I lose things too easily!

 This, sadly, seems to be a life pattern for me.

Divided - Is it possible for us in THE USA to resolve this?

 One of the great sorrows of 2012 America is how divided we are and how resolute people have become in maintaining their position and branding others as being  " The Problem" for not letting go of their position.

So, If people believe that they CANNOT sacrifice and part of THEIR POSITION, Is compromise and a meeting of their minds at ALL possible in this EARLY Spring of 2012 in the US of A?

- Johnny -

Big Night - Tense Night

By this time tomorrow, I will have either won an Area Speech Contest and will have advanced massively or successfully as a WINNING Speaker or I will be kicking myself for a nerve wracking effort that just didn't accomplish very much positive or worthwhile !


 My goal tonight is to be a storyteller with dialog and sharp description. I will be trying to be more of an "edutainer" and much!!!  less!!!  of a "Baptist Preacher". My coach believes Toastmasters train people to speak very much like Baptist Preachers.

  I am excited and dreading all at the same time. The sun will come up again tomorrow morning  but " Wait until NEXT year " is a Kryptonite- Like phrase when it comesto desiring to advance yourself forward tomorrow and the days that follow immediately after as  leader, communicator and motivational educator.

- Johnny -

Trudging through the Temporal Slog

 I can imagine things being better. I can easily imagining things being far more pleasing to me. I can imagine being far happier, less lonely and far more satisfied!

 Yet, It is late Sunday night and Monday is coming. So, I shall slog forward and cope as best I'm able with what tomorrow shall be!

I do need to remember...

and be consoled by the fact that - Tomorrow is another day!

This day began well.

 It is ending in a messy and unsatisfying manner!

A lonely and VERY!!!! Anxious Saturday Night .

 Burning a portion of my dinner reminds me that no matter how much I pretend otherwise I don't like at all being lonely ESPECIALLY on a warm and gorgeous Saturday night. I hate having long conversations with one person. I dislike the lack of focusing on someone who is as charmed by me as I am by her. I never wanted to live a life where everything that would be about me would require my effort.

  Today knowing that I live an an apartment by myself and nothing gets done here unless I do it feels repulsive and most unacceptable. I would have loved someone to have gone food shopping yesterday. It would have been superb to ask "Cheryl" to please pick up my suit at the cleaners. Or ask Angela to throw out the trash. It would have been superb to ask Merri if she and I could do the wash together or work to prepare dinner together. I'm also not looking forward to an anxious tough to get to sleep time arriving in a few short hours!

 Lonely weekends are a bane to me. I adjust, at very best to them. At times they feel like a prison sentence, This Saturday night, March 17th in West Alexandria id definitely one of those times! Yuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

- Johnny -