2012 is!!!! now here!
- Johnny-
Saturday, December 31, 2011
This was a Rough Ride.
A Harsh year that saw some good thing initiated! I pray that , A year from now, I will remember 2012 with a much grander degree of fondness!
- Johnny-
- Johnny-
Never be afraid to say what you believe!
The persistent expression of your most passionately and motivating beliefs is gymnastics for the mind, spirit and soul!
- Johnny-
- Johnny-
An Lovely and Eloquent message
I heard a splendid and eloquent message, A Toastmaster Speech Evaluation, given by a magnificent, scholarly and dignified 6o year old woman today., This woman is black and was born in poverty.
Wow, She embodies possibilities and realized dream so well and delightfully! Ballet in words , Thy name is Tamara Hamilton.
Wow, She embodies possibilities and realized dream so well and delightfully! Ballet in words , Thy name is Tamara Hamilton.
Robert Kennedy and The Valuable Paradigm shift that we lost with him
This is my ONE!!! THOUSANDTH Blog Post of the Year 2011. I've been thinking a lot about what I would write about it. This blog entry will start by looking at the sons of Joseph Patrick Kennedy, Senior and His wife Rose Fitzgerald Kennedy.
Rose's Father was a Former Mayor of Boston. Joseph Senior was a man who chose to make his priority to become wealthy and influential " by any means necessary.". The Four Kennedy Brothers were raised to value wealth, political power and influence.
The father longed to be The President of The US. That never occurred! Early on, Joseph decided that his oldest son, Joseph Junior would become President Joe died while serving The US Military during World War II. He dies while flying on a secret mission when his plane exploded.
John, The Second son was elected President in 1960 and served as President From January 20Th ,1961 until his murder in Dallas on Friday, November 22ND, 1963. He is seen by many Americans as one of our Iconic President. Some people see him as a man who had style, intelligence, a quick wit. He was viewed as a pragmatist who was quickly evolving to become a more passionate and compassionate leader. This is energetically debated by many Presidential scholars. He is also widely considered as a man determined to live the good life and get the most out of every POSSIBLE opportunity to enjoy life, in all the joy and recklessness that that concept can encompass.
The Youngest Brother, born in 1932, was Edward Moore Kennedy aka Teddy! Teddy , looking at matters now, seems to have been far more comfortable with being a United States Senator. Edward battled with alcoholism and also seemed to be a bit reckless, perhaps inclined to act before thinking. He's also branded as a serial womanizer.
Teddy is also a man who is widely lionized as a man who seemed to care passionately for the poor, the under served, the dispossessed and the passed over. He is also seen as a type of patron saint of health care! Others see him as a man who wanted to see people more cared about rather than providing ways to encourage people to do all that is legal and within their own power and ability to achieve as much as they can individually to live the maximally best possible that they can for themselves.
The 3rd Son, Robert, served as Senate staffer through out the 1950's he is infamously connect to Senator Joseph Raymond McCarthy of Wisconsin. He is also lauded for the work he did during Senate investigation of Organized Crime. This Committee was chaired by Senator Estes Kefauver of Tennessee.
Robert served as Attorney General from 1961 until early 1964, He was elected to The Senate representing New York in the fall of 1964. He served as a Senator from 1965 until his murder in Los Angeles.
A few days ago, I finished reading a book entitled " Then Everything Changed" written by well known political analyst and commentator Jeff Greenfield. This book is a fictional work- it contains with in it 3 novellas- three well-written and spell binding tales of a genre known as Alternative History.
The First novella features John Kennedy, Lyndon Johnson, Nikita Khruschev and Hubert Humphrey.. The 3RD Novella centers upon Gerald Ford, Ronald Reagan and Gary Hart, The middle novella is focused upon Robert Kennedy!
Greenfield, very early in his career served as a speechwriter for Robert Kennedy. He helped me to view Senator Kennedy in a whole new way! On Page 246, Greenfield tells us the following information, " When he spoke of black unemployment, He would argue that " something more is needed" but he would add. " Let us make clear what " something more" is not.It is not a massive extension of welfare services or a new profusion of guidance counselors and psychiatrists." But,by 1968, welfare workers, guidance counselors and social workers were a part of a growing cadre of public employees who were becoming an important part of The Democratic Party Base."
On Page 247, Greenfield notes what Robert Kennedy believes is a developing "stereotype" of the Democratic Party, " Kennedy understood the political danger if the middle class came to view the Democratic Party of a growing government whose focus was primarily on the poor."
It does seem that Robert Kennedy gained some valuable insights that definitely need to be applied to Early 2012. He saw that Government had to be limited and contained. He truly understood that that the poor, the suffering, the disadvantaged and the broken need to be well-supported and well-championed. He also saw that they also need to be shown that they are valuable individuals and that their intelligence, creativity, initiative and desire to achieve and succeed would create a path out of poverty and dependence for them!
This is a message that I am convinced that NO!!! ONE!!! now running for The Presidency now understands, believes in and truly subscribes to. This is a shame. I believe that this paradigm that Robert Kennedy came to embrace in the last years of his life needs to become a life- enhancing social service paradigm in the 21St Century. George W. Bush often spoke of the " soft bigotry of lowered expectations". I can also imagine Robert Kennedy unashamedly saying those very same words. I'd long wondered why Robert Francis Kennedy was never very comfortable with Hubert Humphrey and truly detested and loathed Lyndon Baines Johnson. He powerfully disagreed with their ideas on problem solving, creating categories of people and writing legislation that created large agencies to insure that those problems were solved. He wanted a lighter and more personalized touch. Solve the problems that will keep a man or a woman from accessing their own best problem solving ability- themselves, their dreams, their desires and their deepest conviction and motivations and then get out of their way and do noting to impede or sabotage their progress to a better them and an ultimately better life.
As I type this I am dependent upon SSI, SSDI and subsidized housing. My fondest desire is for this to one day not be a statement that is true of me. I'm actively involved in finding a life- empowering way of escape that will lead to a quality life for me. I enjoy spending as much time as possible around cultured, bright, positive, well-spoken erudite and urbane men and women. I want this to become a more regular and frequent occurance in my life. I know that I can battle to make this so!
People with no hope of becoming better, living and acting better and desiring continuing improvement will become individuals who will live lives that will be bountiful, meaningful and prosperous! Robert Kennedy saw this as what America need to be. My dream for 2012 is that more of those who are elected to be of us and serve us will embrace this as the reality that we ALL need to live within!
- Johnny-
Rose's Father was a Former Mayor of Boston. Joseph Senior was a man who chose to make his priority to become wealthy and influential " by any means necessary.". The Four Kennedy Brothers were raised to value wealth, political power and influence.
The father longed to be The President of The US. That never occurred! Early on, Joseph decided that his oldest son, Joseph Junior would become President Joe died while serving The US Military during World War II. He dies while flying on a secret mission when his plane exploded.
John, The Second son was elected President in 1960 and served as President From January 20Th ,1961 until his murder in Dallas on Friday, November 22ND, 1963. He is seen by many Americans as one of our Iconic President. Some people see him as a man who had style, intelligence, a quick wit. He was viewed as a pragmatist who was quickly evolving to become a more passionate and compassionate leader. This is energetically debated by many Presidential scholars. He is also widely considered as a man determined to live the good life and get the most out of every POSSIBLE opportunity to enjoy life, in all the joy and recklessness that that concept can encompass.
The Youngest Brother, born in 1932, was Edward Moore Kennedy aka Teddy! Teddy , looking at matters now, seems to have been far more comfortable with being a United States Senator. Edward battled with alcoholism and also seemed to be a bit reckless, perhaps inclined to act before thinking. He's also branded as a serial womanizer.
Teddy is also a man who is widely lionized as a man who seemed to care passionately for the poor, the under served, the dispossessed and the passed over. He is also seen as a type of patron saint of health care! Others see him as a man who wanted to see people more cared about rather than providing ways to encourage people to do all that is legal and within their own power and ability to achieve as much as they can individually to live the maximally best possible that they can for themselves.
The 3rd Son, Robert, served as Senate staffer through out the 1950's he is infamously connect to Senator Joseph Raymond McCarthy of Wisconsin. He is also lauded for the work he did during Senate investigation of Organized Crime. This Committee was chaired by Senator Estes Kefauver of Tennessee.
Robert served as Attorney General from 1961 until early 1964, He was elected to The Senate representing New York in the fall of 1964. He served as a Senator from 1965 until his murder in Los Angeles.
A few days ago, I finished reading a book entitled " Then Everything Changed" written by well known political analyst and commentator Jeff Greenfield. This book is a fictional work- it contains with in it 3 novellas- three well-written and spell binding tales of a genre known as Alternative History.
The First novella features John Kennedy, Lyndon Johnson, Nikita Khruschev and Hubert Humphrey.. The 3RD Novella centers upon Gerald Ford, Ronald Reagan and Gary Hart, The middle novella is focused upon Robert Kennedy!
Greenfield, very early in his career served as a speechwriter for Robert Kennedy. He helped me to view Senator Kennedy in a whole new way! On Page 246, Greenfield tells us the following information, " When he spoke of black unemployment, He would argue that " something more is needed" but he would add. " Let us make clear what " something more" is not.It is not a massive extension of welfare services or a new profusion of guidance counselors and psychiatrists." But,by 1968, welfare workers, guidance counselors and social workers were a part of a growing cadre of public employees who were becoming an important part of The Democratic Party Base."
On Page 247, Greenfield notes what Robert Kennedy believes is a developing "stereotype" of the Democratic Party, " Kennedy understood the political danger if the middle class came to view the Democratic Party of a growing government whose focus was primarily on the poor."
It does seem that Robert Kennedy gained some valuable insights that definitely need to be applied to Early 2012. He saw that Government had to be limited and contained. He truly understood that that the poor, the suffering, the disadvantaged and the broken need to be well-supported and well-championed. He also saw that they also need to be shown that they are valuable individuals and that their intelligence, creativity, initiative and desire to achieve and succeed would create a path out of poverty and dependence for them!
This is a message that I am convinced that NO!!! ONE!!! now running for The Presidency now understands, believes in and truly subscribes to. This is a shame. I believe that this paradigm that Robert Kennedy came to embrace in the last years of his life needs to become a life- enhancing social service paradigm in the 21St Century. George W. Bush often spoke of the " soft bigotry of lowered expectations". I can also imagine Robert Kennedy unashamedly saying those very same words. I'd long wondered why Robert Francis Kennedy was never very comfortable with Hubert Humphrey and truly detested and loathed Lyndon Baines Johnson. He powerfully disagreed with their ideas on problem solving, creating categories of people and writing legislation that created large agencies to insure that those problems were solved. He wanted a lighter and more personalized touch. Solve the problems that will keep a man or a woman from accessing their own best problem solving ability- themselves, their dreams, their desires and their deepest conviction and motivations and then get out of their way and do noting to impede or sabotage their progress to a better them and an ultimately better life.
As I type this I am dependent upon SSI, SSDI and subsidized housing. My fondest desire is for this to one day not be a statement that is true of me. I'm actively involved in finding a life- empowering way of escape that will lead to a quality life for me. I enjoy spending as much time as possible around cultured, bright, positive, well-spoken erudite and urbane men and women. I want this to become a more regular and frequent occurance in my life. I know that I can battle to make this so!
People with no hope of becoming better, living and acting better and desiring continuing improvement will become individuals who will live lives that will be bountiful, meaningful and prosperous! Robert Kennedy saw this as what America need to be. My dream for 2012 is that more of those who are elected to be of us and serve us will embrace this as the reality that we ALL need to live within!
- Johnny-
Has 2011 been " the No Good, Horrible, Very Bad" Year?
2011- An Earthquake, The shift of services of my Church, which rents space from an Arlington County, Va Middle School, from a comfortable auditorium to uncomfortable bleachers in a gymnasium. Many heavy rain storms to trudge through or wait for buses in in the last 4 months of the year. This sampling of struggle seems to have just been the way 2011 appeared to be to myself and others that I've chatted with locally, nationally and world wide.. One wag said, " I was ready to fire this year right around Valentine's Day!"
This year does not over all, based on conversations, newspaper commentaries and media pundits seem to have been a banner year. One commentator said that this is a year that "you will want to dump lime on once it is over!." It was also said to be in a year that, " needs to be buried in an unmarked grave in an area where weeds grow high and quickly."
According to two store mangers I spoke to it was a great year for The Dollar Tree Chain and 7-11. I have noted , over the last few weeks, the phrase " Like it or not" appearing more and more frequently in radio programs and even in newscasts. The tone is that of " What you are about to tell will annoy, frustrate and displease you , however... I heard it used in a story of a likely 2012 local transit increase. I understand one coach EVEN used it, or so I've been told, to describe the current state of his sports team.
I do predict that the phrase, " Like it or not" will be heard from time to time during The 2012 Presidential Election Season!
- Johnny -
This year does not over all, based on conversations, newspaper commentaries and media pundits seem to have been a banner year. One commentator said that this is a year that "you will want to dump lime on once it is over!." It was also said to be in a year that, " needs to be buried in an unmarked grave in an area where weeds grow high and quickly."
According to two store mangers I spoke to it was a great year for The Dollar Tree Chain and 7-11. I have noted , over the last few weeks, the phrase " Like it or not" appearing more and more frequently in radio programs and even in newscasts. The tone is that of " What you are about to tell will annoy, frustrate and displease you , however... I heard it used in a story of a likely 2012 local transit increase. I understand one coach EVEN used it, or so I've been told, to describe the current state of his sports team.
I do predict that the phrase, " Like it or not" will be heard from time to time during The 2012 Presidential Election Season!
- Johnny -
Why have most teachers decided to make teaching predictable,boring and
dull?
If a child or youth seems bored to tears in class, it may be because what is being taught could not possibly be presented in any more of an uninteresting manner.
The very best teachers stress that especially with younger students be interesting, be daring, creative and fascinating. Engage your students and make your class room a place that these children want be.
Yet, Many teachers still run classrooms as if they are teaching during their parents' or grandparents' childhoods.
Why are they choosing to do that?
- Johnny -
If a child or youth seems bored to tears in class, it may be because what is being taught could not possibly be presented in any more of an uninteresting manner.
The very best teachers stress that especially with younger students be interesting, be daring, creative and fascinating. Engage your students and make your class room a place that these children want be.
Yet, Many teachers still run classrooms as if they are teaching during their parents' or grandparents' childhoods.
Why are they choosing to do that?
- Johnny -
Friday, December 30, 2011
Wasting an hour of your life standing and accomplishing little or nothing.
This is a penalty often force upon those who choose to use The greater Washington DC Metrobuses! The unreliability of the system imposes these lost hours. It , in effect, becomes an additional fare that is imposed upon us for using this- L!!! O!!! L!!!! " service" ! UGH!!!!!!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
" Not Amped up and Crazy Yet!"
Earlier today, December 30th. I stopped by an Embassy Suites Hotes in Old Town Alexandria. I asked the two desk clerks if this was the day of rest and trying to enjoy the day"
One nodded. The other one said, " Tomorrow won't be. We're not amped up and crazy yet!"
- Johnny-
One nodded. The other one said, " Tomorrow won't be. We're not amped up and crazy yet!"
- Johnny-
Lost In Annandale
My wallet was apparently gone, I could not find it any where, That really has gotten me things. For a while, i thought about " How am I going to get going with replacing what I lost?" It was lost for just under 40 hours.
It was found in as car that I had been riding in. It apparently fell out of my backpack. What a week this has been! I guess I learned about what is is like to pull matters together when your connect seem to evaporate in a quick, unexpected instance!
- Johnny-
It was found in as car that I had been riding in. It apparently fell out of my backpack. What a week this has been! I guess I learned about what is is like to pull matters together when your connect seem to evaporate in a quick, unexpected instance!
- Johnny-
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Even if you believe that it is possible for Mountains to be cast into the sea...
It is apparent that most mountains are intended to be climbed, even the most rugged ones. - Johnny-
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Time for a change of pace.
Tomorrow's original plan is scrubbed. It will be a day of rest, re-gathering, meditation and thinking out more carefully what I should be doing..
- Johnny-
- Johnny-
Life is going to be as it is whether you are ready or able to deal with the
situation or not, It is often wise to pray a very old prayer! Don't pray for an easy life- Pray to be a strong person!
This week is teaching me....
that life sometimes forces you to abandon Plans A, B, C, D, and E. The The shrewd and the most clever are able to get everyone to think that Plan F was, of course, their chose and preferred plan- LOL!!!!!- all along!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
If you make a promise, keep it...
EVEN if it ruins you! I deeply believe in this principle.
- Johnny-
- Johnny-
I am a bit depressed now and feeling alone and defeated.
I will push through it. Better days are on the close horizon. I KNOW!!! that they are!
- Johnny-
- Johnny-
2012 will be the One FULL year of The 18 Month Prime Directive!
2011 involved the First 3 Months. 2013 will take me the Rest of the way January 1st until the end of the Day on May First!
This will be a year, then, of testing, pushing myself and being committed!
- Johnny -
This will be a year, then, of testing, pushing myself and being committed!
- Johnny -
The coolest people shrug off the difficult and live to discover.
I need , then, to ask myself, " Am I capable of being cool?"
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
I need to commit myself to being bold and willing to be tougher and sturdier.
Living a life which is not messy and does not inflict any injury is a bland and most uninteresting and unappealing life in the long run!
- Johnny-
- Johnny-
Help me to be grateful, Lord, for what I have now.
I learned recently that you'd prefer us to say thank you before we ask you to meet our needs and desires! This was through listening to a message by Steve Furtick of The Elevation Church in North Carolina!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
I need to not mourn for days that just seemed tepid in my opinion...
and lacking appeal and satisfaction. Life is lived today, right now!
I will tutor tomorrow!
I'll need to be clever. Tutoring in the midst of a break means you are likely to be tutoring a most resistant student.
I think I'd prefer being out in a light snow....
rather than a heavy cold chill you to the bone rain!
I need to be freed of entitlement. thinking....
I can't magically hope to get what I believe would charm me most!
A Most Unwanted Day---- On The Surface
Yesterday was Christmas observed. This due to Sunday being Christmas. However , The Day was a partial dismantling of Christmas for me. I received a note saying that my apartment , among others, would be visited by the exterminators today.
This meant that I had to dismantle the Christmas decorations on my dining room table yesterday. I decorated my apartment with the major assistance of some good Church Friends on the 11TH of December. They did a tremendous job on the dining room table. I dismantled it to place the items from my kitchen that I needed to move from the kitchen. This was not something I wanted to do on the 26Th of December. The extermination could have been scheduled for early January. Not really great timing! I
I've re-assembled the dining room decorations- they are no where what they were from the 11TH through noon on the 26TH.
I thought I'd get away from the apartment and tutor today. I also had a book to return to the library. The bus that would have gotten me to the library came and shot passed me, it was substantially early and I just missed it. So, I got to the Library walking in a cold rain.
I went to wait for a bus one never came that I was waiting. Again, I learned from someone else that the bus were running early throughout the day--- fewer passengers due to the Holiday Week. I then contacted the mother of the boy who I agreed to tutor today. His mother had asked me last week if I'd be available on Tuesday the 27TH.
When I called her, I was told today was not workable and she'd like me to tutor her son tomorrow at 2!!!! Arggghhhh!, I'd really hope for a low- key fun no commitment and no unwanted entanglement week. When I agreed to the tutoring, I thought that this would be the only commitment that I'd have all week. The note that I found on the door of my apartment at 5 PM on December 23RD changed that. I wanted to protest! The offices , however closed early on Friday and did not reopen until today at 11- an hour after I left to meet the commitments I thought I had.
After an hour and 10 minutes of efforet, My apartment is, more or less as it was on Christmas Day!
I can't say I'm pleased with this. However some sunlight enters into the cold rain that I trudged through today. I did find two great used books in the library that I purchased. After learning of my postponed tutoring session, I found 2 more great books in the library where I retreated to after getting that news. I had a good conversation with someone waiting for a bus and waiting to check out a book, So, While I was not doing anything I wanted to be doing, Yet, I really can't argue that this was NOT where I SHOULD have been! A year ago, I would have argued exactly- LOL!!!! - that!
I even found a game I'd been looking for my X Box 360 at a very low price!
Not the week I sought after, However....
- Johnny-
This meant that I had to dismantle the Christmas decorations on my dining room table yesterday. I decorated my apartment with the major assistance of some good Church Friends on the 11TH of December. They did a tremendous job on the dining room table. I dismantled it to place the items from my kitchen that I needed to move from the kitchen. This was not something I wanted to do on the 26Th of December. The extermination could have been scheduled for early January. Not really great timing! I
I've re-assembled the dining room decorations- they are no where what they were from the 11TH through noon on the 26TH.
I thought I'd get away from the apartment and tutor today. I also had a book to return to the library. The bus that would have gotten me to the library came and shot passed me, it was substantially early and I just missed it. So, I got to the Library walking in a cold rain.
I went to wait for a bus one never came that I was waiting. Again, I learned from someone else that the bus were running early throughout the day--- fewer passengers due to the Holiday Week. I then contacted the mother of the boy who I agreed to tutor today. His mother had asked me last week if I'd be available on Tuesday the 27TH.
When I called her, I was told today was not workable and she'd like me to tutor her son tomorrow at 2!!!! Arggghhhh!, I'd really hope for a low- key fun no commitment and no unwanted entanglement week. When I agreed to the tutoring, I thought that this would be the only commitment that I'd have all week. The note that I found on the door of my apartment at 5 PM on December 23RD changed that. I wanted to protest! The offices , however closed early on Friday and did not reopen until today at 11- an hour after I left to meet the commitments I thought I had.
After an hour and 10 minutes of efforet, My apartment is, more or less as it was on Christmas Day!
I can't say I'm pleased with this. However some sunlight enters into the cold rain that I trudged through today. I did find two great used books in the library that I purchased. After learning of my postponed tutoring session, I found 2 more great books in the library where I retreated to after getting that news. I had a good conversation with someone waiting for a bus and waiting to check out a book, So, While I was not doing anything I wanted to be doing, Yet, I really can't argue that this was NOT where I SHOULD have been! A year ago, I would have argued exactly- LOL!!!! - that!
I even found a game I'd been looking for my X Box 360 at a very low price!
Not the week I sought after, However....
- Johnny-
Some thoughts on change!
Change is inevitable, It will occur with or without our blessing and support. It is best, overall, to work with and adjust with chane rather to defy change or wage war against it. I will grant ALL of this.
Yet, Is all change than to be viewed as a positive? Is all change beneficial? Are there some changes that can create unwelcome or perhaps even negative consequences for an individual, a community or a society?
If someone argues that- People were once more polite, less rude, more sensitive to their circumstances and those around them- Does this mean that this person's views are incoorect, offensive or even possibly racist?If a person notes that the quality of services they are receiving from a commercial enterprise have lessened in quality from where they are 10 years ago- Is this a sign that this person is overly fussy and prone to be a problem? If someone notes that food courts, parks, libraries seem to be less well kept up and less clean than they once were- Is that just a personal problem?
I could go on but I do believe I've made my point. Yes, Change is constant and inevitable? does this, then , mean that vall change is positive and beneficial and should be embraced warmly and fondly? Is an individual incorrect and out of touch with reality if they question whether a SPECIFIC change MUST occur or is being imposed upon people?
Is it catagorical wrong and unseemly for an individual, a community or a society to examine warily and cautiously a change that they believe will impose difficulties upon themselves, their community and society before they choose to surrender to it and go with the flow?
Simply, Is all change good? Should all change simply be embraced as inevitable?
- Johnny -
Yet, Is all change than to be viewed as a positive? Is all change beneficial? Are there some changes that can create unwelcome or perhaps even negative consequences for an individual, a community or a society?
If someone argues that- People were once more polite, less rude, more sensitive to their circumstances and those around them- Does this mean that this person's views are incoorect, offensive or even possibly racist?If a person notes that the quality of services they are receiving from a commercial enterprise have lessened in quality from where they are 10 years ago- Is this a sign that this person is overly fussy and prone to be a problem? If someone notes that food courts, parks, libraries seem to be less well kept up and less clean than they once were- Is that just a personal problem?
I could go on but I do believe I've made my point. Yes, Change is constant and inevitable? does this, then , mean that vall change is positive and beneficial and should be embraced warmly and fondly? Is an individual incorrect and out of touch with reality if they question whether a SPECIFIC change MUST occur or is being imposed upon people?
Is it catagorical wrong and unseemly for an individual, a community or a society to examine warily and cautiously a change that they believe will impose difficulties upon themselves, their community and society before they choose to surrender to it and go with the flow?
Simply, Is all change good? Should all change simply be embraced as inevitable?
- Johnny -
Monday, December 26, 2011
The Apartment is ready for the exterminator.
Not the work I wanted to do on the Day after Christmas. However, I dis submit to life as it is. Darn it, This be so!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
I need to accept that being commited to be made new is a messy...
process. I do DEVOUTLY wish that this is not reality. Sadly, It JUST IS!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Starting anew--- Learning to appeciate Transitions
I'm going to learn to handle them better ! This is a goal of mine for 2012!
Sunday, December 25, 2011
December 26Th is not a good day to cast aside holiday decorations...
and make your apartment as mess so that the exterminators can work on it on December 27TH.
Yet, That will not be the fault of the crew that does this work. I think it shows that the people who run my apartment complex are showing that they are not as good at running a complex as I once believed that they were!
Yet, That will not be the fault of the crew that does this work. I think it shows that the people who run my apartment complex are showing that they are not as good at running a complex as I once believed that they were!
God, I've learned that what happens on any one day...
is shaped, in great measure, by what has transpired in your life in all the days that have proceeded it!
Casa Chirilagua
I've known, in the interest of being candid, real and vulnerable, that I'd be writing THIS particular blog entry. I can delay writing it no longer. This is my 1,095TH entry on My Blog. That is the equivalent of THREE YEARS of blogging in less than 15 months. This also seems that it MUST be a Christmas Day Blog.
This blog will also allow me to discuss an issue that is tearing at my heart and soul. I am a loyal American who has a life long love affair with the land of his birth. I cannot, presently,,imagine leaving this nation no matter how bad conditions ever get there. I also believe it is right and just for the United States to rigorously and zealously enforce its' borders. i also believe it is undeniably a crime to enter the United States, illegally without the official permission of Our Government. Living and Working in the United States when you are not legally permitted to be here is a further act of violating the laws of the United States.
I know that the stance of others who do not see things as I do say that this is a matter for The Federal Government to deal with and no state or locality really has any business establishing policy that create a separate immigration policy or law of their own. The argument is then- Whether they should be hear or not or whether you think it is appropriate or inappropriate or not that they are members of the community and are neighbors, that they SIMPLY ARE members of our community and our neighbors. Therefore, While others deal with the larger issues, It is best for us to be kind, supportive, generous, gracious, supportive and just plain neighborly to ALL who are our neighbors.
I actually hear others say that their dissent to that is to not engage positively with those who they believe are not here legally. In effect their protest is, " YOU do not belong here and I feel no desire to be helpful to you. If you can't cope here, then perhaps you will leave."
I have, at times, given into this impulse. Yet, How do I know who is , individually, here legally and who is not. I find that this behavior starts to train you to be rude, callous, uncaring and insensitive. That is just truly unacceptable. I have also been asked what is Christ-like about that response to people you believe to be present in the US illegally.
My Church, Grace Community Church, supports a ministry to the residents of a largely Hispanic community that is in an area Called Arlandria. It is in a section of Alexandria, VA that borders Arlington. It is likely that many of the people served by this ministry , Casa Chirilagua, does serve people who are not legally living in the US. One story is told about a woman, illegally present in the US, who was working for a Dry Cleaners. This man paid her lower than minimum wage and worked her too many hours. He told her that he's report her if she ever created problems for him.
She mentioned that to a Chrilagua Volunteer. This person knew someone who'd been involved in the administration of George W. Bush, This person did some research on the store owner. He learned that he was not paying her any benefits and was paying mot one sent in payroll taxes. The attorney visited the owner and asked him to properly pay his employee and have her work an appropriate schedule. He threatened to report her to ICE. The attorney said that he'd then need to report him to The IRS and the Department of Labor. The two men came to an agreement- this woman is now being dealt with properly and the taxes that need to be paid are being paid.
I'm in the midst of a program where I'm working to learn who I really am and what I'm capable of accomplishing. I want to learn what I who capable of being at my best. I want to be able to benefit others, to be freed enough to care well and to serve well!
I've been urged to invest some time in the work of Casa Chrililagua. I'm a good teacher and tutor and seem to have a good impact upon children and youth. I've balked against doing that. I've raised my argument against doing a great deal for people who are violating US law. I've lately been struck by something I was told.- " Do you believe children should be punished if their parents commit a crime?"The children who were brought to the US or born in the US have broken no law. I've tried to argue that they are paying for the consequences of the actions of their parents. Yet, Being an abused child, I know I don't like thinking that way. Knowing that my own father was illegally living in The US for years and seemed to use the US while telling me what a terrible country the US is comes back to my way of thinking. I think that is wrong but I am not him. These children are not their parents or grand parents.
I'm still not decided as to whether I will get involved in Chrilagua. Yet, It is much harder for me to disdain or disparage it.
- Johnny-
This blog will also allow me to discuss an issue that is tearing at my heart and soul. I am a loyal American who has a life long love affair with the land of his birth. I cannot, presently,,imagine leaving this nation no matter how bad conditions ever get there. I also believe it is right and just for the United States to rigorously and zealously enforce its' borders. i also believe it is undeniably a crime to enter the United States, illegally without the official permission of Our Government. Living and Working in the United States when you are not legally permitted to be here is a further act of violating the laws of the United States.
I know that the stance of others who do not see things as I do say that this is a matter for The Federal Government to deal with and no state or locality really has any business establishing policy that create a separate immigration policy or law of their own. The argument is then- Whether they should be hear or not or whether you think it is appropriate or inappropriate or not that they are members of the community and are neighbors, that they SIMPLY ARE members of our community and our neighbors. Therefore, While others deal with the larger issues, It is best for us to be kind, supportive, generous, gracious, supportive and just plain neighborly to ALL who are our neighbors.
I actually hear others say that their dissent to that is to not engage positively with those who they believe are not here legally. In effect their protest is, " YOU do not belong here and I feel no desire to be helpful to you. If you can't cope here, then perhaps you will leave."
I have, at times, given into this impulse. Yet, How do I know who is , individually, here legally and who is not. I find that this behavior starts to train you to be rude, callous, uncaring and insensitive. That is just truly unacceptable. I have also been asked what is Christ-like about that response to people you believe to be present in the US illegally.
My Church, Grace Community Church, supports a ministry to the residents of a largely Hispanic community that is in an area Called Arlandria. It is in a section of Alexandria, VA that borders Arlington. It is likely that many of the people served by this ministry , Casa Chirilagua, does serve people who are not legally living in the US. One story is told about a woman, illegally present in the US, who was working for a Dry Cleaners. This man paid her lower than minimum wage and worked her too many hours. He told her that he's report her if she ever created problems for him.
She mentioned that to a Chrilagua Volunteer. This person knew someone who'd been involved in the administration of George W. Bush, This person did some research on the store owner. He learned that he was not paying her any benefits and was paying mot one sent in payroll taxes. The attorney visited the owner and asked him to properly pay his employee and have her work an appropriate schedule. He threatened to report her to ICE. The attorney said that he'd then need to report him to The IRS and the Department of Labor. The two men came to an agreement- this woman is now being dealt with properly and the taxes that need to be paid are being paid.
I'm in the midst of a program where I'm working to learn who I really am and what I'm capable of accomplishing. I want to learn what I who capable of being at my best. I want to be able to benefit others, to be freed enough to care well and to serve well!
I've been urged to invest some time in the work of Casa Chrililagua. I'm a good teacher and tutor and seem to have a good impact upon children and youth. I've balked against doing that. I've raised my argument against doing a great deal for people who are violating US law. I've lately been struck by something I was told.- " Do you believe children should be punished if their parents commit a crime?"The children who were brought to the US or born in the US have broken no law. I've tried to argue that they are paying for the consequences of the actions of their parents. Yet, Being an abused child, I know I don't like thinking that way. Knowing that my own father was illegally living in The US for years and seemed to use the US while telling me what a terrible country the US is comes back to my way of thinking. I think that is wrong but I am not him. These children are not their parents or grand parents.
I'm still not decided as to whether I will get involved in Chrilagua. Yet, It is much harder for me to disdain or disparage it.
- Johnny-
Saturday, December 24, 2011
This has been a great month of service. Many Good things done
Yet, No one that I really cherish to be with today, I would have loved to have have broken my record of never being with a significant otherat this time of the year. I know I could be of more service but I would have liked warm words and fond contact today!
Alas, That streak is still intact!
Alas, That streak is still intact!
I'm glad to be tutoring
One gift I have this year is being able to see myself much differently than I did one year ago today!
Clearly not something that will benefit you ...
It might put you in a disadvantageous position, in a place to be taken advantage of , a position of discomfort, a position that you could clearly justify putting yourself through.
Yet, You see someone in need, someone who can't seem to do much to help themselves, someone who will likely stay in a regrettable and undesirable situation!
This persons asks you for understanding, support and assistance. Or, Someone may ask you to act on this struggling person's behalf. Your inclination is to say "no" or to tell them to" PLEASE ask someone else to help you.
You could even try to spiritualize your desire to not deal with this by saying something like " Jesus, During His 3 visible years on Earth did NOT heal everyone who needed healing".
Now, Knowing you. What are you now likely to do? Why?
- Johnny-
Yet, You see someone in need, someone who can't seem to do much to help themselves, someone who will likely stay in a regrettable and undesirable situation!
This persons asks you for understanding, support and assistance. Or, Someone may ask you to act on this struggling person's behalf. Your inclination is to say "no" or to tell them to" PLEASE ask someone else to help you.
You could even try to spiritualize your desire to not deal with this by saying something like " Jesus, During His 3 visible years on Earth did NOT heal everyone who needed healing".
Now, Knowing you. What are you now likely to do? Why?
- Johnny-
Friday, December 23, 2011
I'm forging on - But I feel very alone today/ tonight !
Alas, Another Christmas without a significant other in my life! The streak continues
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Ah December !
I find that I stretch myself out more to benefit others and , overall enjoy it far more, during THIS month!
Do we delude ourselves by thinking that all cultures are equal?
Chuck Colson , in his daily Breakpoint commentary dated December 22ND, 2011, noted that an Afghan woman who was sexually assaulted wound up being imprisoned due to this act. Her attacker was a married man. Colson raises the point that this is a social perspective that we , as Americans would likely find unacceptable. It certainly strikes me as barbaric and repulsive.
It is often argued that critics of American Society often denounce us for the way we treat women, children, gays and lesbians yet seem to ignore the mistreatment of those very same individuals in other societies!
It does cause you to wonder shouldn't the same "negative treatment" gain the same "negative response" no matter where on this planet the offense occurs!
- Johnny -
It is often argued that critics of American Society often denounce us for the way we treat women, children, gays and lesbians yet seem to ignore the mistreatment of those very same individuals in other societies!
It does cause you to wonder shouldn't the same "negative treatment" gain the same "negative response" no matter where on this planet the offense occurs!
- Johnny -
I am open and do truly strive to be transparent.
I do fail and try to hide and cover up when it gets to painful to be that way! Yet, I am at my best when I look at the world and my life from that perspective!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Sports Fans
Remember, They are sports- children's games played by adults! I will remind myself of this blog entry- LOL!!!!!- once the Yankees have their next long losing steak!
Do I judge matters too harshly?
What does it take for me to be happy? For me to think that things are going well and that I should be pleased and contented and happy with things as they are today?
I think that some of the hideous things that I have endured have skewed my perspective. I've seen how hideous and nightmarish the worst times can be. Therefore, I want the good things to be obvious to nearly everyone and really dazzlingly astounding!
So, Something that is an improvement or somewhat better earns, quite often an " Is that all there is reaction ?" from me.
Is this something that you might recommend that I seriously reconsider. This came up, earlier today, as a result of a talk with a friend who is also a mental health professional!
- Johnny -
I think that some of the hideous things that I have endured have skewed my perspective. I've seen how hideous and nightmarish the worst times can be. Therefore, I want the good things to be obvious to nearly everyone and really dazzlingly astounding!
So, Something that is an improvement or somewhat better earns, quite often an " Is that all there is reaction ?" from me.
Is this something that you might recommend that I seriously reconsider. This came up, earlier today, as a result of a talk with a friend who is also a mental health professional!
- Johnny -
2013 Presidential To Do List ---- Reduce Spending and Reduce Entitlements
Should this be a 1 or a 2 on this future list? Do you believe these items deserve a place on this list?
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Caring about others and being involved with others...
is a good way to help you not to notice as often or as readily that you do not have a SIGNIFICANT OTHER during this time of the year!
On TV Tonight....
I will be on a show called Mastering Business Communication. This is a local access cable show. I will be part of a team promoting a District 27 Toastmaster Club- GUTS Toastmasters!
GUTS stands for Get Up To Speak!
GUTS stands for Get Up To Speak!
A Madden Strategy
Not everything shows during a game of Madden. While the details are astounding and vivid, It is clear that not everything that can be made active is not. Cameramen are "frozen" in place no matter what version of Madden you play. It is obvious that the game would be MUCH more expensive if EVERYTHING that could be made realistic was made realistic. It leads me to wonder whether such an intention to true to life details would diminish the prime goal of the game to create a dynamic and fan capturing experience on the filed during the game. The game and the realistic portrayal of the plays being the prime goal of the EASports/ Madden Creation Team Game developers.
I'm starting to see that noticing and observing everything can become dizzying and can create panic and a lack of effectiveness. Noticing that which you need to know at that moment and those things that truly motivate you is likely the best way to not be overwhelmed and overcome by the voluminous details of each and every moment and instance of life!
- Johnny-
I'm starting to see that noticing and observing everything can become dizzying and can create panic and a lack of effectiveness. Noticing that which you need to know at that moment and those things that truly motivate you is likely the best way to not be overwhelmed and overcome by the voluminous details of each and every moment and instance of life!
- Johnny-
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
It helps me to remember...
that My opinions are seldom worth going to war over! I need to remember that it is best to live and let live. When I forget that then my life tends to become very chaotic and troubled.
We are All Americans.
In these tense times, What helps you to remember that you are an American and help you to better bond with your fellow Americans?
The Death of a Troubling Leader!
No matter who we elected- We've never made as our C in C anyone like Kim Jong Il!
Monday, December 19, 2011
I find it hard to believe that people can make great salaries....
and still have just about nothing to show for it. That is difficult to fathom.
Christmas Pageants and Programs are signs that God does work miracles...
He seems to have a sense of humor when he comes to them.
My Faith needs to govern my principles and values.
I hate being reminded of that- this does not make it any less true and valid!
Saturday, December 17, 2011
A Great Rehersal at Church Today!
I do believe the performance tomorrow will be heartwarming and meaningful.
Friday, December 16, 2011
It is wise to learn what a person can do for themselves...
before you decide that you will offer assistance to him or her!
I think I'm going to use public transportation less in 2012...
one way to protest against a poorly run service is to patronize it less frequently.
Issues are often easier to address, consider and resolve when ...
the personalities of those discussing them are not permitted to become part of the conversation.
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Self-protectiveness cannot trump integrity and principle.
Not if you want to live a life that you can be proud of and that can serve as a model for others!
My Decorated Apartment and a 60 Degree night ...
are two things that I dis not anticipate that the night of December 15TH would be like even 3 weeks ago!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
It is hard to have no one special to cherish in Mid0 December.
It is even worse, FAR WORSE, to be in a relationship with someone, realize that this person is no one at all special to you , and go through the motions just because you fear being alone for Christmas!
- Johnny-
- Johnny-
Next Year, 2012, I have to plan to be more intentional.
I tend to try to mine to the fullest what I see as the wealth of the special days and tend to disparage the " ordinary days", the mundane days that most of us put our heads down, trudge through and get the best out of them- not really expecting to get much out of them, expecting that they are just something to GET THROUGH..
I'm not sure how best to do so but I need to somehow view the 366 days of 2012 to be special , exciting and noble days that are worth getting excited about .
The How to Accomplish This is a mystery to me as I type this now!
- Johnny-
I'm not sure how best to do so but I need to somehow view the 366 days of 2012 to be special , exciting and noble days that are worth getting excited about .
The How to Accomplish This is a mystery to me as I type this now!
- Johnny-
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Lessons From The South West Bronx.
One of my greates struggles, something that often proves to be my Kryptonite, is the brutual " I goota do what Ever will let me survive" mentality that I was immersed in NEARLY anywhere I went in the section of the Bronx where I lived.
Even the outsiders, such as my teachers, seemed to just accept the morass rather than do anything to effectively show us models that would likely improve our lives if ewe were tenacious and daring enough to pursue them.
I still have a very jaundiced attitude towards them, years later, for their indifference too often eloquently expressed, and there whole attitude of " better you than me."
I guess that I'm seeing that life can be improved , even when you've wallowed in despair for years , by pushing through lethargy , pain and discomfort to decide to think better, be better, speak better and live much better!
Yet, Did I need to have teachers with this pathetic and unhelpful and unlife - enhancing attitude then ? This also keeps me wondering does maintaining people where they are and striving to not let life get worse for our most crisis-plagued citizens ACTUALLY the very best, as a society, that we can do for those who are " truly our neighbors"?
This may be reality. However, Something within me tells me that this is just NOT the case and that we just callously comfort ourselves by believing that this wretched excuse is the truth!
The Conservatives will maintain that " The Poor will always Be with you!" The Liberals will argue many people, limited programs and we need to work to do the most we can for segments of the population. The individual, thus, does not get what that one man or women, boy or girl truly thinks and longs for.
For those who are able to do better, are capable mentally and emotionally of being taught, mentored and cared about and who will push themselves to accomplish all that they are actually ABLE to accomplish, We need to have a direct, personal, committed and individually adjust ability to meet them where they are top get them to where they desire to arrive!
Do I know exactly how to do achieve this? No! Do I think that our society would benefit by achieving this? ABSOLUTELY? Do I think that we need people committed to work unceasingly and tirelessly until we make this a possibility that we can skillfully and reliability offer to those who want this and will be benefited by this? Beyond any doubt or question!!!!! I learned long ago two vital facts- Just because I don't know what the answer is does NOT mean that there is NOT!!!!!an answer. Just because I'm not certain as to how to do this with passion, precision and excellence does not mean that it is impossible to respond to this obvious need with passion, precision and excellence!
- Johnny-
Even the outsiders, such as my teachers, seemed to just accept the morass rather than do anything to effectively show us models that would likely improve our lives if ewe were tenacious and daring enough to pursue them.
I still have a very jaundiced attitude towards them, years later, for their indifference too often eloquently expressed, and there whole attitude of " better you than me."
I guess that I'm seeing that life can be improved , even when you've wallowed in despair for years , by pushing through lethargy , pain and discomfort to decide to think better, be better, speak better and live much better!
Yet, Did I need to have teachers with this pathetic and unhelpful and unlife - enhancing attitude then ? This also keeps me wondering does maintaining people where they are and striving to not let life get worse for our most crisis-plagued citizens ACTUALLY the very best, as a society, that we can do for those who are " truly our neighbors"?
This may be reality. However, Something within me tells me that this is just NOT the case and that we just callously comfort ourselves by believing that this wretched excuse is the truth!
The Conservatives will maintain that " The Poor will always Be with you!" The Liberals will argue many people, limited programs and we need to work to do the most we can for segments of the population. The individual, thus, does not get what that one man or women, boy or girl truly thinks and longs for.
For those who are able to do better, are capable mentally and emotionally of being taught, mentored and cared about and who will push themselves to accomplish all that they are actually ABLE to accomplish, We need to have a direct, personal, committed and individually adjust ability to meet them where they are top get them to where they desire to arrive!
Do I know exactly how to do achieve this? No! Do I think that our society would benefit by achieving this? ABSOLUTELY? Do I think that we need people committed to work unceasingly and tirelessly until we make this a possibility that we can skillfully and reliability offer to those who want this and will be benefited by this? Beyond any doubt or question!!!!! I learned long ago two vital facts- Just because I don't know what the answer is does NOT mean that there is NOT!!!!!an answer. Just because I'm not certain as to how to do this with passion, precision and excellence does not mean that it is impossible to respond to this obvious need with passion, precision and excellence!
- Johnny-
God did make a way
The people of old did expect a Mighty Deliverer would arrive from Heaven. They did not expect that He would be humbly born rather than arrive as as baby!
Should Mike Shanahan be fIred?
Only if Dan Snyder can live in with having a fill in the blank and unwanted by anyone else non-entity as the Head Coach Of the Washington Redskins in 2012!
I am creative and imaginative.
That allowed me to survive my childhood and it is helping me to prosper today.
I'm now getting back territory lost.
I will make sure that I clean off any drafts that clog up this blog!
Rest and Trust
Rest in The God you know is real and reliable and then trust that He is ALL that He says He is!
I'm building my determination and steadfastness muscles
I guess that I am now in the midst of a job that I presently hate and will come to appreciate.
I frustrate too easily.
I need to see being required to be more careful and diligent as a blessing and the gift of opportunity!
How much pain can a person endure?
I don't think that some people grasp that some people so suffer when they are in pain that they will do anything to avoid being in pain again!
Helping people to become better is a way of
making your life better. John Kennedy once reminded us that " A Rising Tide LIFTS all boats."
The more you write...
The better you are at expressing yourself and the more you want to say and work to say well.
I hate editing.
I like to accomplish and move on but that does mean that life can stop you and require to deal with what you did not correct before.
I am gaining from my personal investment.
The progress that I've made this morning on my latest teaching project can be traced to what I've accomplished over the last 5 months. This includes the work that I did in Mexico in July!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Lord, Let me trust in you today. This is truly Your due!
When I remember what You did to bless me yesterday and am not asking you to bless me today. I'm limiting You. I'm not seeing that You are the all powerful and ever present I AM. This shrinks you and, at least at that moments, becomes an effort to turn You into an idol that cannot save!
Is a borrower truly the slave of the lender?
If you don't have and you do without to the point where it hurts to navigate through each day, Aren't you , then, torturing yourself?
The Quarterback Dilemna
Do you draft the one that will attain miracles next season? Do you draft someone who will become. in time, a sustained model of superior play?
The Ghost of Failure Past
Someone once asked me to teach a class- an SAT Prep class- and I did not do a good job of it. I was working to tutor the children of high achieving and demanding parents. I was not a very secure person 4 years ago and I let the fear of failure eat me alive. I was relieved of my position.
I am NOW editing and making some changes in a Debate instruction proposal that I've been asked to present. The first version of this project was generally well- thought of but I was asked to make some changes to it. Making those changes has been an uphill climb and I've let tension and anxiety limit my progress on my current efforts.
Just this morning, I noticed that I felt bolder and more audacious . Over the last hour or two, I've made some noticeable progress after nearly 2 weeks of getting virtually nothing accomplished.
I now need to remember that I can defeat the ghost of failure past!
- Johnny -
I am NOW editing and making some changes in a Debate instruction proposal that I've been asked to present. The first version of this project was generally well- thought of but I was asked to make some changes to it. Making those changes has been an uphill climb and I've let tension and anxiety limit my progress on my current efforts.
Just this morning, I noticed that I felt bolder and more audacious . Over the last hour or two, I've made some noticeable progress after nearly 2 weeks of getting virtually nothing accomplished.
I now need to remember that I can defeat the ghost of failure past!
- Johnny -
Monday, December 12, 2011
Childhood Church Lessons can stay with you surprisngly well.
It is amazing how so many aspects of my Catholic School boyhood are still with me. BOTh for good and for ill!
Over the last half of 2011, I've become so much less afraid to tell you who I am!
That has proven to allow me to become much freer and more effective! I think I've learned a great deal concerning who others truly are as well!
My 900TH Blog Entry of 2011 - Bob Cratchit Lives
I have spent most of my life being far too whiny, wimpy. I've been crone to give up far too easily and complain. I've viewed far too many people far too wearily and been too willing to be dully and confiningly safe.
Bob Cratchit, a character from Charles Dickens' A Christmas Carol is a man who lived a life of deep poverty. He worked for a stingy miser who worked him far too hard, demanded unreasonable hours from him and paid him next to nothing. Bob was also raising a very sick and crippled child, Tiny Tim.
Bob Cratchit never said an unking d or negative word to anyone, He unfailingly saw life as a rich and wonderful blessing. This attiude seemed was ever present and seemingly invincible. He saw the best in people, trusted them, enjoyed being among them and always let them see hope, trust, positive and inspiring desire and a belief that the marvelous and transforming would always be possible in life!
I am in the still early phases of an 18 Month transformational program. I know that some people see Charles Dickens as someone who played with people's emotions but now, emersed as I am in the 3RD month of my program, I'm seeing that life becomes better and easier to embrace, cherish and appreciate emotionally, spiritually and even intellectually when you are willing to become more Bob Cratchit like!
Merry Christmas 2011 - God bless us everyone!
- Johnny-
Bob Cratchit, a character from Charles Dickens' A Christmas Carol is a man who lived a life of deep poverty. He worked for a stingy miser who worked him far too hard, demanded unreasonable hours from him and paid him next to nothing. Bob was also raising a very sick and crippled child, Tiny Tim.
Bob Cratchit never said an unking d or negative word to anyone, He unfailingly saw life as a rich and wonderful blessing. This attiude seemed was ever present and seemingly invincible. He saw the best in people, trusted them, enjoyed being among them and always let them see hope, trust, positive and inspiring desire and a belief that the marvelous and transforming would always be possible in life!
I am in the still early phases of an 18 Month transformational program. I know that some people see Charles Dickens as someone who played with people's emotions but now, emersed as I am in the 3RD month of my program, I'm seeing that life becomes better and easier to embrace, cherish and appreciate emotionally, spiritually and even intellectually when you are willing to become more Bob Cratchit like!
Merry Christmas 2011 - God bless us everyone!
- Johnny-
Sunday, December 11, 2011
On Monday, December 12TH, 2011,
I need to make my goal, ALL DAY LONG, to seek to UNDERSTAND rather than to be understood!
- Johnny-
- Johnny-
I need to do more....
I will help the mystery child that I have been supporting through my church. I need to see that he or she is remembered in January as well as during THIS season.
Tonight is a good night to reflect. and be humble.
My present life is not all that a fearful and crying child wanted his future to become. It is so much more than a homeless man expected the future to be when he spent hours walking the streets in early December of 2003!
I need to remember that I know what it is like to be a child of crushed hope.
To me, It is vital and necessary to fuel hope in the hearts of children and youth!
I need to be willing to tell stories and be calm and poised.
I am a gifted speaker. I'm a poised and powerful speaker. It is within me to become a champion.
Victory comes to a person
who is determined to do his or her best more often than others do. It is the product of being motivated and willing.
- Johnny-
- Johnny-
To care is to add warmth to any day
There is no feeling colder than thinking that you are nothing and coming to believe that others see you that way as well!
Lord, Show me what you designed me to be.
Please, Lord,let me see who You designed me to be. Let me see truly that I AM fearfully AND!!! wonderfully made.
- Johnny-
- Johnny-
Thank You, Lord, for The Gift of a Youthful Spirit
I believe, I can still and I very often AM transfixed by wonder! You are sooooo good!
Love does change life.
Love adds peace. Peace bring about confidence. Confidence emboldens and then positive action is likely to occur!
My apartment glows with lights.
A week ago, I dismissed the idea of doing ANY holiday decorating for my apartment. I said , " It is just me, It would be a waste of effort to do anything that silly!"
A bold and persistent friend convinced me to reverse my decision. I'm so glad she did. My apartment has a comforting and majestic glow to it with the lights ablaze. This is good- on a cold Sunday night here in Alexandria, Va. I feel warm. loved, brightened and empowered
I also enjoyed the fum company of six amazing church friends valuing me and loving on me- Good ol' Southern Church phrase there!
- Johnny-.
A bold and persistent friend convinced me to reverse my decision. I'm so glad she did. My apartment has a comforting and majestic glow to it with the lights ablaze. This is good- on a cold Sunday night here in Alexandria, Va. I feel warm. loved, brightened and empowered
I also enjoyed the fum company of six amazing church friends valuing me and loving on me- Good ol' Southern Church phrase there!
- Johnny-.
Saturday, December 10, 2011
I know that You are real
Thank you for standing by me, Lod when I so readily display a whining attitude towards you!
I am gaining confidence
I see that I am changing and starting to live more to make my life attractive for myself, to please myself!
Christmas Decorating Tomorrow here!
A week ago tonight, I was not even thinking of this possibility.
This is My Joe Dimaggio Entry For December
The 56th. I know any true Baseball fan will get this connection.
A Wow Moment
I was relaxing and playing my X Box 360 lat night. This was finally breaking down last months after years of saying " no not yet."
I've mostly bought older ganes for it so far. Last night, I played NBA Live 08. I had the US play China. The game actually had a great shot block- LaBron kept a sure basket from being scored- and I felt the stomping of the fans.
I know it seems immature to type this- but I found myself totally amazed and fully caught up in that moment.
- Johnny -
I've mostly bought older ganes for it so far. Last night, I played NBA Live 08. I had the US play China. The game actually had a great shot block- LaBron kept a sure basket from being scored- and I felt the stomping of the fans.
I know it seems immature to type this- but I found myself totally amazed and fully caught up in that moment.
- Johnny -
A 21ST Century Christmas Difference
Most of The Traditional and Classic Christmas Music, music that speaks of Spiritual themes, seems to adddress large and cosmic themes. Even the music that refers to individuals tends to still educate us to grander, deeper and far more astounding and dynamic themes. They are almost more theology lessons than musical celebration of the beliefs of the composer and singer.
Many of the Christmas songs that originated in the last 15 to 20 years seem to be focused upon individuals rather than the " Great Themes" Two songs that come to mind are a song written by Mark Lowry of Gaither Music Fame - " Mary, Did You Know?" Another such song is " Christmas Shoes" by New Song. This song tells us the story of a boy who buys a pair of special shoes for his dying mother so " that she will look beautiful if she meets Jesus tonight."
These are favorite songs of mine, I do deeply enjoy BOTH of them- HOWEVER IT IS RATHER DIFFICULT to compare them to "O Come, O Come Emmanuel" and " O Holy Night".
I wonder if there is a focus on " My God is personal and I want you to know what He has done in my life" that has become dominant and prevelant in American Christianity over the this current score of years!
- Johnny-
Many of the Christmas songs that originated in the last 15 to 20 years seem to be focused upon individuals rather than the " Great Themes" Two songs that come to mind are a song written by Mark Lowry of Gaither Music Fame - " Mary, Did You Know?" Another such song is " Christmas Shoes" by New Song. This song tells us the story of a boy who buys a pair of special shoes for his dying mother so " that she will look beautiful if she meets Jesus tonight."
These are favorite songs of mine, I do deeply enjoy BOTH of them- HOWEVER IT IS RATHER DIFFICULT to compare them to "O Come, O Come Emmanuel" and " O Holy Night".
I wonder if there is a focus on " My God is personal and I want you to know what He has done in my life" that has become dominant and prevelant in American Christianity over the this current score of years!
- Johnny-
Friday, December 9, 2011
Ryan Seacest replacing Matt Lauer on The Today Show.
Does invoking the name " Katie Couric" indicate why this is not a wonderful concept?
I will deal better with chaos in the upcoming week!
I can see next week will be complicated- Rat inspections on Monday and power interruptions on Tuesday. I will take a deep breath and get through it!
When You can't ask for reparations...
No victim of child abuse can ever go back and undue the harm done to him or her. While this is a fond wish of many who were mistreated, some with malice and fore thought, can't insure that the people who abused them are held accountable, tried, conviocted and have to pay a pwenalty for what he or she has done!
No one really ever adddresses this adequately, in my humble opinion, that this unmet desire is the cause for depression, defeatist living, torment and turmoil for the one who has been sinned against. The family argument- "They are just living out what they know" or " They were too damaged from what they endured" to be able to keep themselves from acting like a bully or a predator towards you, allows the victim to understand the why and how - but it is still not very healing, soothing, acceptable or satisfying.
Yet, Lines of Abuse do need to be broken. When we choose to live well and do well by others, We do get the victory of , " I will not be a menace and a threat to others." and " I will not teach and train anyone else to become a bully, an abuser or a predator,"
Perhaps not still staisfying enough, this choice that we make to not carry oon the wrongs done to us does not excuse of justify any wrongs done to us. However, Perhaps it makes us Great Heroes in a reality where the concept of "Paying it Forward" is considered to be an ideal to cherish, uphold and practice 24/ 7 without ceasing!
This is also a great way to be/ become a Champion of Peace, Morality and Healing!
- Johnny-
No one really ever adddresses this adequately, in my humble opinion, that this unmet desire is the cause for depression, defeatist living, torment and turmoil for the one who has been sinned against. The family argument- "They are just living out what they know" or " They were too damaged from what they endured" to be able to keep themselves from acting like a bully or a predator towards you, allows the victim to understand the why and how - but it is still not very healing, soothing, acceptable or satisfying.
Yet, Lines of Abuse do need to be broken. When we choose to live well and do well by others, We do get the victory of , " I will not be a menace and a threat to others." and " I will not teach and train anyone else to become a bully, an abuser or a predator,"
Perhaps not still staisfying enough, this choice that we make to not carry oon the wrongs done to us does not excuse of justify any wrongs done to us. However, Perhaps it makes us Great Heroes in a reality where the concept of "Paying it Forward" is considered to be an ideal to cherish, uphold and practice 24/ 7 without ceasing!
This is also a great way to be/ become a Champion of Peace, Morality and Healing!
- Johnny-
Closure!
I'm told that I view closure unrealistically. However, Especially when I've had to sacrifice or invested a lot in myself or gotten to a point of victory in a situation where I made it through but not easily or pleasantly, I'd like to know that the matter is finished or over! I deeply crave the sense of know " That is now ALLendured it, gotten beyond it IN THE PAST!!! and I've overcome it, and so NOW!!!!!! I'm noving on."
It is clear that the idea of a repeat or a return of this struggle or battle is, as far as I am concerned, most unwelcomed and highly undesirable. I've been counseled that something may be though of as running its' course, when in fact it hasn't. It is even possible that the situation was overall thought to be over and just is not!
So, Perhaps, While I'd like to say " Done" many times when I think something has dragged on far too long or when I seem to be at an end of my ability to endure, be patient and long suffering with a person, place, thing, siyuation or circumstance, My desire to have things done- does not clearly mean that they are done!! Wishes and facts are not always the same and facts are more likely to win out and just prove to be the way of things.
I guess I need to take the words of one of My New York Yankee Heroes MORE seriously!!!. Yogi Berra did once say , " It isn't over 'til it's over."
- Johnny-
It is clear that the idea of a repeat or a return of this struggle or battle is, as far as I am concerned, most unwelcomed and highly undesirable. I've been counseled that something may be though of as running its' course, when in fact it hasn't. It is even possible that the situation was overall thought to be over and just is not!
So, Perhaps, While I'd like to say " Done" many times when I think something has dragged on far too long or when I seem to be at an end of my ability to endure, be patient and long suffering with a person, place, thing, siyuation or circumstance, My desire to have things done- does not clearly mean that they are done!! Wishes and facts are not always the same and facts are more likely to win out and just prove to be the way of things.
I guess I need to take the words of one of My New York Yankee Heroes MORE seriously!!!. Yogi Berra did once say , " It isn't over 'til it's over."
- Johnny-
Appreciating that Today's Normal was once likely seen as nearly dazzling wonders.
Hi- Tech splendors and inventve new methods that also express creativity and dazlling imagination can become common place and totally mundane to us after a relatively short period of time. This is ESPECIALLY True of those who have been born either as or after such things have come to be.
Is there any way you have found to keep before you that these " near miracles" have not always been around and, in spite of our now present familiarity witth them that they are still impressive wonders and marvels?
How do you get our youth to understand that innovations before they were born radically shaped how they now live compared to those who came before them? How, more importantly can we BEST,get them to grasp and get excited that wonders are still possaible and that they temselves might be the very one who comes up with the next or a future tecnological splendor?
- Johnny-
Is there any way you have found to keep before you that these " near miracles" have not always been around and, in spite of our now present familiarity witth them that they are still impressive wonders and marvels?
How do you get our youth to understand that innovations before they were born radically shaped how they now live compared to those who came before them? How, more importantly can we BEST,get them to grasp and get excited that wonders are still possaible and that they temselves might be the very one who comes up with the next or a future tecnological splendor?
- Johnny-
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Lord. Let me see people as they are and deal with people as they are...
not as I wish they were or as I would like them to be.
A world with a surface temperature of 77 Degrees F...
has been discovered by a US satellite. We will overcome the " think small, do small and be smallers" of 2011! Once humans know that such a planet exists, It is only a matter of time until human wonder and curiosity impels someone to determine how to get there.
Books are such a treasure
Of richness and prosperity, I've known little over the course of my life! I do owe many books and what is contained within is indeed a great reserve of riches!
A True Matter of Perspective!
When ever I whine about a day like today- Thursday, December 8TH- not being satisfied and being not very satisfying, I'm reminded That Jesus, who had other options, game in the form of a baby. He endured the indignities of being a new born and then as baby to my benefit.
When I reflect upon this, This formerly not wonderful December Thursday SEEMS brighter and far more desirable to me!
- Johnny-
When I reflect upon this, This formerly not wonderful December Thursday SEEMS brighter and far more desirable to me!
- Johnny-
My X Box is fun- It is such a joy!
Getting to play in Holiday Mode a Football game on Madden had me smiling and giggling for quite a while afterwards!
After The Nasty Deluge of Yesterday...
The Cerulean Blue skies and embracably warm sunshine feel sooooooo good!
Getting Unstuck!
For years, I've been excellent in stopping my own momentum. I've not liked where I am or what I am doing. Or, Worse, I've given up on worthwhile projects and initiatives, some that I'd EVEN likely gain a lot of satisfaction and joy from because they have seemed to difficult, complex, draining or not easily accomplished!
Now, I've returned to a project that I put on the shelf because I felt it too demanding, frustrating and something that I felt should have been accepted the first time that I presented it and I'm smiling out of the satisfaction I'm gain from editing, reshaping, redirecting and making what was already VERY GOOD that much more impressive.
I do say that I am desperately seeking a " way of escape" from where I am now . It seems that is only likely to transpire when I'm more demanding of myself and when " I don't want to keep pushing" do not become the magic words that I use to grant myself permission to come to a complete halt!
- Johnny-
Now, I've returned to a project that I put on the shelf because I felt it too demanding, frustrating and something that I felt should have been accepted the first time that I presented it and I'm smiling out of the satisfaction I'm gain from editing, reshaping, redirecting and making what was already VERY GOOD that much more impressive.
I do say that I am desperately seeking a " way of escape" from where I am now . It seems that is only likely to transpire when I'm more demanding of myself and when " I don't want to keep pushing" do not become the magic words that I use to grant myself permission to come to a complete halt!
- Johnny-
Giving up is not a solution if you intend to go on living.
The problem that you walk away from does not simply go away! You will still, most likely, need to deal with it at another time.
I need to smile more today.
The smile that I smile today does add energy to my spirit and further motivates me.
What is The Best Way to get Peace On Earth during this time of The Year?
One way seems to be by becoming a gift. Planning to be more with people, when you are with them be fully with them and to commit yourself to doing service that you truly believe will be worthwhile. It beats going into debt and feeling that many of your presents have been given out of obligation rather than truly wantining to purchase something for that individual.
A Long Day Of Toastmastering and Tutoring...
that was the tale of Wednesday. Overall, It worked it worked out quite well, tiring but well.
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
" I have no more money to give you and I can not do anymore for you."
Is this a valid statement of political protest?
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
The ONE Thousandth Post !!!!!
Freedom works best when you use it to express yourself as well as you know how to do so. Freedom also serves as a way to encourage others to express themselves fully and comprehensively. one upon a time, I'd stop pushing myself and too easily let noble, character stretching and soul and spirit empowering ventures die. I was a loser for doing such and, for too many years, lived the life of a soulless and broken loser!
This year, I've become a much bolder and more dynamic and more stirring Public Speaker. I served as a Toastmasters Division Governor. I've exercised more, traveled to Mexico to help improve a school and I've prayed a good bit.
I've also been making some extra money as a Tutor since August. I think the key to my being bolder, more confident, more determined and tenacious started when I wrote the first of the blogs 14 months and 2 days ago.
I would have thought that I'd write 50 or MAYBE a HUNDRED blog entries- I would have never, never, never imagined that I'd write 1,00O!!!!!! Blog Entries in far less than two years.
I have no intention of stopping- so the push to continue to become a more passionate, eloquent, daring and impressive communicator as both a writer AND a speaker continues on!
- Johnny -
This year, I've become a much bolder and more dynamic and more stirring Public Speaker. I served as a Toastmasters Division Governor. I've exercised more, traveled to Mexico to help improve a school and I've prayed a good bit.
I've also been making some extra money as a Tutor since August. I think the key to my being bolder, more confident, more determined and tenacious started when I wrote the first of the blogs 14 months and 2 days ago.
I would have thought that I'd write 50 or MAYBE a HUNDRED blog entries- I would have never, never, never imagined that I'd write 1,00O!!!!!! Blog Entries in far less than two years.
I have no intention of stopping- so the push to continue to become a more passionate, eloquent, daring and impressive communicator as both a writer AND a speaker continues on!
- Johnny -
A Holiday Merging Concept
I love The Christmas Season- The sense of giving, People acting more caring and genrously and a brighter outlook at least at this moment.
I love summer because of people being more laid back, the pace of life easing noticeably and people, if they are around have more time to spend with you.
Christmas' weakness to me is the sense of frenzy and worry! Late July and Early August can actually get to be a bit too dull. lazy and boring.
Perhaps, We might consider blending The 25Th of December and 25TH of July into a bright , Warm Weather, Relaxed, Bright and Giving and Being generous Feast --- We could call it Christmer- perhaps!
Just A Thought.
- Johnny -
I love summer because of people being more laid back, the pace of life easing noticeably and people, if they are around have more time to spend with you.
Christmas' weakness to me is the sense of frenzy and worry! Late July and Early August can actually get to be a bit too dull. lazy and boring.
Perhaps, We might consider blending The 25Th of December and 25TH of July into a bright , Warm Weather, Relaxed, Bright and Giving and Being generous Feast --- We could call it Christmer- perhaps!
Just A Thought.
- Johnny -
Monday, December 5, 2011
I'm feeling rather confident tonight.
I've served people effectively in Toastmasters today and tutored well this afternoon!
Victory over Bullies
One of the sad facts of my childhood is that I seemed to have been exposed to bullies no matter where I went. Most Alarmingly, The two must brutal and merciless bullies that I dealt with were my own parents!
I've allowed this fear haunt me throughout most of my adult life. I've dealt with more than my fair share of bullies as an adult. Some who were intimidated, loud, threatening, menacing and intimidating. People willing to use force, when ever they saw it to be to their advantage. I once had someone beat me and tell me that he was going to kill me as he beat me. I once also had a landlord tell me that " I can get away with anything I want to and you can't stop me"
I've also known people who use insult, anger and threats of cutting off influence and contact to keep people under their manipulative control.
This year has seen victories in this regard. I've been bolder, more candid and more willing to walk away from and expose bullies all at once.
I know that there are dangerous, predatory, cunning, dishonest and menacing people who can and will harm people. I know that I am not invulnerable to those determined to do me ill!
Yet, I know I'm not willing to live as a slave and to live my life to please bullies is to live in slavery!
- Johnny-
I've allowed this fear haunt me throughout most of my adult life. I've dealt with more than my fair share of bullies as an adult. Some who were intimidated, loud, threatening, menacing and intimidating. People willing to use force, when ever they saw it to be to their advantage. I once had someone beat me and tell me that he was going to kill me as he beat me. I once also had a landlord tell me that " I can get away with anything I want to and you can't stop me"
I've also known people who use insult, anger and threats of cutting off influence and contact to keep people under their manipulative control.
This year has seen victories in this regard. I've been bolder, more candid and more willing to walk away from and expose bullies all at once.
I know that there are dangerous, predatory, cunning, dishonest and menacing people who can and will harm people. I know that I am not invulnerable to those determined to do me ill!
Yet, I know I'm not willing to live as a slave and to live my life to please bullies is to live in slavery!
- Johnny-
I do like to dream that I can be a World Champion someday.
My membership in Toastmasters does make this a true, but not highly likely possibility.
I do hate bullies- truly I do!
I also hate those who are cunning and perverse enough to be able to talk others to come back to allow themselves to be bullied again!
Being honest with Your Fans !
I think what most angers fans of a given team is having the feeling that they don't see any progress concerning their team and have no notion, based on what they see game after game and season after season that better ties are likely to be ahead of them.
What even hurts worse for the loyal fans of any given team is not having any confidence that the coaches, administrators and the owner of the team have a well- thought out and likely to bring about success plan for improving their team.
- Johnny-
What even hurts worse for the loyal fans of any given team is not having any confidence that the coaches, administrators and the owner of the team have a well- thought out and likely to bring about success plan for improving their team.
- Johnny-
Gratitude to BlogSpot
I'm a much better communicator now, than I was on October 4TH, 2011, when I posted the VERY FIRST entry on This blog!
My life is better than I usually think of it as being.
I need to remember this throughout this month of December!
I'm breathing deeply now.
I've been spider-webbed into the picayune matters of the day- Things that will not be significant an hour from now. While it is good to be on top of current concerns, I feel like I have acted in ways that could stir later negative situations and consequences,
Seeing what a situation is doing to you at any one given moment and how it is likely to affect your attitudes , words and actions as you interact with others LATER in that same day does give you good reason to take a very deep and cleansing breath as you decide how to deal with the issue of the issue of that moment.
Being wise and proceeding well and decently now can pay a tremendous and amazing dividend!
Seeing what a situation is doing to you at any one given moment and how it is likely to affect your attitudes , words and actions as you interact with others LATER in that same day does give you good reason to take a very deep and cleansing breath as you decide how to deal with the issue of the issue of that moment.
Being wise and proceeding well and decently now can pay a tremendous and amazing dividend!
When my politics twist me into a person who I find to be unpleasant and...
undesirable, Then It is time to review and rethink my politics.
Teamwork can be a burden, It can be easier to do it yourself or decline to be involved!
Yet, As no one is an island and as no one is totally self-sufficient, There are likely to be consequences to endure as a result of making those choices.
Consequences..
You can freak out, as I did earlier today, when you deal with consequences creates problems and solves nothing! I feel that I did nothing wrong in this case, but consequences do not go away because you plead your cause to them!
Sunday, December 4, 2011
Decorating My apartment for The Holliday
I had no thought of doing so 24 Hours ago. But now, It is, at least, on The Radar Screen.
A Seasonal Lump in the Throat!
I wore a Santa Hat at Church today as well as a Mickey Mouse Sweat Shirt. A Two year old girl in her mother's arms stretched her arms out towards me.
I smiled as her and she beamed at me I said , "Ho, Ho, Ho" and that seemed to delight her even more.
That just made my Sunday. I actually started to tear up. It could be the Season. Or. It could be that I do have an impact on people that I'm so eagerly inclined to deny that I have.
- Johnny-
I smiled as her and she beamed at me I said , "Ho, Ho, Ho" and that seemed to delight her even more.
That just made my Sunday. I actually started to tear up. It could be the Season. Or. It could be that I do have an impact on people that I'm so eagerly inclined to deny that I have.
- Johnny-
Saturday, December 3, 2011
I just had Firemen in My Apartment Building
It seems that there was a small fire in the laundry room. Some smokiness likely due to lint not being cleaned out of a filter. One of the risks of communal living. They keep the laundry room locked to restrict access to just the residents of this building.
However, People often prop the doors open to allow friends and family members to have access to it. People also do try to use the facility as a hang out. Some will argue that only those who live in the building will have much interest in making sure such area are well and properly cared for and maintained!
However, People often prop the doors open to allow friends and family members to have access to it. People also do try to use the facility as a hang out. Some will argue that only those who live in the building will have much interest in making sure such area are well and properly cared for and maintained!
Lord, Help me tomorrow to serve and be willing to care!
Let me be used as a tool to help someone have a better day tomorrow! Let me be used as an instrument of Your peace, My King!
I am learning that...
the struggle melts often to cheers and smiles when you actually attain what seems like it was a battle to reach.
My X Box 360 is now working
Great graphics. I feel much better with my computer trustworthy again and my new X Box. I likely will EVENTUALLY also have a PS 3- but I have new wonders before me!
Friday, December 2, 2011
Driving towards a goal...
I can discover who I was designed to be from my conception. It's a tough task, I must believe the outcome will be well-worth the struggle!
The Lord is good...
I need to go about ,far MORE!!! frequently, following The Salvation Army's motto of "DOING THE MOST!!!! GOOD"!
What does it mean to live less selfishly ?
I'm starting to think it is less about saying " What's The Matter?" and devoting more and more time about deciding what TRULY MATTERS and committing yourself to be involved in what TRULY MATTERS!!!!!!
Sometimes, Being in The Spirit of the Season means...
not just smiling and giving when it is easy to do so!
My internet is back....
It was a tougher battle to get it back, I do wish that it had been much less of a struggle but I am back on line!
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