daring and dazzling best.
Will I- I want to and I am preparing to do so---- Yet, Only THE MOMENT- will actually reveal what my 2 and a half minutes on the stage shall produce!
- Johnny-
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