Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Why Would ANYONE assume that anyone they REALLY do not know is Hateful?
Why would anyone ASSUME that a person who disagrees strongly with their political and social opinion must be a dreadful and loathsome human being?
Polite and Likely Illegally Living in The US of A!!!!
A short while ago, I was offered a seat on a bus by a young Hispanic Man. There is a very strong and growing presense of illegal individuals , largely from Central America, residing and working in the Greater Washington DC area.
Many of them work very hard and are, no doubts, doing jobs that American CITIZENS and some who are here from other lands LEGALLY, might well refuse to do! I know that a number of these people are individually kind and respectful.
Yet, Illegal is to me also immoral. The laws need to be, at all levels, enforced. Those who violate them, are committing crines and, ipso so locuator, ARE!!! CRIMINALS. I truly believe that , " Todos illegales son Criminales" - All Illegals ARE! Criminals!
Some people take a very hostile and miltant attitude toward such folks, They say, " we neede to reject them, provide them with nothing, do nothing to be supportive of them in ANY WAY, Shape or Firm!"" All that individuals believe that it is pproper for them to recieve from us is that they know, beyond any doubt, that, " it is wrong for you to be here. I do not want to have to deal; with you in any way. All I want from you is to leave, leave now and for you to NOT be present in THE US until you are here properly and legally!"
There ia somewhat of a valid point, Yet, Do even proven lawbreakers and criminals deserve, without any question or hesitation, to be treated as BASURA! For Those who speak no Spanish, Basura translates best as " garbage or refuse" in Our English Language!
Many of them work very hard and are, no doubts, doing jobs that American CITIZENS and some who are here from other lands LEGALLY, might well refuse to do! I know that a number of these people are individually kind and respectful.
Yet, Illegal is to me also immoral. The laws need to be, at all levels, enforced. Those who violate them, are committing crines and, ipso so locuator, ARE!!! CRIMINALS. I truly believe that , " Todos illegales son Criminales" - All Illegals ARE! Criminals!
Some people take a very hostile and miltant attitude toward such folks, They say, " we neede to reject them, provide them with nothing, do nothing to be supportive of them in ANY WAY, Shape or Firm!"" All that individuals believe that it is pproper for them to recieve from us is that they know, beyond any doubt, that, " it is wrong for you to be here. I do not want to have to deal; with you in any way. All I want from you is to leave, leave now and for you to NOT be present in THE US until you are here properly and legally!"
There ia somewhat of a valid point, Yet, Do even proven lawbreakers and criminals deserve, without any question or hesitation, to be treated as BASURA! For Those who speak no Spanish, Basura translates best as " garbage or refuse" in Our English Language!
Yikes and Oh, No!!!!! There are T!W!)! more long weekends ahead!!!
I am 56 and I am very much, not to my liking at all, unmarried and far too extemely single and unattached. Memorial Day 2011 was just, as I expereinced it a rather tepid and, is there any way that I can make this day go away, endurance contest.
Both my parents are now dead for over a a decade. The child abuse that I endured played a significant factor in my being very estranged from them for years! My youngest sister berates me for weither lying about it or making it a LOT worse than it was. That has kept us agreeing to passinately disagree and to be strangers connected by DNA! My middle sister, Teresa, has been severely brain damaged, due to an illness, since she was 8. She lives with and is cared for by my sister. My sister Jean has a son, Lonnie. The fact that, practically, these are names and mmories, rather than often people I'm meaningfully connected to and with is a measure of the EVILS and Cynical and Manipulative cruelty of Florence Raven Rodriguez and John Felix Rodriguez Y Cordoba living after them!
My friendships, as I've noted in times past, are connected to causes, activities and c ommitments. There is little sp[ontanaeity to them. I often grieve over this. Unless things are planned and scheduled, Little seems to happen outside of estanlished formality! Many of these people have familes, spouses, children and long established commitments with others. So, My weekend REALLY ended after Church on Sunday Yesterday, I shopped on foot. I slept in and listened to the radio and watched movies. I also worked on some church-related venture. The only direct contact with other human beings was far too sporartically on my 'puter and with my personal trio, Me, Myself and I! This was a day I got through with scant fondness and joy and release!
Yuck, Not at all how I wish it to be! If you'd told me at 26 that this would be my life at 56. I'd ask you what crime had I committed that would merit such a ghastly sentence! Not as I want it to be, However no way of escape seem readily apparent to me.
I kno0w I can volunteer to serve the less fortuunate and that is a valorous and noble thought, most certainly. However, Is it possible to have a July 4th or A Christmas Day as a day of frolic, greatly fun interactionsd, frolic and carefreeness? To me, 05/ 30/ 11 was the total opposite of that in ANY way you can imagine!
Both my parents are now dead for over a a decade. The child abuse that I endured played a significant factor in my being very estranged from them for years! My youngest sister berates me for weither lying about it or making it a LOT worse than it was. That has kept us agreeing to passinately disagree and to be strangers connected by DNA! My middle sister, Teresa, has been severely brain damaged, due to an illness, since she was 8. She lives with and is cared for by my sister. My sister Jean has a son, Lonnie. The fact that, practically, these are names and mmories, rather than often people I'm meaningfully connected to and with is a measure of the EVILS and Cynical and Manipulative cruelty of Florence Raven Rodriguez and John Felix Rodriguez Y Cordoba living after them!
My friendships, as I've noted in times past, are connected to causes, activities and c ommitments. There is little sp[ontanaeity to them. I often grieve over this. Unless things are planned and scheduled, Little seems to happen outside of estanlished formality! Many of these people have familes, spouses, children and long established commitments with others. So, My weekend REALLY ended after Church on Sunday Yesterday, I shopped on foot. I slept in and listened to the radio and watched movies. I also worked on some church-related venture. The only direct contact with other human beings was far too sporartically on my 'puter and with my personal trio, Me, Myself and I! This was a day I got through with scant fondness and joy and release!
Yuck, Not at all how I wish it to be! If you'd told me at 26 that this would be my life at 56. I'd ask you what crime had I committed that would merit such a ghastly sentence! Not as I want it to be, However no way of escape seem readily apparent to me.
I kno0w I can volunteer to serve the less fortuunate and that is a valorous and noble thought, most certainly. However, Is it possible to have a July 4th or A Christmas Day as a day of frolic, greatly fun interactionsd, frolic and carefreeness? To me, 05/ 30/ 11 was the total opposite of that in ANY way you can imagine!
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Rare Johnny !
Unique, Rare and Special, This seems to be moi. Some may well consider being such as being a benefit and a blessing. Those "such" may indeed be right. I tend to see it as a frustration and something that seems to be too complicated to cope well with!
I have been told, as I now look at it, through out my life that I am unusual and difficult to understand. Some used the words " odd" and "weird" to analyze how they saw me! I now view the severe and vile child abuse that was imposed upon me as being my parents way to break the will and shatter the personality of a child they just ABSOLUTELY were not able to comprehend. I seemed to be someone who could not be their child because I seemed nothing like them- someone so OTHER to them that I could not possibly be their child.Somehow, In their uncomprehending warpedness, I was willfully obnoxious and defiant to their authority simply for ever trying, at ANY time , to simply be who I was!
I was told that " people just don't think the way you do", " You ask far too many questions. That is not good, At some point you need, to be respectful, stop thinking and just be silent. No one cares about what you think." This was true of BOTH my parents and my elementary school teachers. When I was foolish enough to share what I was thinking with my classmates and neighborhood kids, I set myself to be physically bullied and ceaselessly tormented.
As an adult , E=Harmony told me that " I will be a very difficult challenge- It will be difficult for them to find a match for me!" I was told that My intuitiveness was off the scale.I took this as a part of a vocational program and was told by the analyst of my results that" My results are normally seen in women and gay men and rarely in heterosexual males.' This heterosexual male did NOT know how to respond to this-LOL! A Spiritual Gifts Profile that I recently took indicates that my blend of gifts is most unusual. My Mental Health Therapist has told me that my intelligence, writing and speaking abilities can make me very daunting to work with. I guess I should apologize for that
During my 20 plus years in Toastmasters, I've often been told that my abilities as an Impromptu Speaker and as a evaluator of other speakers often astounds and amazes people. I'm often told that by parents that their children often tell them, "Johnny is so different, I haven't met an adult like him."- This is said with grins on their faces. At a school that I often served as a Substitute Teacher< I was told by a number of students that " I was their favorite teacher". This fact has amazed other teachers.
I do often feel that this explains, in part, my isolation and severe struggle to connect! Do I seek out people who will find my su generisness appealing , alluring and desirable? Or, Do I decide to dilute and mute myself, "tone myself wayyyyyyyy down" and do what ever is need to blend in. These debates do OFTEN keep me up late and night and easily disrupt my efforts to sleep!
I have been told, as I now look at it, through out my life that I am unusual and difficult to understand. Some used the words " odd" and "weird" to analyze how they saw me! I now view the severe and vile child abuse that was imposed upon me as being my parents way to break the will and shatter the personality of a child they just ABSOLUTELY were not able to comprehend. I seemed to be someone who could not be their child because I seemed nothing like them- someone so OTHER to them that I could not possibly be their child.Somehow, In their uncomprehending warpedness, I was willfully obnoxious and defiant to their authority simply for ever trying, at ANY time , to simply be who I was!
I was told that " people just don't think the way you do", " You ask far too many questions. That is not good, At some point you need, to be respectful, stop thinking and just be silent. No one cares about what you think." This was true of BOTH my parents and my elementary school teachers. When I was foolish enough to share what I was thinking with my classmates and neighborhood kids, I set myself to be physically bullied and ceaselessly tormented.
As an adult , E=Harmony told me that " I will be a very difficult challenge- It will be difficult for them to find a match for me!" I was told that My intuitiveness was off the scale.I took this as a part of a vocational program and was told by the analyst of my results that" My results are normally seen in women and gay men and rarely in heterosexual males.' This heterosexual male did NOT know how to respond to this-LOL! A Spiritual Gifts Profile that I recently took indicates that my blend of gifts is most unusual. My Mental Health Therapist has told me that my intelligence, writing and speaking abilities can make me very daunting to work with. I guess I should apologize for that
During my 20 plus years in Toastmasters, I've often been told that my abilities as an Impromptu Speaker and as a evaluator of other speakers often astounds and amazes people. I'm often told that by parents that their children often tell them, "Johnny is so different, I haven't met an adult like him."- This is said with grins on their faces. At a school that I often served as a Substitute Teacher< I was told by a number of students that " I was their favorite teacher". This fact has amazed other teachers.
I do often feel that this explains, in part, my isolation and severe struggle to connect! Do I seek out people who will find my su generisness appealing , alluring and desirable? Or, Do I decide to dilute and mute myself, "tone myself wayyyyyyyy down" and do what ever is need to blend in. These debates do OFTEN keep me up late and night and easily disrupt my efforts to sleep!
When moved to tears and uncertain of where to go next...
My Pastor moved me to tears today. He spoke of fathers who are never there when they are most sought for and seem to be most unable and/ or unwilling to affirm their sons and daughters! The kind of men who will tell a child who unworthy they are to be their child. This , sadly is a sharp description of how my dad was on a reliable basis!
He also said that there were people in all parts and times of our lives who we are certain will be allies, supportive of our intentions, plans and dreams who simply will disappoint us. He said, conversely, that there will be people who will surprise us by how supportive of us they are when we have no reason to believe that they will be.
I feel a bit overwhelmed by being haunted by the past and uncertain of where to tread next on this late Sunday afternoon!
He also said that there were people in all parts and times of our lives who we are certain will be allies, supportive of our intentions, plans and dreams who simply will disappoint us. He said, conversely, that there will be people who will surprise us by how supportive of us they are when we have no reason to believe that they will be.
I feel a bit overwhelmed by being haunted by the past and uncertain of where to tread next on this late Sunday afternoon!
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Lifting yourself up to be of better service!
Long holiday weekends can be daunting and ruffling and besettingly sad if it seems like your company for the opening of a Fun Season like Summer if your prime company is me, myself and I. If your conversations are most likely to be among those 3 and no other!
Prayer brings in more and touches lives and moves the hand of God! It touches people whether you have any "real" contact with others or not!
Prayer brings in more and touches lives and moves the hand of God! It touches people whether you have any "real" contact with others or not!
Friday, May 27, 2011
Coupon Mavens- Convince Me.
I love books, comic books and electronic gaming! Are their coupons that I may want to look for to help fund these fun outlets of mine?
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