Mike Shanahan was fired earlier today by The Washington Redskins. Among the reasons for this seem to be his deteriorating relationship with Robert Griffin the Third, The Redskins Season ending losing streak and that the Redskins are still not an elite NFL time ready to play year after year with impressive verve.
Coach Mike's greatest failing then- He FAILED!!! to Return The Redskins to glory.
It seems to be that there are businesses that were once the models of their industry who have tumbled from the heights they once attained and have functioned in a lackluster and unimpressive/ disaapointing way over a long interval of time.
I am sure these companies HAVE HIRED CEO's, /COO's who have been expected to return the enterprise that they are hired to run back to its ' former glory?
How do such business leaders get measured in terms of whether they have failed or succeeded ? Does the business need to again, be the CHAMPION amongst its' peers? If the business does not improve, Is that CEO /COO branded as an unsuccessful failure ?
- Johnny -
Monday, December 30, 2013
Sunday, December 29, 2013
Are these gross and unseemly encounters REALLY ....
necessary?
I , as I have noted, lived in really desolate area of the Bronx throughout my boyhood . In many ways, New York City is a marvel of a city to reside it. Having typed this, All I really miss of the city is My Yankees. Dirty streets, High Crime Area, too many people who liked to stir up drama, crisis and malevolence made the City of My birth a place that I rejoiced to be free of.
I will soon no longer be a residence of The Greater DC Region. I'd like to recount a story of what I encountered in DC on October 23RD. I was on my way to a Favorite Toastmaster Club of Mine in The Foggy Bottom Area.
I stopped off at The Cafeteria at The George Washington University Hospital. I wanted a cup of coffe and I severely needed to relieve myself.
I set my things down on a table and raced to the men's room. The urinal was out -of order. I noticed that the stall door was opened and I noticed a man standing in there- not using the stall but standing there.
" Sir, I've got to relieve myself now, please let me use the stall." " No!" " I can't wait!" " your problem not mine.
I then told the person he need to step out of that stall - to go. I was then told " You wouldn't talk to me this way if I were white."
This went on for a bit and finally he stepped out of the stall. I barely avoided flooding my clothes with liquid wastes. This should never be allowed to occur ever.
I will admit that Ronald Reagan was wrong, We need to have places to place people who can't care for themselves and who will be nothing more than a difficulty for themselves and others. I know that there are many reasons why people are homeless. I have learned that and I feel for such unfortunates- I was homeless during the last half of 2003. However, It is vile to take out your misfortune on others.
There are also people who are predators, trouble makers and bad actors who gain pleasure out of inflicting as much misery as they possibly can on others. they take pride in their ability to do this well!
I do not know exactly what this man was dealing with. I know that I did nothing that would warrant my being placed in this embarrassing and self-contaminating position.
My Good Friend And Love, Born and Raised in Rural Kentucky told me when I told her this tale that, " People do not get to impose themselves on people that way. People will not accept disruptive behavior there.
She further explained that The man would have been told to behave himself NOW and leave and not return. If he objected and raised up a fuss , he likely would wind up in jail - at least until he could be evaluated.
I think people, more people than we usually admit, are tired of dealing with these circumstances and these behaviors.
I wish I could say the George Washington U encounter was rare for me. Sadly, It is just not. There have been far too many of them , especially on Metro! I love my nation and I do like many things about Our Capital City. It is just I'm tired of dealing with the vile attitudes and the wretched behaviors that I , too often, am confronted by.
I've been a member of AA for 22 plus years. I guess I think of one of AA's sayings, " I do NOT HAVE TO ACCEPT unacceptable behaviors." That is why I'm glad that I have not lived in The Bronx since 1977 and why, while I will miss much about it, I'm pleased that I will be hundreds of miles away from Washington DC by this time next month.
- Johnny -
I , as I have noted, lived in really desolate area of the Bronx throughout my boyhood . In many ways, New York City is a marvel of a city to reside it. Having typed this, All I really miss of the city is My Yankees. Dirty streets, High Crime Area, too many people who liked to stir up drama, crisis and malevolence made the City of My birth a place that I rejoiced to be free of.
I will soon no longer be a residence of The Greater DC Region. I'd like to recount a story of what I encountered in DC on October 23RD. I was on my way to a Favorite Toastmaster Club of Mine in The Foggy Bottom Area.
I stopped off at The Cafeteria at The George Washington University Hospital. I wanted a cup of coffe and I severely needed to relieve myself.
I set my things down on a table and raced to the men's room. The urinal was out -of order. I noticed that the stall door was opened and I noticed a man standing in there- not using the stall but standing there.
" Sir, I've got to relieve myself now, please let me use the stall." " No!" " I can't wait!" " your problem not mine.
I then told the person he need to step out of that stall - to go. I was then told " You wouldn't talk to me this way if I were white."
This went on for a bit and finally he stepped out of the stall. I barely avoided flooding my clothes with liquid wastes. This should never be allowed to occur ever.
I will admit that Ronald Reagan was wrong, We need to have places to place people who can't care for themselves and who will be nothing more than a difficulty for themselves and others. I know that there are many reasons why people are homeless. I have learned that and I feel for such unfortunates- I was homeless during the last half of 2003. However, It is vile to take out your misfortune on others.
There are also people who are predators, trouble makers and bad actors who gain pleasure out of inflicting as much misery as they possibly can on others. they take pride in their ability to do this well!
I do not know exactly what this man was dealing with. I know that I did nothing that would warrant my being placed in this embarrassing and self-contaminating position.
My Good Friend And Love, Born and Raised in Rural Kentucky told me when I told her this tale that, " People do not get to impose themselves on people that way. People will not accept disruptive behavior there.
She further explained that The man would have been told to behave himself NOW and leave and not return. If he objected and raised up a fuss , he likely would wind up in jail - at least until he could be evaluated.
I think people, more people than we usually admit, are tired of dealing with these circumstances and these behaviors.
I wish I could say the George Washington U encounter was rare for me. Sadly, It is just not. There have been far too many of them , especially on Metro! I love my nation and I do like many things about Our Capital City. It is just I'm tired of dealing with the vile attitudes and the wretched behaviors that I , too often, am confronted by.
I've been a member of AA for 22 plus years. I guess I think of one of AA's sayings, " I do NOT HAVE TO ACCEPT unacceptable behaviors." That is why I'm glad that I have not lived in The Bronx since 1977 and why, while I will miss much about it, I'm pleased that I will be hundreds of miles away from Washington DC by this time next month.
- Johnny -
A Year Away ?
After going through an 18 month Prime Directive and now heading towards 18 months in my relationship with my angel, I'm struck by how I'm focused in the feature and often building towards a year from now.
It seems to minimize how much I get out now and the near future, I'm inclined to think that I'm just not always served very well by this.
- Johnny -
It seems to minimize how much I get out now and the near future, I'm inclined to think that I'm just not always served very well by this.
- Johnny -
Saturday, December 28, 2013
When I talk , connect and think things out thoroughly ...
I do so much better as I go through my day!
Lst night, I responded badly, I needed to remember that ...
To every thing there IS a purpose and a time under Heaven.
Friday, December 27, 2013
I seldom sleep well or productively when I'm Very Lonely ,
Very Isolated or Very Cold.
It is , then, HIGHLY UNLIKELY that I will sleep well tonight as all THREE of These Conditions are presently true of me!
YUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Johnny -
It is , then, HIGHLY UNLIKELY that I will sleep well tonight as all THREE of These Conditions are presently true of me!
YUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Johnny -
Thursday, December 26, 2013
A Dreamer's Departure
I have always been a dreamer and an idealist. I am, heart and soul, a romantic. I am always and perpetually a wonderer and a questioner. I ask " Why ?" constantly, I have done so my entire life. I love exploring and history, The History of anything and everything, actually
I have been a servant of Jesus Christ since October 25TH, 1972. I see Him as My Lord and Savior. I am the least of His Followers when it comes to serving Him perfectly. I am so glad to be able to be secure in the reality that I am saved by Grace and not works. My righteousness, AT BEST, is as The Filthiest Rags.
I survived child abuse, physical and emotional trauma and being raised in an Urban Crisis Zone, The South Western Bronx - Tremont Avenue, Near Fordham Road, Off The Grand Concourse and just up from Jerome Avenue. My High School often graduated students who read as well as Nine Year Olds typically do.
My dream as a boy was to be someone who would change the world- make a difference that would change , better and empower numerous lives. By the age of 8, I started thinking that HAD to mean either being a Nationally Serving Elected Official or someone who worked closely and highly influenced those elected to such positions.
I decided to become and be a Conservative and was attracted early to the idea of doing all that could be done to remove any and all obstacles and hindrances to allowing individuals to energetically and devotedly Pursue Their Happiness.
I saw my dream begin to find its' expression when I served as a writer for My High School News Paper. I had the opportunity to write a column on politics entitled The Voice of Reason.
In 1972, I had my first chance to get beyond the Southwestern Bronx. I became a First Year Student, in August of 1972, at Western Maryland's Frostburg State College- now University. I want from New York City to a College Town that THEN had a population of 6,000 people. As I understand , That population- L O L - has swelled to 10,000.
I got involved in Student Government during my 5 Years at FSC. I did some acting. I majored in Political Science and History and I started to take public speaking seriously- I was a Member Of Frostburg's Individual Events and Debate Teams. That is where I really began to see that I had a powerful gift for public speaking.
After graduating Frostburg, I nearly decided to stay there, I'd deeply fallen in love with the town. Yet, I felt a need to achieve a sense of destiny and promise- to live out my dream. So, I came to The DC Area.
I am not a typist, I still do not like nor am I really comfortable with typing. Yet, To secure a position on Capital Hill, as I desired to do, YOU HAD TO BE ABLE TO TYPE VERY WELL and make FEW mistakes as you type. I, then decided to work on Campaigns one for a Gubernatorial candidate and another for a Congressional Candidate- both candidates were resoundingly defeated so by November of 1980, My " career" in Politics had come to an end.
This is just MY opinion but there are certain cities which are Dream Magnets- DC For Politics, New York For Finances and Acting. Los Angeles For Acting , Nashville For Country Music and New Orleans for Jazz to name a few. If your heart and soul 's desire and yearning is to LIVE THE DREAM, Those can be very difficult cities to reside in if you know/ once you know that, in terms of DREAM FULFILLMENT , that you cannot and will not MAKE IT THERE!
I worked as a restaurant busboy, as a Church maintenance woker several times, as A Teacher Full Time In Private Schools, as a Substitute In Fairfax and Arlington County, VA. I've been a daily employee at a 12 Step Recovery Club and a co-ordinator for A Home School Co-Operative In Gaithersburg, Maryland.
I've worked at a Seven - Eleven like store in The Navy Annex , starting that job 2 months after 9/11. I became , bluntly, a jobs vagabond in the years after 1980.
I see, now, that Washington began to chafe and become more and more, over time in the years after 1980. I did have some good times in parts of those years but I never really got over the Dream that would never be.
I also discovered that I'd been very traumatized by my upbringing and that choosing to run at full speed from it and when I had to deal with it, chose to blame others- after all, It was as a Result of " What Was Done To Me" This was a foolish and self-sabotaging choice, a recipe that had to produce disaster- which over time- it did.
It took a while to wreak comprehensive ruin upon my life. This came about in The Summer of 2003. Over time, I became increasingly self-negating and caustic. I became a social isolationist and was prone to become painfully moody. At one point, I spent 7 years living miserably and unhappily in a cubby hole sized room. I was nearly beaten to death on a Falls Church Street during this 7 year interval.
During the Summer of 2003, I spent my money down to nothing. I had a nervous break down- yes I KNOW that I should type "Psychotic Episode" but I'm very uncomfortable with that term. And Spent The Late Summer, Fall and Early Winter homeless. I spent nights just wondering for miles up and down the streets from Vienna, VA to Downtown Falls Church City.
In March of 2004, I became a Client of The Fairfax County Mental Health System and have lived in various subsidized hosing since then. The last 6 years, I've had my housing provided through Pathways Homes and have been blessed, in many ways, to have this !
I will say that it has dawned on me that I've slowly been living a life that is more threapy centered rather than life enhancing. Therapy should enhance life. Life should NEVER be reduced to being an adjunct to therapy.
I am both scared- - very!!!!!- and Happy - -EVEN MORE VERY !!!!! to have found love in my late 50's. Amanda Lynn Asher Dudley lives in Rockcastle County, Kentucky and she is the prime reason why I am leaving The Greater DC Area . My fear is about how well and soon I will adjust well and effectively to my new life and surrounding. My exultation is that Mandy is beautiful, brilliant, gifted, artistic and soulful. It is such a continuing and increasing gift to have her in my life.
I will say that, in part, I'm also leaving because I'm beyond tired of the continually increasing coarseness, nastiness and vulgarity of the area where I reside. The Vulgar Language, The Glares, The Patent Hostility and quite visible and impossible to ignore contentious, the Whole idea of " If you are offended by my actions and attitude, then it is YOUR PROBLEM and not mine." has long bothered me and increasingly caused my stomach to turn.
I know that the politics of confrontation, never ending war and UNRELENTING demandingness as in " What Do We WANT - FILL IN THE BLANK- When Do We WANT IT - N!!!!!! O!!!!!! W!!!!!!" is pathetic and unworthy of being promulgated and being supported and maintain. This is the blight left to us by The Late Saul Alinsky and His Tome Of Hatred and Eternal DISCONTENT - Rules for Radicals.
I would love to have our ELECTED leaders state and persistently stay on point with the following unswerving message , " Unless you are willing to be polite, civil and appropriate, I will not listen to you and I will refuse to support anything that you are advocating." I would support totally and sacrifice a year of my life to work on The Presidential Campaign of any woman or man willing to take on this stance.
I still believe that empowering INDIVIDUALS to reach their fullest potential should be the heart and soul of our politics and governance here in Our US. Dr. King moved a Nation by saying , " I HAVE A DREAM". He did not utter the words , " We HAVE A DREAM". People do not work well as segments or a fraction of a larger entity , group or cohort!
I am looking SO MUCH forward to 2014. I do believe I will enjoy what is to come during the next 12 months!
- Johnny -
I have been a servant of Jesus Christ since October 25TH, 1972. I see Him as My Lord and Savior. I am the least of His Followers when it comes to serving Him perfectly. I am so glad to be able to be secure in the reality that I am saved by Grace and not works. My righteousness, AT BEST, is as The Filthiest Rags.
I survived child abuse, physical and emotional trauma and being raised in an Urban Crisis Zone, The South Western Bronx - Tremont Avenue, Near Fordham Road, Off The Grand Concourse and just up from Jerome Avenue. My High School often graduated students who read as well as Nine Year Olds typically do.
My dream as a boy was to be someone who would change the world- make a difference that would change , better and empower numerous lives. By the age of 8, I started thinking that HAD to mean either being a Nationally Serving Elected Official or someone who worked closely and highly influenced those elected to such positions.
I decided to become and be a Conservative and was attracted early to the idea of doing all that could be done to remove any and all obstacles and hindrances to allowing individuals to energetically and devotedly Pursue Their Happiness.
I saw my dream begin to find its' expression when I served as a writer for My High School News Paper. I had the opportunity to write a column on politics entitled The Voice of Reason.
In 1972, I had my first chance to get beyond the Southwestern Bronx. I became a First Year Student, in August of 1972, at Western Maryland's Frostburg State College- now University. I want from New York City to a College Town that THEN had a population of 6,000 people. As I understand , That population- L O L - has swelled to 10,000.
I got involved in Student Government during my 5 Years at FSC. I did some acting. I majored in Political Science and History and I started to take public speaking seriously- I was a Member Of Frostburg's Individual Events and Debate Teams. That is where I really began to see that I had a powerful gift for public speaking.
After graduating Frostburg, I nearly decided to stay there, I'd deeply fallen in love with the town. Yet, I felt a need to achieve a sense of destiny and promise- to live out my dream. So, I came to The DC Area.
I am not a typist, I still do not like nor am I really comfortable with typing. Yet, To secure a position on Capital Hill, as I desired to do, YOU HAD TO BE ABLE TO TYPE VERY WELL and make FEW mistakes as you type. I, then decided to work on Campaigns one for a Gubernatorial candidate and another for a Congressional Candidate- both candidates were resoundingly defeated so by November of 1980, My " career" in Politics had come to an end.
This is just MY opinion but there are certain cities which are Dream Magnets- DC For Politics, New York For Finances and Acting. Los Angeles For Acting , Nashville For Country Music and New Orleans for Jazz to name a few. If your heart and soul 's desire and yearning is to LIVE THE DREAM, Those can be very difficult cities to reside in if you know/ once you know that, in terms of DREAM FULFILLMENT , that you cannot and will not MAKE IT THERE!
I worked as a restaurant busboy, as a Church maintenance woker several times, as A Teacher Full Time In Private Schools, as a Substitute In Fairfax and Arlington County, VA. I've been a daily employee at a 12 Step Recovery Club and a co-ordinator for A Home School Co-Operative In Gaithersburg, Maryland.
I've worked at a Seven - Eleven like store in The Navy Annex , starting that job 2 months after 9/11. I became , bluntly, a jobs vagabond in the years after 1980.
I see, now, that Washington began to chafe and become more and more, over time in the years after 1980. I did have some good times in parts of those years but I never really got over the Dream that would never be.
I also discovered that I'd been very traumatized by my upbringing and that choosing to run at full speed from it and when I had to deal with it, chose to blame others- after all, It was as a Result of " What Was Done To Me" This was a foolish and self-sabotaging choice, a recipe that had to produce disaster- which over time- it did.
It took a while to wreak comprehensive ruin upon my life. This came about in The Summer of 2003. Over time, I became increasingly self-negating and caustic. I became a social isolationist and was prone to become painfully moody. At one point, I spent 7 years living miserably and unhappily in a cubby hole sized room. I was nearly beaten to death on a Falls Church Street during this 7 year interval.
During the Summer of 2003, I spent my money down to nothing. I had a nervous break down- yes I KNOW that I should type "Psychotic Episode" but I'm very uncomfortable with that term. And Spent The Late Summer, Fall and Early Winter homeless. I spent nights just wondering for miles up and down the streets from Vienna, VA to Downtown Falls Church City.
In March of 2004, I became a Client of The Fairfax County Mental Health System and have lived in various subsidized hosing since then. The last 6 years, I've had my housing provided through Pathways Homes and have been blessed, in many ways, to have this !
I will say that it has dawned on me that I've slowly been living a life that is more threapy centered rather than life enhancing. Therapy should enhance life. Life should NEVER be reduced to being an adjunct to therapy.
I am both scared- - very!!!!!- and Happy - -EVEN MORE VERY !!!!! to have found love in my late 50's. Amanda Lynn Asher Dudley lives in Rockcastle County, Kentucky and she is the prime reason why I am leaving The Greater DC Area . My fear is about how well and soon I will adjust well and effectively to my new life and surrounding. My exultation is that Mandy is beautiful, brilliant, gifted, artistic and soulful. It is such a continuing and increasing gift to have her in my life.
I will say that, in part, I'm also leaving because I'm beyond tired of the continually increasing coarseness, nastiness and vulgarity of the area where I reside. The Vulgar Language, The Glares, The Patent Hostility and quite visible and impossible to ignore contentious, the Whole idea of " If you are offended by my actions and attitude, then it is YOUR PROBLEM and not mine." has long bothered me and increasingly caused my stomach to turn.
I know that the politics of confrontation, never ending war and UNRELENTING demandingness as in " What Do We WANT - FILL IN THE BLANK- When Do We WANT IT - N!!!!!! O!!!!!! W!!!!!!" is pathetic and unworthy of being promulgated and being supported and maintain. This is the blight left to us by The Late Saul Alinsky and His Tome Of Hatred and Eternal DISCONTENT - Rules for Radicals.
I would love to have our ELECTED leaders state and persistently stay on point with the following unswerving message , " Unless you are willing to be polite, civil and appropriate, I will not listen to you and I will refuse to support anything that you are advocating." I would support totally and sacrifice a year of my life to work on The Presidential Campaign of any woman or man willing to take on this stance.
I still believe that empowering INDIVIDUALS to reach their fullest potential should be the heart and soul of our politics and governance here in Our US. Dr. King moved a Nation by saying , " I HAVE A DREAM". He did not utter the words , " We HAVE A DREAM". People do not work well as segments or a fraction of a larger entity , group or cohort!
I am looking SO MUCH forward to 2014. I do believe I will enjoy what is to come during the next 12 months!
- Johnny -
Wednesday, December 25, 2013
Find the Good in Every Day
This Christmas day was not ideal nor was it easy to navigate through but still much good occurred on This Last Wednesday of 2013.
This Year 2013 , I survived NOW I believe I will thrive!
has been a test- A test of love, endurance, patience and commitment. A test of doing without the company of my 600 mile away love far too often.
We made a commitment to take a full year to see if a life together is possible- One Full Calendar year was the time we set to discover that. It has been long, hard, gritty, painful- I was run over by a car 16 days into this year.
I and My Mandy have 6 days now left to go. I'll be moving to Kentucky within weeks. That was the prize I've kept before me especially during this year's roughest days and longest months.
There will a be a lot to learn and after 35 Years, I will miss Greater Washington DC i9n Many Ways.
However, I have yearned for a new life and now I shall enter into it starting a week from today!
- Johnny -
We made a commitment to take a full year to see if a life together is possible- One Full Calendar year was the time we set to discover that. It has been long, hard, gritty, painful- I was run over by a car 16 days into this year.
I and My Mandy have 6 days now left to go. I'll be moving to Kentucky within weeks. That was the prize I've kept before me especially during this year's roughest days and longest months.
There will a be a lot to learn and after 35 Years, I will miss Greater Washington DC i9n Many Ways.
However, I have yearned for a new life and now I shall enter into it starting a week from today!
- Johnny -
There is never any baseball played ...
on december 25 TH in the US of A! My Birthday, November 16Th, is also VERY MUCH of a Non Baseball Day in The US .
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Generosity -
I have been blessed by generosity often through out the years. As I have Humbly been moved By My Lord and King to bless and add to the lives of others.
Do you have stories of being blessed and blessing others ? Why not share them with this e-community of ours ?
- Johnny -
Do you have stories of being blessed and blessing others ? Why not share them with this e-community of ours ?
- Johnny -
Let not your heart and spirit be callous and corrupted
You were taken out of The Southwestern Bronx to live FAR !!! BETTER than that
Did you here the Christmas Song about The Inconsistent . . .
Monarch ?
Good King when He wasn't a Louse.
- Johnny -
Good King when He wasn't a Louse.
- Johnny -
Giving .
the Gifts that matter the most - the gifts that truly proceed from The Spirit and The Heart !
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
The VERY! First Christmas Day .
The Shepherds that were summoned to the manger on a chilly night while they were attend to and maintaining their sheep went back to that pasture.
They were alone the next day and fulfilling their obligations. There were no decorations, celebrations, present and festive meals that they were participating in during that day, that VERY FIRST Christmas.
I have had bright and glorious Christmases. I have had dismal, dangerous and unsafe December 25TH. This one is not among the MOST dismal but it is a solitary one, a Me, Myself and I Christmas Day!
I am healthy and warm and have been provided gifts. I'd just love some company today - sigh.
One year from today, Thursday, December 25TH, 2014, I expect to spend My First Christmas with My Amanda and her children but I am NOT there yet.
I will get through this day. I am provided for. It is not all I wish it to be but I know that IT! IS! SUFFICIENT !
- Johnny -
They were alone the next day and fulfilling their obligations. There were no decorations, celebrations, present and festive meals that they were participating in during that day, that VERY FIRST Christmas.
I have had bright and glorious Christmases. I have had dismal, dangerous and unsafe December 25TH. This one is not among the MOST dismal but it is a solitary one, a Me, Myself and I Christmas Day!
I am healthy and warm and have been provided gifts. I'd just love some company today - sigh.
One year from today, Thursday, December 25TH, 2014, I expect to spend My First Christmas with My Amanda and her children but I am NOT there yet.
I will get through this day. I am provided for. It is not all I wish it to be but I know that IT! IS! SUFFICIENT !
- Johnny -
Monday, December 23, 2013
The Last Lone Christmas . . .
will soon be here. The new life that I will enter into so soon will change so much!
Jesus started off as a New Born
This makes me tremble at the thought that Birth is a choice that many people think they have a right to fully allow or disallow.
Struggling and Failing at This Moment....
does not mean failing. I learned that as I was struggling after being hit with a car on January 16TH. I learned that as I struggled and - after great effort- emailed out A Christmas Devotional just a few minutes ago.
The lesson of 2013- rough and tough- does NOT mean that it can't be done or that it will not get done!
- Johnny -
The lesson of 2013- rough and tough- does NOT mean that it can't be done or that it will not get done!
- Johnny -
Saturday, December 21, 2013
My Proposed Christmas Serenade
Is this love or proof that I am brainless/ insane ?
I am truly and deeply saddened that My Girl Friend Mandy- Amanda Lynn Asher- Dudley - and I will be 6oo miles away from each other On Wednesday- Christmas Day.
She Loves it, devours it- when I serenade her.
I am CURRENTLY thinking of singing Karen Carpenter's Merry Christmas , Darling to her when I call her on Wednesday !
My singing voice is NOT elite and can be most hit and miss.
Should I choose to stay with THIS CURRENT PLAN, Does anyone have any SINGING advice for me ?
HELP !!!!!
Merry Christmas to one and all who read this!
- Johnny-
I am truly and deeply saddened that My Girl Friend Mandy- Amanda Lynn Asher- Dudley - and I will be 6oo miles away from each other On Wednesday- Christmas Day.
She Loves it, devours it- when I serenade her.
I am CURRENTLY thinking of singing Karen Carpenter's Merry Christmas , Darling to her when I call her on Wednesday !
My singing voice is NOT elite and can be most hit and miss.
Should I choose to stay with THIS CURRENT PLAN, Does anyone have any SINGING advice for me ?
HELP !!!!!
Merry Christmas to one and all who read this!
- Johnny-
I know that this week will be a struggle
but the FINISH LINE is more and more BOLDLY in sight every day now!
Childhood must be great !
This is where the only one who CHOSE to be born started His life !! That is where JESUS started/ began His life.
NOT too bad so far ...
On this First Day of Winter it is just under SEVENTY Degrees here in the Greater DC Area.
Saturday, December 14, 2013
The Current Value of RG III ?
I attended a small auction today. The auction was held to raise money for an organization that I'm very fond of and have long been involved in and connected to.
The auction was intended to be both fun and entertaining and, most certainly, a fund raiser!
One of the items offered was a signed Robert Griffin The Third Rookie Card- Autographed.
Unfortunately, The set up was delivered and it was too hard to resist it.
When The Auctioneer , after describing the item, asked, " Who wants to offer a bid to start us?"
I quickly shouted out " 4 Draft Picks" - deciding I had to , after all , top the last bid on RG III -The one made by one Daniel Snyder of Montgomery County, Maryland.
Yes, I am evil and will pay for that. The pay off today - A room full of Loud Laughter!
- Johnny -
The auction was intended to be both fun and entertaining and, most certainly, a fund raiser!
One of the items offered was a signed Robert Griffin The Third Rookie Card- Autographed.
Unfortunately, The set up was delivered and it was too hard to resist it.
When The Auctioneer , after describing the item, asked, " Who wants to offer a bid to start us?"
I quickly shouted out " 4 Draft Picks" - deciding I had to , after all , top the last bid on RG III -The one made by one Daniel Snyder of Montgomery County, Maryland.
Yes, I am evil and will pay for that. The pay off today - A room full of Loud Laughter!
- Johnny -
Friday, December 13, 2013
The Washington Redskins - Are they really the 2013 - 2014 ....
Team or actually and truly the 2012- 2013 Team ?
During The 2012 - 2013, The Redskins righted their season and wowed and amazed many Football Experts. During The Current Season, They have fallen into total disarray and collapsed, stunning and confusing some of these very same experts!
What, thusly, are the Redskins in December of 2013?
If the third time is the charm, Do we ALL need to wait until the 2014- 2015 NFL Season to rightly answer solve this puzzling mystery ?
One thing to note - Over The Last Two Decades, No Redskin quarterback has played to consecutive Excellent Seasons.
- Johnny -
During The 2012 - 2013, The Redskins righted their season and wowed and amazed many Football Experts. During The Current Season, They have fallen into total disarray and collapsed, stunning and confusing some of these very same experts!
What, thusly, are the Redskins in December of 2013?
If the third time is the charm, Do we ALL need to wait until the 2014- 2015 NFL Season to rightly answer solve this puzzling mystery ?
One thing to note - Over The Last Two Decades, No Redskin quarterback has played to consecutive Excellent Seasons.
- Johnny -
Thursday, December 12, 2013
I am not going to worry about how my actions affect others ....
as long as they work well for me, This attitude is one reason why I 'm involved in "Exit Stage Right- DC.". I did learn some lessons from watching Snagglepuss Cartoons. LOL!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Controlling Outrage
I am struggling mightily after a long night and day of riding Greyhound ------ My return to Washington DC wound up being 4 hours later than planned.
I intended to rest yesterday and all day today ---- That plan was thrown aside by plumbing problems in my apartment. I came home yesterday to over two inches of water in my bathroom/ wash room .
This was dealt with yesterday I was left to believe. This same problem revisited me just before noon today. The work men have now been in my apartment for over 2 hours. They believed the problem, yesterday, was, an overflowing shower. They learned today that the problem IS a broken pipe.
I'm angry, annoyed and put out. What is the best way to get over and beyond the tiredness, frustration and bother?
Oh, I just learned that the workmen will need to be in my apartment AGAIN tomorrow!
I keep telling myself that it is GOOD THAT a month and a day from today that I will be leaving The DC area!
- Johnny -
I intended to rest yesterday and all day today ---- That plan was thrown aside by plumbing problems in my apartment. I came home yesterday to over two inches of water in my bathroom/ wash room .
This was dealt with yesterday I was left to believe. This same problem revisited me just before noon today. The work men have now been in my apartment for over 2 hours. They believed the problem, yesterday, was, an overflowing shower. They learned today that the problem IS a broken pipe.
I'm angry, annoyed and put out. What is the best way to get over and beyond the tiredness, frustration and bother?
Oh, I just learned that the workmen will need to be in my apartment AGAIN tomorrow!
I keep telling myself that it is GOOD THAT a month and a day from today that I will be leaving The DC area!
- Johnny -
Thursday, December 5, 2013
I am seeing that you can never gain if you are unwilling to lose, begin anew ...
separate from and depart, Yet, The only way to gain the sweet, the inviting and the new is to be willing to and take action to accomplish the goals of both moving on as well as moving beyond!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
I want to be a New Song
Please , Lord, set my soul on fire with fresh, inspiring and life- changing lyrics!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
I know I can be more
and I know that I will more and more, in days yet to arrive, act to make this more of a proven truth .
Learning to see what can be ...
keeps you from saying can't often and prevents the making of constant and most feeble excuses.
Do you believe that progress, achieving potiential and true personal and individual satisfaction ...
benefit all?
I think, I truly believe that all of us see this as an ideal that we WISH could be made true for all.
What can you and I do to make this more true today of more people than it was in times past, even very, very recent times past!?
- Johnny-
I think, I truly believe that all of us see this as an ideal that we WISH could be made true for all.
What can you and I do to make this more true today of more people than it was in times past, even very, very recent times past!?
- Johnny-
Being candid may be unsettling to some
However, Candidness can be practiced with a mind towards not being caustic and uncaring.
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
Believe in The Best and Act to be Your Best . . .
and progress and satisfaction are likely to occur!
A God Willing to Become a Baby !
I know the value and invincible triumph of The First Easter/ Resurrection Sunday. Jesus, who died for our sins, now opens the way for us to know Eternity in a triumphant and glorious way, as an experience that we shall partake in now and continuously without end!
Yet, In many ways, God shows His amazing character by entering the world as a helpless, needy and dependent new born infant.God, who from The Unending Past until His incarnation within Mary, knew no limits and who can do all as He pleases, is bound by the same limitations as any newborn.
This demonstrates how deeply He trusts The wisdom and provision of The Father and the constant workings of the Holy Spirit.The Holy Spirit and The Angels are the Honor Guard for This Baby Boy , For This Now in Flesh Revealed Messiah and Lord!
One of the delicious decorations to me of THIS Season, is the great emphasis and focus that it places on children . We delight in children, their sense of awe and wonder and their willingness to express what they are thinking and feeling. We go out of our ways to please, delight and satisfy the desires and yearnings of children during This Season of Wonder and Majesty!
I think we all do well that Jesus started as a new born, was a toddler and grew into being a child long before He launched the 3 Years of ministry that are detailed throughout The New Testament.
When we honor and serve Children This month, we remember more fully all that Jesus took on, experienced and endured to free us by becoming both the ransom for many as well as The Expression of Life Abundant and the Conqueror of Decay and Decay.
A Merry Christmas to ALL who read This Blog Entry!
- Johnny -
Yet, In many ways, God shows His amazing character by entering the world as a helpless, needy and dependent new born infant.God, who from The Unending Past until His incarnation within Mary, knew no limits and who can do all as He pleases, is bound by the same limitations as any newborn.
This demonstrates how deeply He trusts The wisdom and provision of The Father and the constant workings of the Holy Spirit.The Holy Spirit and The Angels are the Honor Guard for This Baby Boy , For This Now in Flesh Revealed Messiah and Lord!
One of the delicious decorations to me of THIS Season, is the great emphasis and focus that it places on children . We delight in children, their sense of awe and wonder and their willingness to express what they are thinking and feeling. We go out of our ways to please, delight and satisfy the desires and yearnings of children during This Season of Wonder and Majesty!
I think we all do well that Jesus started as a new born, was a toddler and grew into being a child long before He launched the 3 Years of ministry that are detailed throughout The New Testament.
When we honor and serve Children This month, we remember more fully all that Jesus took on, experienced and endured to free us by becoming both the ransom for many as well as The Expression of Life Abundant and the Conqueror of Decay and Decay.
A Merry Christmas to ALL who read This Blog Entry!
- Johnny -
Worshipping God will always
give the worshiper greater freedom and a new and empowering song to sing!
Your attitude ...
can and SHALL allow you, if you will permit it to do so, easily master and overcome any and all of your circumstances!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Tuesday, December 3, 2013
Saving The Best For Last Every Year !
I am a Christian and I love Christmas and believe that the Uber- Narrative of Christmas is true. I do think that God became man and dwelt among us!
However, Today, I wish to take a more panoramic view of the last two months of the year. In Our USA, We celebrate Gratitude and Generosity during the last 1/6TH of EVERY YEAR. Yes, I know with some people that this is veneer, the most patently hollow and highly superficial lip service.
However, I note that people do see more grateful and thankful and willing to acknowledge that they are blessed, across the board and throughout every level and segment of our population, in November!
I also note that people are willing to honor others with their kindness and generosity during this present month of December! I also believe that people care more, across the board, about the well-being and general welfare of everyone during THIS MONTH. This is, of course and certainly, NOT!!! true of EVERY American but it tends to be far more true this month than we expect it to be during the rest of this or ANY year.
November also adds to this festival of gratitude and generosity/ caring it's own extra touches. The Celebration of Freedom known to us as Election Day as well as The Honoring and Valuing of those who served sacrificially to the greater gain of all of us on Veterans' Day.
These are reasons why, in My Opinion, that many among us look forward to the last 61 days of EACH AND EVERY Year!
- Johnny -
However, Today, I wish to take a more panoramic view of the last two months of the year. In Our USA, We celebrate Gratitude and Generosity during the last 1/6TH of EVERY YEAR. Yes, I know with some people that this is veneer, the most patently hollow and highly superficial lip service.
However, I note that people do see more grateful and thankful and willing to acknowledge that they are blessed, across the board and throughout every level and segment of our population, in November!
I also note that people are willing to honor others with their kindness and generosity during this present month of December! I also believe that people care more, across the board, about the well-being and general welfare of everyone during THIS MONTH. This is, of course and certainly, NOT!!! true of EVERY American but it tends to be far more true this month than we expect it to be during the rest of this or ANY year.
November also adds to this festival of gratitude and generosity/ caring it's own extra touches. The Celebration of Freedom known to us as Election Day as well as The Honoring and Valuing of those who served sacrificially to the greater gain of all of us on Veterans' Day.
These are reasons why, in My Opinion, that many among us look forward to the last 61 days of EACH AND EVERY Year!
- Johnny -
' Tis The Season
It is good to get a chance to feel more comfortable smiling and seeing others smile more often and genuinely as well!
Merry Christmas !
- Johnny -
Merry Christmas !
- Johnny -
Wednesday, November 20, 2013
Fortune Favors The Willing and The Active!
On November 16TH, I turned 59. I once, and for obnoxiously too long, stubbornly believed that you had to be young, handsome, wealthy, favored by fortune, family or connection to be an achiever, an accomplisher, someone who can improve lives, fortune and circumstance.
I've reflected on me a TREMENDOUS AMOUNT since the very First seconds of Last Saturday arrived. The cynical, the manipulative, the evil, the corrupt and the malevolently vicious and twisted bank and thrive upon a simple reality- that most of us give up too easily and are too easy to frustrate and entice into surrendering.
You make it too hard, too painful and make us pay too high a price and we will allow you to win. We will assure the triumph of the rogues and the self-serving by doing nothing to challenge you.
Yet, There is a precious secret that nobility, heroism and sanctity exalt over. That there are souls who will fight the battle, no matter what the cost. That there are those among us who will absolutely march into the hottest and most repulsive and hideous hell to win the day for a Heavenly Cause!
As one who allowed gifting, ability and creativity to nearly be snuffed out by adversity, struggle and by the militantly uncaring and unctuously indifferent, know that Age 59 is not a barrier to any good purpose, commitment , accomplishment or achievement.
Fortune, thus, it would appear favors the volunteers and those who are insistently tenacious. I also have learned that the key is to standout and be determined to be identified as who you are. There is supreme value in being yourself and seeing others, no matter what, as individuals.
You can change the world, mightily, significantly, enduringly, profoundly and pervasively by knowing that people can teach, empower and train other people to think better , to choose better and to live better.
The World, then is like The NBA, One on One is a winning way to play and to live!
- Johnny -
I've reflected on me a TREMENDOUS AMOUNT since the very First seconds of Last Saturday arrived. The cynical, the manipulative, the evil, the corrupt and the malevolently vicious and twisted bank and thrive upon a simple reality- that most of us give up too easily and are too easy to frustrate and entice into surrendering.
You make it too hard, too painful and make us pay too high a price and we will allow you to win. We will assure the triumph of the rogues and the self-serving by doing nothing to challenge you.
Yet, There is a precious secret that nobility, heroism and sanctity exalt over. That there are souls who will fight the battle, no matter what the cost. That there are those among us who will absolutely march into the hottest and most repulsive and hideous hell to win the day for a Heavenly Cause!
As one who allowed gifting, ability and creativity to nearly be snuffed out by adversity, struggle and by the militantly uncaring and unctuously indifferent, know that Age 59 is not a barrier to any good purpose, commitment , accomplishment or achievement.
Fortune, thus, it would appear favors the volunteers and those who are insistently tenacious. I also have learned that the key is to standout and be determined to be identified as who you are. There is supreme value in being yourself and seeing others, no matter what, as individuals.
You can change the world, mightily, significantly, enduringly, profoundly and pervasively by knowing that people can teach, empower and train other people to think better , to choose better and to live better.
The World, then is like The NBA, One on One is a winning way to play and to live!
- Johnny -
Monday, November 11, 2013
I do love that I have
endured, it was rough, rugged and torturous especially during the summer ---- but It will be good to be back in Kentucky as of Wednesday.
The Bronx can be a dead end - it has been for far ...
too many. I am glad that I got to Frostburg, DC, Which has been a true Little Girl With A Curl, and now in a short matter of time, Kentucky.
I am learning that resolution and . . .
stubborn determination works as a problem fixing tool FAR BETTER than panic and alarm does.
I am proud to be me this afternoon -
Change requires commitment and resolve and motion. Nothing plus nothing as Billy Preston sings leaves nothing!
My Path to Amanda and creating the life I want with her equals what I am doing right now.
-Johnny -
My Path to Amanda and creating the life I want with her equals what I am doing right now.
-Johnny -
What is a better life worth ?
If you want easy and settled, maintain where you are and think small , do small ,be small, You want different, then act and action has consequences. Fortune does favor the Brave and progress and love are worth moving towards and attaining.
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
It is hard to see things misplaced and displaced ....
Yet, It is so good to have it be true on this Monday, November 11Th. All things will be found and I am seeing signs that cannot be denied this this present age is waning and the future is moving forward1
Goodbye, DC. Welcome, Kentucky!
- Johnny-
Goodbye, DC. Welcome, Kentucky!
- Johnny-
Sunday, November 10, 2013
The Days have been hard but ...
tomorrow is the Last Full day this month that I will spend in This apartment.
It is not been an easy year to get through
Today is the 314Th day of This Year. Second by Second, It has proceeded from the First Second of New Years Day to 217 on This November 10TH.
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Saturday, November 9, 2013
My writing is one of my best gifts !
It does allow me to praise and worship God as well as serving to be used By God to bless others!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Thursday, November 7, 2013
In Spite of My Being Far Too Moody, Sulky and ....
FAR< FAR too inrense.
God saw to be kind and merciful to me and gifted me, Johnny. with a gift vastly better than I deserve - My Mandy!
- Johnny -
God saw to be kind and merciful to me and gifted me, Johnny. with a gift vastly better than I deserve - My Mandy!
- Johnny -
Be More Gracious as you sacrifice and go through struggle
here in Early November, Transitions are not easy times and her life, whether you like it or not is more complicated and she has demands that she must respond to and ---- I know this offends you ----- that she must make a priority over you!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
This Birth Month has not
been a wow Time so far- One Sunny Day and A Fun Night- but over all , nothing to be wowed by.
Wednesday, November 6, 2013
Reasons and Excuses
I wonder whether we, as a society, fully grok the difference between the meaning of these two words.
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
My life next year
will be about exploring history, exploring myself and learning how to love better and be of better service to a growing number of people.
- Johnny-
- Johnny-
Hold on and . . .
smile ever chance that I get, That is my plan for this Tuesday , November 5TH, 2013!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
I know I will ...
make it- If you can get through Six Weeks, You can navigate one. It seems today that this is asking an overwhelming and paralyzing lot, but stop whining, Johnny!
Sunday, November 3, 2013
Motion is more conducive to new direction and . . .
possibility rather than sitting back and not getting into motion.
I need to be a dedicated and fun best friend to myself
all day during the First Monday of Birth Month.
One more 3 Day Weekend between Mandy and I ....
I wonder if it being right before going to Kentucky will have it go better!
A Ride To the Opthomologist on Friday ....
and to Union Station on November 12TH. It has not been easy but things are coming together.
A Minor Victory Today .
I now actually have a voice mail bok on my not wonderful phone. I finally stopped making excuses pushed through frustration and got things done!
Don't Let The Frustration of This Given Moment ....
cvolor what your life is truly like and what you can expect your future to be like. You will get , Johnny, a false and misleading view if you do that!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Saturday, November 2, 2013
Be not sullen when you are denied what you really desire -
Taking disappointment well allows your spirit to gain more nurturing healing, Johnny !
This is My 3 900TH Post on this Blog
Persistence does over power obstacles and builds path through, over and around!
Am I too focused on things NOT working smoothly and easily ...
Am I too preoccupied with KEEPING SCORE ?
I had an anxious 3 hours - Bad Choices Made, Johnny !
Losing my 24 hour time function on my watch , for a while, due to mistakenly adjusting my watch for Standard Time brought this about.
I panicked and let it become a set up for frustration to run wild in my life for a few hours. This wasn't just about a watch function it became, too easily, a catch all for issues that my over sensitivity is causing me to respond rather badly to! It was not a biggie AT ALL and IT DID NOT NEED TO BECOME A BIGGIE !!! but I made it one. That was a foolish, unwise and not helpful choice on my part.
It is good to admit my character flaws. I do feel freer for having done so!
- Johnny -
I panicked and let it become a set up for frustration to run wild in my life for a few hours. This wasn't just about a watch function it became, too easily, a catch all for issues that my over sensitivity is causing me to respond rather badly to! It was not a biggie AT ALL and IT DID NOT NEED TO BECOME A BIGGIE !!! but I made it one. That was a foolish, unwise and not helpful choice on my part.
It is good to admit my character flaws. I do feel freer for having done so!
- Johnny -
If we need to be cared for and cannot be trusted to do ...
well, as individuals, for themselves and by others, Then, who guarantees that we can trust in those who decide that we need to be cared for and provided for?
Let Freedom Ring
I need to want to be my best! I need to work to strive to be what I am able to be and become.
What has Toastmasters Done for Me?
I have been a Toastmaster in Greater Washington DC since February 11TH, 1991. During these years, I've been trained and taught to give effective and coherent speeches that are presented with skill, poise and pinache.
I have learned the art of expressing myself effectively without advanced preparation. I have gained the invaluable resource of becoming an intuitive presenter and advocate.
I have also been trained to well-provide the valuable gift of being an effective, motivating and empowering speech evaluator. I am able to become a teammate of a presenter - working with him or her to become a confident and improving presenter.
I've also learned to organize well and design stimulating meeting agendas and lead engaging meetings. I've also learned that great leaders gain leadership training by being willing to step forward and lead under the direction of mentors who advise and guide them as they lead.
I am a much more giving and willing to serve individual as a result of what has been invested in me, over the last 22 PLUS years, by my dedicated Fellow Toastmasters!
- Johnny -
All that needs to be done before I leave for Kentucky
shall be done before I leave a week from Tuesday!
Intuitive Speaking
I am grateful to Toastmasters for the major role it played in helping me to become an effective and more poised Intuitive Speaker.
Friday, November 1, 2013
Wednesday, October 30, 2013
Is trusting in AND relying upon Washington The True Final Answer?
Can nothing that will make difference, make life better and allow us to accomplish anything meaningful come to be with out Government authorization and funding ?
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
My Plaque
I did not expect that last night- I guess I did make a difference at and through DC Advanced.
Monday, October 28, 2013
The Wild World Series
Games Ending with Pick- Offs and Interference Calls - In the World Series ??? - Can you say "Red Sox " ?
Giving up on RG!!!
is a good idea- only if you believe the NFL Norm is to presume every Quarterback should already prove himself worthy of going to the Hall of Fame before the end of their second season in the league!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
I know that this post is taking me to . . .
a desired greater goal. Sometimes the step on the way to a prize are good things to value, in and of itself!
Keep on Moving
Joy does come with / in the morning and right now the next morning is a future event!
The Redskins Lost -
Ok, You score against the Broncos and taunt them- You dare Peyton Manning to beat you- I guess the Redskins have never used a draft pick to add WISDOM to their team.
Life - The Intrinsic Value of Life !?
Americans and, while I'm not as sure of this, Western Europeans ,overall, seem to value and celebrate the philosophy of the idea of " The Quality of Life."
The Quality of Life idea seems to revolve around the idea of impressive and getting much better continually. More money, more opportunity, new homes, better vacations, superb serendipity fertilizing their lives continually.
When someone is miserably poor, when someone has fallen off the mountain of prosperity and now is groaning after landing in the " Death Valley" of ruin, Is life still valuable and worth continuing ? when a healthy person is told that their health is gone and that pain and misery will be their lot for years, Does life, then, become purposeless and not worth enduring ?
If a child is the womb is found to have a severe disorder that will cripple their ability to think and function , Is his or her life really not something that should be allowed to continue?
I know that it is easy to say life is wonderful when it seems to all to clearly be JUST that, but does a life that seems sorely limited, bitterly impoverished, agonizing or torment- drenched, qualify as one that it is most reasonable and logical to immediately halt?
- Johnny -
The Quality of Life idea seems to revolve around the idea of impressive and getting much better continually. More money, more opportunity, new homes, better vacations, superb serendipity fertilizing their lives continually.
When someone is miserably poor, when someone has fallen off the mountain of prosperity and now is groaning after landing in the " Death Valley" of ruin, Is life still valuable and worth continuing ? when a healthy person is told that their health is gone and that pain and misery will be their lot for years, Does life, then, become purposeless and not worth enduring ?
If a child is the womb is found to have a severe disorder that will cripple their ability to think and function , Is his or her life really not something that should be allowed to continue?
I know that it is easy to say life is wonderful when it seems to all to clearly be JUST that, but does a life that seems sorely limited, bitterly impoverished, agonizing or torment- drenched, qualify as one that it is most reasonable and logical to immediately halt?
- Johnny -
Saturday, October 26, 2013
A Speech on a Small Word.
This is my mission for this Saturday Morning, October Twenty- Sixth. This word can be used both to bless and ennoble.
The Four Letter word of This Day - J - U - S- T .
- Johnny -
The Four Letter word of This Day - J - U - S- T .
- Johnny -
Friday, October 25, 2013
Crystal Forest of Alexandria
Where I live is not a location that is going to wow anyone, It is a down at the heels series of Apartment buildings surrounded by black top parking lots.
The walls are paper thin, It is SIMPLY a place to live --- no more. As of October 15Th, New Ownership took over Virginia Village.
The complex has now been renamed - The Crystal Forest of Alexandria. The Kind of name that is designed to draw in those able to rent higher dollar apertments.
Right now, A number of people who live here are just barely making it. You wonder if they will be allowed to stay her- to continue to live here once their current lease expires. This was one a rather upcale are.
It has not been so for over 2 Decades. I think The Owners of The Crystal Village of Alexandria wish to shoe horn their way back into having this complex return to those times!
- Johnny -
The walls are paper thin, It is SIMPLY a place to live --- no more. As of October 15Th, New Ownership took over Virginia Village.
The complex has now been renamed - The Crystal Forest of Alexandria. The Kind of name that is designed to draw in those able to rent higher dollar apertments.
Right now, A number of people who live here are just barely making it. You wonder if they will be allowed to stay her- to continue to live here once their current lease expires. This was one a rather upcale are.
It has not been so for over 2 Decades. I think The Owners of The Crystal Village of Alexandria wish to shoe horn their way back into having this complex return to those times!
- Johnny -
Determination
Playing with severely bruised ribs and helping your team to win Game TWO of the World Series- My fingers are now TYPING a salute to Carlos Beltran!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Thursday, October 24, 2013
My Table Topics Prowess is an item of Thrill For Me !
I am actually considered a District 36 Table Topics Doyen! That is an ego trip but that is a sign I've accomplished something since 02/11/ 1991 when I became a member of National Press Toastmasters Club!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
I did win a College Football Game on My X-Box
I do need to work on not nearly turning victory into defeat in the SECOND HALF!
Is it necessary to ...
to ram a bathroom door into someone's face because you are in a hurry and are not concerned at all whether or not you might hit someone with that very same door ?
Is poverty and bad circumstance, a hard life and the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, a free Pass to acting out towards all ?!
I cannot accept that this is a valid idea !
- Johnny-
Is poverty and bad circumstance, a hard life and the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, a free Pass to acting out towards all ?!
I cannot accept that this is a valid idea !
- Johnny-
A Devotion - Yes.
I was beginning to wonder if I'd keep me promise to get out another devotion before the end of this month. I'm so glad that I can NOW ANSWER , " Yes, I've accomplished this!"
It is likely that The Mountain Mafia Message Number 80 will not be it- I think it is likely that I will work on, type, finish and send out The Mountain Mafia Message Number 81 on or before November 11TH.
- Johnny -
It is likely that The Mountain Mafia Message Number 80 will not be it- I think it is likely that I will work on, type, finish and send out The Mountain Mafia Message Number 81 on or before November 11TH.
- Johnny -
I do so wonder---- Reflections on Being Single For Far TOO!!! Long!
I spent too many years thinking that the longer I waited to get into a lasting and splendid significant other relationship the more the outcome had to prove itself to be worth the wait.
The more years I waited - The More I thought she had to be impressively pretty and sexy. I also said that I wanted her to be self-approving, creative, talented , intelligent, giving and nurturing. Yes, I did desire those latter characteristics as well but the ones I truly yearned for were, to be blunt, pretty and sexy !!!!
I have been blessed. Mandy is, in so many ways and pervasively is very pretty and sexy. Yet, I get that this is not her as a totality. These are just merely aspects of her and that is wonderful!
It took me nearly 57 full years to think properly and beneficially on this whole matter. I do so wonder- How would the course of my life have changed, If I'd properly " figured this out many years earlier!?
- Johnny -
The more years I waited - The More I thought she had to be impressively pretty and sexy. I also said that I wanted her to be self-approving, creative, talented , intelligent, giving and nurturing. Yes, I did desire those latter characteristics as well but the ones I truly yearned for were, to be blunt, pretty and sexy !!!!
I have been blessed. Mandy is, in so many ways and pervasively is very pretty and sexy. Yet, I get that this is not her as a totality. These are just merely aspects of her and that is wonderful!
It took me nearly 57 full years to think properly and beneficially on this whole matter. I do so wonder- How would the course of my life have changed, If I'd properly " figured this out many years earlier!?
- Johnny -
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
Climbing mountains is easier than . . .
hunting and pecking your way- LOL- to 4,000 Posts on this Blog!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
If you bring delight out in someone you care about ...
Shouldn't that be something that you easily and readily notice ?
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
It alarms me that MOST Americans ...
seem to not be attuned to the idea of simply caring about their fellow citizens and caring that they prosper as individuals.
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Halloween is truly Christmas Eve ...
As, for most of us, The Christmas Season launches on November the First.
Freedom- Practice it and
Take it seriously or else declaring that you are free is me3rely a non-sequitur that does NOT matter!
Waiting on a Long Line Deliberately
I'm told that choosing to do so BY Choice is a sign that you are willing to test your patience.
Monday, October 21, 2013
Words of Candor and Vulnerability
" I did not think this through, I missed some things and I rushed to get finished. I goofed, I blew it, I 'm responsible. I made an a** of myself, This is my fault. I will correct this, I will make this right, I will do all that I can to make anyone right who was served poorly due to my error."
Why is it rare that any one will make these admissions? Why are statements such as these NOT! written,typed or spoken when they simply are the simple truth?
- Johnny-
Why is it rare that any one will make these admissions? Why are statements such as these NOT! written,typed or spoken when they simply are the simple truth?
- Johnny-
Sunday, October 20, 2013
My Fighting Spirit.
It looks like, even tho' I often doubt it, It appears that I , DO, have a fighting spirit.
Driving to Success
Advancing and Living Better does often ask that one be willing to act with passion, vigor and determination.
Lord, Let me Enter Monday Confidently.
Let me, Please, Expect things to go well rather than dread that they will turn out dreadfully.
I am a Perfectionist
I need to guard against that tendency. Perfectionist seldom benefit from the bliss and suturing of deep and pervading satisfaction.
Hillary as President ?
I believe in the power of motivated individuals who are given chances to change their fortunes. I do not think that Ms. Clinton embraces this same concept.
Noble
The world needs some daring noble Knights. A Don Quixote can make a difference. I do think errant and weird knights have bettered the overall conditions from time to time throughout the history of this planet.
Do I care?
I need to show that I truly care. A look, a stance, a disposition can tell a lengthy and and definitive story
Lofty Word, Dismissive Word
Simple word , basic word four letters in length!
This word can conjure majestic principle and be a word that ignites hopes,possibilities and dreams. This same word, however, can be used to dismiss, limit and confine.
This for letter word is ------ JUST.
The Word Just can be a word that rallies people to fight off oppression, to strive to do well by everyone and to remove limitations that prevent them from reaching heights that they have the potential and ability to attain.
Just can also be defined as only or merely. It can crush options by reminding some that they are just one against many and that means they may well face opposition. It can be used to tell someone to accept and live with what is going on by reminding him or her that there are many in a given situation and this is just the way things are. It is also a word to remind someone that you see little impressive or noteworthy in them - it can be used as rating or evaluating word.
In my view, It is a word that can also tell the tale of what a person, a people even a world thinks, believes and lives by at any given period of history.When we use it to keep the dreams, those who inspire and who aspire in their place we are not doing well. We become prone to deciding ourselves into believing that all we are willing, all that we convince ourselves that we can manage today is all we are able to do and all we are capable and able to do!
When , even in the ugliest of circumstances and situations, We get that people are individuals and that no one's birth status, current economic situation or past failings , mistakes /and or misadventures consign them to the darkness unless they choose to not make any efforts to better themselves . Our society can then become just- far more just than it is right now, possibly far more just than it ever has been. The spark of wanting better and battling to gain it is a rallying cry for justice!
If we want to live better and see life become better for the many, Let's use just as a building tool, an extended hand of empowerment and motivation!
- Johnny -
This word can conjure majestic principle and be a word that ignites hopes,possibilities and dreams. This same word, however, can be used to dismiss, limit and confine.
This for letter word is ------ JUST.
The Word Just can be a word that rallies people to fight off oppression, to strive to do well by everyone and to remove limitations that prevent them from reaching heights that they have the potential and ability to attain.
Just can also be defined as only or merely. It can crush options by reminding some that they are just one against many and that means they may well face opposition. It can be used to tell someone to accept and live with what is going on by reminding him or her that there are many in a given situation and this is just the way things are. It is also a word to remind someone that you see little impressive or noteworthy in them - it can be used as rating or evaluating word.
In my view, It is a word that can also tell the tale of what a person, a people even a world thinks, believes and lives by at any given period of history.When we use it to keep the dreams, those who inspire and who aspire in their place we are not doing well. We become prone to deciding ourselves into believing that all we are willing, all that we convince ourselves that we can manage today is all we are able to do and all we are capable and able to do!
When , even in the ugliest of circumstances and situations, We get that people are individuals and that no one's birth status, current economic situation or past failings , mistakes /and or misadventures consign them to the darkness unless they choose to not make any efforts to better themselves . Our society can then become just- far more just than it is right now, possibly far more just than it ever has been. The spark of wanting better and battling to gain it is a rallying cry for justice!
If we want to live better and see life become better for the many, Let's use just as a building tool, an extended hand of empowerment and motivation!
- Johnny -
Friday, October 18, 2013
I Know that I will love and be loved better and be cherished
That time is not yet here- but it is on its' way as a constant reality!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
I dare and I will not stop!
Letting life consume me as I cringed my way through it is to love a prison sentence, A SELF- IMPOSED one !
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
I need and desire to stay Civil and be a Seeker of Truth.
I believe it is important to be passionate and eloquent when you express yourself. I seek to express myself with verve, passion and with a sense of ethics and conscience.
Yet, I cringe when I want to win rather than seek the truth wherever it leads, even if it carries me to places I'm not at at at ease and comforable with.
Yet, To do anything else is to be a sophist and a knave.
So, Do you then with draw from the market place of ideas and the grand field of intelligent verbal combat or do you steel yourself to seek and claim veritas what ever that means concerning where the journey leads you! ?
- Johnny -
Yet, I cringe when I want to win rather than seek the truth wherever it leads, even if it carries me to places I'm not at at at ease and comforable with.
Yet, To do anything else is to be a sophist and a knave.
So, Do you then with draw from the market place of ideas and the grand field of intelligent verbal combat or do you steel yourself to seek and claim veritas what ever that means concerning where the journey leads you! ?
- Johnny -
Thursday, October 17, 2013
Moving On
There will be a lot that I will not miss about Greater Dc. There are a few things I will miss greatly. I'm focusing more now on the matters that I will be freed from. I suspect that when January 13th is rather close at hand - then the things I will sorely miss will become far more items that I will spend a lot of time mulling over!
- Johnny-
- Johnny-
Johnny, The Years of Feeling like you . . .
are marching in place will end ! 12-31-13 is on its' way!
I really do myself a major diservice ...
when I do not positively fuel my creativity and imagination through the act and the discipline of writing more and more EVERY day!
- Johnny-
- Johnny-
Chris Cooley is as LOT MORE ...
interesting and satisfying to listen to than Lavar Arrington and Chad Dukes are!
It is never wise to talk about Moving Elsewhere ...
until you actually have another place that byou wish to and are eager to relocate to.
It is very much akin to hating your job and quitting due to that hatred ... without having another job to go to.
Talking over and over about dissatisfaction tends to antagonize others mightily. There is something to the old and classic saw- " Act promptly and intelligently to ready yourself to go when the conditions are in place or decide to adjust and stay." All else is just fuel for misery, grumpiness and lasting unhappiness - for yourself and others!!!
- Johnny -
It is very much akin to hating your job and quitting due to that hatred ... without having another job to go to.
Talking over and over about dissatisfaction tends to antagonize others mightily. There is something to the old and classic saw- " Act promptly and intelligently to ready yourself to go when the conditions are in place or decide to adjust and stay." All else is just fuel for misery, grumpiness and lasting unhappiness - for yourself and others!!!
- Johnny -
Was DC a Severe Error ? - Part One
It is said that following dreams that you are not practically prepare, trained and ready to effectively fulfill is a recipe for heartache, ruin and tragedy.
I once had dreams of holding elected office and making a positive, significant lasting and truly historic difference in the American Governmental System. My plan was to start by getting a job on a Congressional Staff.
There was a clear flaw to this ----- I did not type at all in Early 1978 when I was getting ready to pursue my dream . I still do not type well- I barely hunt and peck- to type- LOL- the truth.
This led, in large part- to my dream dying stillborn. The only reason I wanted to leave Frostburg, where I lived at the time anmd loved- was to become a Political Actor.
When that never came to pass, I started to fall out of love, as year after year came and went with living in Greater Washington DC! For I was here for the wrong reason, as I look back over the last now 35 and a half years plus, I could not do the one thing here that I had longed to do since I was 10 years old. While there were numerous other options to pursue, needless to say, I could not live out THE REASON that I felt compellwed and driven to come to Our Nation's Capital to pursue!
- Johnny -
I once had dreams of holding elected office and making a positive, significant lasting and truly historic difference in the American Governmental System. My plan was to start by getting a job on a Congressional Staff.
There was a clear flaw to this ----- I did not type at all in Early 1978 when I was getting ready to pursue my dream . I still do not type well- I barely hunt and peck- to type- LOL- the truth.
This led, in large part- to my dream dying stillborn. The only reason I wanted to leave Frostburg, where I lived at the time anmd loved- was to become a Political Actor.
When that never came to pass, I started to fall out of love, as year after year came and went with living in Greater Washington DC! For I was here for the wrong reason, as I look back over the last now 35 and a half years plus, I could not do the one thing here that I had longed to do since I was 10 years old. While there were numerous other options to pursue, needless to say, I could not live out THE REASON that I felt compellwed and driven to come to Our Nation's Capital to pursue!
- Johnny -
The Long Winter
I am too much of a Yankee homer, When they have a truly forgettable and lack luster season- such as the 2013 was, it makes for a long and dismal off-season EVEN in the early days of that off-season.
Robinson Cano- Is he indispensible for My Yankees ?
At The Amount of Money he is now asking for, I sadly, must conclude that , He is indeed, INDISPENSABLE!
A Movie Version of Willam Paul Young's The Shack--Yea or Nay ?
William Paul Young's Book Novel " The Shack" is controversial. Mr . Young's portrayal of The New Testament Trinity causes a number of Christians to rejoice and celebrate while causing others to feel uneasy, disquieted and alarmed.
If A Movie Version of The Shack were to be released , Would you go and see it ? Why ?
- Johnny -
If A Movie Version of The Shack were to be released , Would you go and see it ? Why ?
- Johnny -
Lead me Lord
and move within My Spirit to empower me to become more enthused as I learn to more obediently serve you!
I am grateful today
I am health, My Doctor confirmed this earlier today. I have some things to do to improve myself. If I will take her suggestions to improve my health even more seriously, I will be doing even BETTER in times to come.
- Johnny-
- Johnny-
I know that I am gaining
The idea that making progress should be easy and comfortable, events are showing me, is naught more than brainless folly.
Is Bill James The Founding Father Of Electronic Sports Games?
In the late 1970's, A Kansas Man, Bill James, who has I understand was a night watchman at the time, used his love of baseball to create a Sports Revolution.
Mr. James had just about zero patience with baseball folk wisdom that explained the way the Sport worked. He fewlt that too many people were saying things that had never been well-calculated, thought out and evaluated. It bothered him when sports writers and baseball commentators spewed out information that was just their opinion or what others had, likely thoughtlessly and uncarefully, had passed on to them.
Bill had a passion for researching records and was and still is a gifted mathematician. He applied formulas to models and then began to share Baseball Analysis tied to what can be both observed and documented, what, simply, could be proven.
Bill James started to self-publish at the end of the 1970's. By The Early 1980's, Ballantine Books published the first of the Annual Bill James Baseball Abstracts. Bill, becoming irritated by some of the demands of the fans who loved his work, ended the annual abstracts with the 1988 Edition.
Then, In 1989, The First Madden Game was released. Baseball, Basket-Ball and Hockey among other sports had their games, also, reproduced in a video game format. This makes me wonder, How much of what Bill James started to work on 35 plus years ago make possible the Games that EA Sports, 2K Sports and other enterprises now routinely design and market.
Billy Beane , of Money Ball Fame, says his theories and their practice all owe muck to the work of Mr. James. Alan Barra has admitted he borrows liberally from James in his well-regarded efforts to analyze The NFL.
This, I AM inclined to wonder, Do The Sports Games Producers, heed to consider Bill James to be Their Founding Father and Patron Saint?
- Johnny-
Mr. James had just about zero patience with baseball folk wisdom that explained the way the Sport worked. He fewlt that too many people were saying things that had never been well-calculated, thought out and evaluated. It bothered him when sports writers and baseball commentators spewed out information that was just their opinion or what others had, likely thoughtlessly and uncarefully, had passed on to them.
Bill had a passion for researching records and was and still is a gifted mathematician. He applied formulas to models and then began to share Baseball Analysis tied to what can be both observed and documented, what, simply, could be proven.
Bill James started to self-publish at the end of the 1970's. By The Early 1980's, Ballantine Books published the first of the Annual Bill James Baseball Abstracts. Bill, becoming irritated by some of the demands of the fans who loved his work, ended the annual abstracts with the 1988 Edition.
Then, In 1989, The First Madden Game was released. Baseball, Basket-Ball and Hockey among other sports had their games, also, reproduced in a video game format. This makes me wonder, How much of what Bill James started to work on 35 plus years ago make possible the Games that EA Sports, 2K Sports and other enterprises now routinely design and market.
Billy Beane , of Money Ball Fame, says his theories and their practice all owe muck to the work of Mr. James. Alan Barra has admitted he borrows liberally from James in his well-regarded efforts to analyze The NFL.
This, I AM inclined to wonder, Do The Sports Games Producers, heed to consider Bill James to be Their Founding Father and Patron Saint?
- Johnny-
My Voice
This blog is an e-voice representing me. I hope that what I have preserved here is worth reading and pondering.
Choices to Be Made
If I want a better life, a life that will last many years beyond today, I must decide to take actions to better discipline myself!
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
THERE ! IT ! IS !
In the middle of moving, throwing away and down sizing, You wonder if the one piece of paper that you are searching to find today will be found.
The more you search and cannot find it, the more frustrated you beome.
That is where I've found myself a good bit of today. Finally, I grabbed a bag that "It could NOT be in" and OF COURSE that IS where I found it.
That Changed this Tuesday , October 15Th into a EUREKA day!
- Johnny -
The more you search and cannot find it, the more frustrated you beome.
That is where I've found myself a good bit of today. Finally, I grabbed a bag that "It could NOT be in" and OF COURSE that IS where I found it.
That Changed this Tuesday , October 15Th into a EUREKA day!
- Johnny -
Monday, October 14, 2013
The Very Long Goodbye !
Mount Vernon, Kentucky ia a long way off for someone who does not own a car and does not drive. It is from my Lincolnia Area Apartment In Fairfax County, Virginia- within The DC Inner burbs -is 404 miles away , if you travel in a straight line. By the best road connection- 554 Miles. From Union Station Greyhound to Lexington, Kentucky - 669 miles. all of this one way.
Lexington is 54 miles from Mount Vernon so- one way there- if I take the bus - is 723 miles.
The transition is also proving to be long. I am one day, as of today short of 3 months away from my exiting DC permanently day. I will be back for visits- but that is not the same.The transition is already under way. There are boxes of books on my living room floor and I'm talking to people who may be interested in taking many books. My book collection is to be severely trimmed. Yesterday,Sunday October 13TH, My Best Friend And The Associate Pastor of Grace Community Church, Derek Adye, took pictures of my furniture. He will send those to missions that Grace Community Church supports to see if anyone connected with them or who they serve, would like to be the NEXT owner of my furnishings.
I have been a Toastmaster sine February 11TH, 1991. Greater DC Toastmasterdom has been a core activity for me- an overall very nurturing and gratifying experience. Over that time, I've been a vital, active and participating member of many Toastmaster Clubs - some for long periods of time, some for a noticeably shorter period of time.
I will make a "Final " visit to three clubs over the next FIFTEEN days- These Clubs are all DISTRICT 36 Clubs -Advance and Conquer, DTM Leaders and The DC Advanced Toastmasters. I have never been a member of The DTM leaders club. It is a very impressive club filled with gifted and many generous of time and spirit Toastmasters.
Advance and Conquer is blessed to have people who are currently in The District Leadership invested in it. DCA- Club 5377 - The DC Advanced Toastmasters Club- is one I joined in 1996. Over the last 17 years, It has really helped me to see Toastmasters in a more paramedic and devoted sense. I became a DTM there through the challenges given to me by A Late Past District Governor, Nancy McCeney.
That this process and saying good bye to numerous Toastmasters at varying meetings and events will be an active part of my last 3 months is rather overwhelming. I love My Amanda Lynn and I yearn for the beautiful calm of Mount Vernon, Kentucky but I know this will not be an easy one fourth of a year to navigate through.
- Johnny-
Lexington is 54 miles from Mount Vernon so- one way there- if I take the bus - is 723 miles.
The transition is also proving to be long. I am one day, as of today short of 3 months away from my exiting DC permanently day. I will be back for visits- but that is not the same.The transition is already under way. There are boxes of books on my living room floor and I'm talking to people who may be interested in taking many books. My book collection is to be severely trimmed. Yesterday,Sunday October 13TH, My Best Friend And The Associate Pastor of Grace Community Church, Derek Adye, took pictures of my furniture. He will send those to missions that Grace Community Church supports to see if anyone connected with them or who they serve, would like to be the NEXT owner of my furnishings.
I have been a Toastmaster sine February 11TH, 1991. Greater DC Toastmasterdom has been a core activity for me- an overall very nurturing and gratifying experience. Over that time, I've been a vital, active and participating member of many Toastmaster Clubs - some for long periods of time, some for a noticeably shorter period of time.
I will make a "Final " visit to three clubs over the next FIFTEEN days- These Clubs are all DISTRICT 36 Clubs -Advance and Conquer, DTM Leaders and The DC Advanced Toastmasters. I have never been a member of The DTM leaders club. It is a very impressive club filled with gifted and many generous of time and spirit Toastmasters.
Advance and Conquer is blessed to have people who are currently in The District Leadership invested in it. DCA- Club 5377 - The DC Advanced Toastmasters Club- is one I joined in 1996. Over the last 17 years, It has really helped me to see Toastmasters in a more paramedic and devoted sense. I became a DTM there through the challenges given to me by A Late Past District Governor, Nancy McCeney.
That this process and saying good bye to numerous Toastmasters at varying meetings and events will be an active part of my last 3 months is rather overwhelming. I love My Amanda Lynn and I yearn for the beautiful calm of Mount Vernon, Kentucky but I know this will not be an easy one fourth of a year to navigate through.
- Johnny-
Sunday, October 13, 2013
Where Would we now be?
Columbus Day is a cloudy, dubious and regretted holiday to many in 2013. Yet, I do wonder, literally where would we be if Columbus had never journeyed from Palos, Spain in August of 1492.
Columbus's plan was to find a route to China. He also thought he might well make contact, as well, with Japan and India.Columbus had no idea that there were two continents that were in the way.
The Vikings has landed had landed in North America nearly 500 years ago. They started a colony known as Vinland. Yet, Over time it was abandoned to vanish back into the wilderness. Sweden would eventually set up a colony in what is now Delaware and New Jersy . The Colony was named New Sweden.
We know that no one in the time of Columbus knew of The Great Atlantic Continents. W#e also have found no evidence that those who lived where we are now new of Europe a half of millienium ago.
So, Where would be now if these voyages and the voyages of those who followed them did not occur?
- Johnny -
Columbus's plan was to find a route to China. He also thought he might well make contact, as well, with Japan and India.Columbus had no idea that there were two continents that were in the way.
The Vikings has landed had landed in North America nearly 500 years ago. They started a colony known as Vinland. Yet, Over time it was abandoned to vanish back into the wilderness. Sweden would eventually set up a colony in what is now Delaware and New Jersy . The Colony was named New Sweden.
We know that no one in the time of Columbus knew of The Great Atlantic Continents. W#e also have found no evidence that those who lived where we are now new of Europe a half of millienium ago.
So, Where would be now if these voyages and the voyages of those who followed them did not occur?
- Johnny -
Saturday, October 12, 2013
Taking a deep breath, shaking your head and
Still saying "YES" as an act o love and devotion is an act of nobility!
Lord, Thank you for your presence and friendship ...
that I have through My Lord Jesus at all times.
I think that things, too often, are not all they COULD be ...
That does great damage to my ability and capacity to enjoy and better participate in well what is.
Warped perspective lead to troubled thinking.
I am learning that it is most valuable to purge myself of perspectives that are not besed upon truth and reality.
I am my true best friend
My creativity and willingness to learn will profit me mightily through the rest of this month.
A Great Dog Moment
Friday, October 11TH, 2013 was the 5Th day of a long and dreary and very rainy week. It had been a week of too much strain, poor coping and too much festering frustration on my part.
I was much too wrapped up in my own as I descended an escalator to enter The Virginia Square Metro station in Arlington , Virginia.
I lifted my head in an effort to clear my head in an effort to be less me focused. As I looked down I see a Metro Police officer . I thanked him for his service, a very usual practice for me.
I noticed that he had a Dog, A Magnificent German Shepard , at his side. The dog was absorded in playing with a pair of rolled up sock dropping it, picking it up sniffing it and being absorded in plasying with it.
I did feel a stirring in my spirit then , " It is not as you are seeing it. You will get beyond - find joy, laughter and a reason to smile today." I began to smile and laugh for a bit and that broke the spell of gloom.
I shared that at an AA meeting later. A women told me, " I've never heard God spek in the Metro- That ia a first."
God can speak to me in many ways including through a fun loving and enjoying life dog!
- Johnny -
I was much too wrapped up in my own as I descended an escalator to enter The Virginia Square Metro station in Arlington , Virginia.
I lifted my head in an effort to clear my head in an effort to be less me focused. As I looked down I see a Metro Police officer . I thanked him for his service, a very usual practice for me.
I noticed that he had a Dog, A Magnificent German Shepard , at his side. The dog was absorded in playing with a pair of rolled up sock dropping it, picking it up sniffing it and being absorded in plasying with it.
I did feel a stirring in my spirit then , " It is not as you are seeing it. You will get beyond - find joy, laughter and a reason to smile today." I began to smile and laugh for a bit and that broke the spell of gloom.
I shared that at an AA meeting later. A women told me, " I've never heard God spek in the Metro- That ia a first."
God can speak to me in many ways including through a fun loving and enjoying life dog!
- Johnny -
Thursday, October 10, 2013
Luster over passing through.
This is how I must look at getting through tomorrow, Friday, October 11TH.
Giving DOES bring fulfillment
This does suggest that the emptiness that I often feel throttled by is due to my being FAR !!! too stingy and unwilling to give and contribute enough and sufficiently.
Being lonely is hard and stressful.
Yet, It is the greatest training ground to learn to continue to do better and better by yourself- on your own behalf.
I know that you want the future so much, The future that you have....
longed for, that you will crawl through any peril to get there, Johnny.
Having a Pet Raccoon.?
The Former Redskin Tight End, Chris Cooley , did for awhile. I do wonder about how many " wild animals" can ACTUALLY be domesticated if raised by a human starting very early on during his or her life.
I am winning now
On a rainy day, I am deciding to , as 17:00 approaches , to recast this day, my day, as being Sunny and inviting
- Johnny-.
- Johnny-.
Four Thousand Posts- all told - will be mine
before the end of THIS year. I am still chipping away at this!
Never Stop until you have No !!! Choice !!!!
I need to not stop doing well when there is nothing truly in the way to stop me or even slow me down.
I am learning to get more out of my X Box 360.
It is silly to buy games and only get out of them a mere fraction of what they contain.
Freedom from Sulky and Pathetic Brattiness
" You hurt my feelings. You are mean. Get away from me. I don't want to be your friend anymore." Children are easily offended and easily angered. They see today as lasting forever and to be hurt, offended , sad, frustrated and unhappy now MEANS, of course, it will last eternally and beyond that.
Our heart does out to FIVE year olds who respond to a SEEMINGLY nasty emotional wound that way. We are a little concerned when a NINE year old respond this exact same way. We vchallenger 14 year olds who are this easily emotionally wounded.
We know that 50ish men who respond to a rough conversation with some one they love this way need to " grow a pair", grow up and be realistic.
I've sulked too long today after feeling MISTAKENLY that I've been dissed last night by the love of my life. Life is too short, she is too amazing and there are too many good things to relish and thrive over to act like a " too easily rattled 5 year old in a sandbox " !
I am GRATEFUL for a slow day that gave me the chance to reflect and to decide it is best, TODAY, to be wise and prudent!
- Johnny -
Our heart does out to FIVE year olds who respond to a SEEMINGLY nasty emotional wound that way. We are a little concerned when a NINE year old respond this exact same way. We vchallenger 14 year olds who are this easily emotionally wounded.
We know that 50ish men who respond to a rough conversation with some one they love this way need to " grow a pair", grow up and be realistic.
I've sulked too long today after feeling MISTAKENLY that I've been dissed last night by the love of my life. Life is too short, she is too amazing and there are too many good things to relish and thrive over to act like a " too easily rattled 5 year old in a sandbox " !
I am GRATEFUL for a slow day that gave me the chance to reflect and to decide it is best, TODAY, to be wise and prudent!
- Johnny -
I need not to Panic
Panic can ruin much. Prudence can be hard to exercise and arduous to endure, yet, It is not something I will ever regret.
Wednesday, October 9, 2013
Feeling hurt and rejected.
I know that the love of my life is tired and overwhelmed and I know that this, too, shall pass. Yet, I am feeling alone, rejected and abandoned tonight.
The Remainder of October
seems to be a slow and burdensome time to navigate through. I must just bear up and get through it.
Fight!
I am struggling to get my traction but today is not all or it for me - I am fighting for so much more!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Inspiration
Slowly, I am learning that getting up when you want to stay down and breathing when you want to stop shows that you are getting inspiration.
I do think that we complicate and ...
make our society far too overly sensitive, thorny and as difficult to navigate as possible.
Then, We compound this by " wondering" why people are so tense, stressed and ill- at ease with themselves, their circumstances and each other.
Then, We compound this by " wondering" why people are so tense, stressed and ill- at ease with themselves, their circumstances and each other.
Being Excessive
I, while putting my kitchen back together after a roach expression held in my apartment, made contact with a partially open tab of Cascade complete. This happened while moving a box that it had fallen into.
I treated it like a hazmat situation, I threw the box immediately into a nearly empty white . plastic trash bag. and, then , took that bag out to the dumpster in the rain.
I also washed my hands multiple times. Is this a tad overboard and excessive.
- Johnny -
I treated it like a hazmat situation, I threw the box immediately into a nearly empty white . plastic trash bag. and, then , took that bag out to the dumpster in the rain.
I also washed my hands multiple times. Is this a tad overboard and excessive.
- Johnny -
I am not disposed to let everyone ...
get away with anything and everything. Yet, My life is not mine, Please guide and teach me, Lord!
In perspective
In Past Years, Wouldn't you have prayed that God would place you where you are on This Wednesday, October Ninth, 2013?
I know being stuck today is an illusion
My destination is to reach a better life. I shall attain this!
Being Feisty.
is me, more often than I am willing to admit. I should apologize this, shouldn't I. Yet, I am challenged to be true to myself. I am learning that this feistiness is , in many way " Ces't Moi".
The Practical Pragmatic Problems with Multiculturalism.
One of the Mantras of 2013 America is that all cultures, languages and custom- ways of viewing the world,The value that one holds on tradition and that we we are inclined to believe that people should function from day to day are equal. that none, effectively should dominate or hold sway over the others- are equal.
This view can also be described, I believe as a definition of multiculturalism. Yet, Can we all function well, smoothly, efficiently and non- irritatingly by living in this manner? While it is not a PC response, It is clear to me that some of us stumble, bumble and crete and impose difficulties and burdens upon othes by living this way.
I rode a bus today that over stayed a stop because a woman was not able to understand a simple word of direction, " Not this bus, The Next 29 K will go in the direction you want." The driver four separate time, each time more simply than the time before labored to explain to this elderly woman.". A woman who spoke the same language as this woman then stepped in and after 3 attempts FINALLY got the message through to this woman. During the first two attempts this woman kept her hand on the bus door, shrugged and shook her head know.
Was this effort kind, decent and understanding ? Yes! Did this effort impose a 5 minute delay on every passenger on the bus? Yes !
A few minutes later, at a Mc Donald's, I saw a line grow longer as an employee tried to PAINSTAKINGLY explain an item on The Mc Donald's menu to an angry and not- comprehending man.
I think the US functioned quite well for many years on the concept of "E Pluribus Unum" - Out of Many, One and the concept of The Melting Pot. Most societies in the World have an official language that is necessary to speak and understand in order to do well within the mainstream/ central/ dominate culture.
I think that imposing a burden on most to benefit the few, relatively speaking ,just creates a bit of rawness and frustration in that society. I like a bumper sticker I saw earlier today The Law- In Plain English. I think that we can all best operate by functioning as we deal with every one just using basic and plainly spoken English.
A friend of mine- who voted for Mc Govern, Carter- TWICE- Dukakis, Clinton and Gore- sid that life works best and we ALL do well for each other and as we connect with others when we decide to live COMPETENTLY. He further ldefines this as " Learning to operate in a way that makes you life as smooth and as problem and burden free as possible." He also states that " It works better if you can expect the same of others,"
I like many aspects of other cultures and waqys of doing things.' However, as Rodney King might say, " I'd like all of us to operate in a manner that will allow us all to get along."
- Johnny-
This view can also be described, I believe as a definition of multiculturalism. Yet, Can we all function well, smoothly, efficiently and non- irritatingly by living in this manner? While it is not a PC response, It is clear to me that some of us stumble, bumble and crete and impose difficulties and burdens upon othes by living this way.
I rode a bus today that over stayed a stop because a woman was not able to understand a simple word of direction, " Not this bus, The Next 29 K will go in the direction you want." The driver four separate time, each time more simply than the time before labored to explain to this elderly woman.". A woman who spoke the same language as this woman then stepped in and after 3 attempts FINALLY got the message through to this woman. During the first two attempts this woman kept her hand on the bus door, shrugged and shook her head know.
Was this effort kind, decent and understanding ? Yes! Did this effort impose a 5 minute delay on every passenger on the bus? Yes !
A few minutes later, at a Mc Donald's, I saw a line grow longer as an employee tried to PAINSTAKINGLY explain an item on The Mc Donald's menu to an angry and not- comprehending man.
I think the US functioned quite well for many years on the concept of "E Pluribus Unum" - Out of Many, One and the concept of The Melting Pot. Most societies in the World have an official language that is necessary to speak and understand in order to do well within the mainstream/ central/ dominate culture.
I think that imposing a burden on most to benefit the few, relatively speaking ,just creates a bit of rawness and frustration in that society. I like a bumper sticker I saw earlier today The Law- In Plain English. I think that we can all best operate by functioning as we deal with every one just using basic and plainly spoken English.
A friend of mine- who voted for Mc Govern, Carter- TWICE- Dukakis, Clinton and Gore- sid that life works best and we ALL do well for each other and as we connect with others when we decide to live COMPETENTLY. He further ldefines this as " Learning to operate in a way that makes you life as smooth and as problem and burden free as possible." He also states that " It works better if you can expect the same of others,"
I like many aspects of other cultures and waqys of doing things.' However, as Rodney King might say, " I'd like all of us to operate in a manner that will allow us all to get along."
- Johnny-
Tuesday, October 8, 2013
It is good to celebrate today !
It is delightful to see that God has chosen to use me to bless others.
22 Years of Sobriety Today.
My Sobriety Date is October 8TH, 2013- I am 22 years sober this day. I've had my sobriety mocked- That my bottom is too HIGH- that I neeeded to go out and have THE DISEASE MUG me a bit more.
Twenty- Two years ago, I saw that My relationship to Alcohol was malformed and dangerous. I used the beverage to change my mood and address struggles - not because I liked the taste or wanted to quench my thirst. I also was quite aware that My father drank out of control .
I also decided I wanted a better way of life and wanted what I saw a number of people at the most beneficial meeting had.
It's never been easy but I did what I felt I need to do and still need to do.
- Johnny -
Twenty- Two years ago, I saw that My relationship to Alcohol was malformed and dangerous. I used the beverage to change my mood and address struggles - not because I liked the taste or wanted to quench my thirst. I also was quite aware that My father drank out of control .
I also decided I wanted a better way of life and wanted what I saw a number of people at the most beneficial meeting had.
It's never been easy but I did what I felt I need to do and still need to do.
- Johnny -
Sunday, October 6, 2013
Radically Askew
I am moving- leaving a 35 plus, nearly 36 year life, having lived in Greater DC in various area throughout this period of time - In The City, In Bethesda, Rockville, Gaithersburg, Reston. Takoma Park, Arlington and In The Fairfax County Section of Alexandria, in a section called Lincolnia.
I live next to the broken and haunted shell of what used to be a high dollar shopping mall- Landmark Mall. I live in a part of a suburb that is really very inner city in character, feel and appearance.
I've really wanted out of Greater DC for a number of years- in a strong way- since the last days of 1998. The messy death of someone I deeply cared for made me want to flee this area. I've just had this as a spirit disruptive wish for many years. Finally, In Early July of 2012, The Way of Escape materialized - a destination to journey to become clear.
Over this weekend, I started packing. Over 100 books are boxed and on the floor of my living room. I ALSO spent time dismantling my kitchen and background as well. The contents of both are placed throughout the apartment. This due to an inspection for roaches to occur on Tuesday The Eighth.
I am not thrilled with where I live. It is what I can afford. It seems to be visually unappealing and not hardly an inviting and friendly place. I really would rather ignore and not cooperate with that notice but on my door- but I am doing so anyway!
The chaos is a bit overwhelming and unnerving. Yet, My future beckons! I've had thoughts of panicking- stopping the process and saying. Yet, I know there is precious little for me here now and six months after deciding to stay, It is highly likely yearn to leave this are again.
Therefore, I say I can't let discomfort and a 3 month process of getting ready cause me to abandon what I know is best. January 13Th is inching here to be sure, but it will arrive and I shall leave!
- Johnny -
I live next to the broken and haunted shell of what used to be a high dollar shopping mall- Landmark Mall. I live in a part of a suburb that is really very inner city in character, feel and appearance.
I've really wanted out of Greater DC for a number of years- in a strong way- since the last days of 1998. The messy death of someone I deeply cared for made me want to flee this area. I've just had this as a spirit disruptive wish for many years. Finally, In Early July of 2012, The Way of Escape materialized - a destination to journey to become clear.
Over this weekend, I started packing. Over 100 books are boxed and on the floor of my living room. I ALSO spent time dismantling my kitchen and background as well. The contents of both are placed throughout the apartment. This due to an inspection for roaches to occur on Tuesday The Eighth.
I am not thrilled with where I live. It is what I can afford. It seems to be visually unappealing and not hardly an inviting and friendly place. I really would rather ignore and not cooperate with that notice but on my door- but I am doing so anyway!
The chaos is a bit overwhelming and unnerving. Yet, My future beckons! I've had thoughts of panicking- stopping the process and saying. Yet, I know there is precious little for me here now and six months after deciding to stay, It is highly likely yearn to leave this are again.
Therefore, I say I can't let discomfort and a 3 month process of getting ready cause me to abandon what I know is best. January 13Th is inching here to be sure, but it will arrive and I shall leave!
- Johnny -
Saturday, October 5, 2013
I MUST be where I am!
Acting that I am NOT living in Greater Washington DC, while I still CLEARLY am, is naught but an act of foolishness and denial.
- Johnny-
- Johnny-
I am getting and maintaining traction.
It will not be an easy process but today and yesterday the shrinking of my book collection IS underway.
I need to noticably reduce the number of books that I own between now and 13 January, 2014.
It is a small effort, so far, but the process has commenced!
- Johnny -
I need to noticably reduce the number of books that I own between now and 13 January, 2014.
It is a small effort, so far, but the process has commenced!
- Johnny -
Did we re-elect a MULE in 2012 ?
I know that The Symbol of The Democratic Party is a Donkey. The events of The Last Few Weeks have inspired me to wonder and ponder whether a MULE is NOW sitting in The Oval Office.
The Affordable Health Care Act seems to be a classically and clearly flawed piece of legislation. The exemptions that have been allowed, the continually tweaking of programs and the just sense that this act is in effect a car on a lift constantly being repaired causes people to wonder how much maintaining it and fully funding it as it is is makes sense.
It seems that delaying this mandate for a year as this bill is properly and effectively re-tooled just is logical and reasonable.
Demanding that this legislation be fully funded as it is RIGHT now seems, to me, to be a mulish,unreasonable and arrogant response!
- Johnny-
The Affordable Health Care Act seems to be a classically and clearly flawed piece of legislation. The exemptions that have been allowed, the continually tweaking of programs and the just sense that this act is in effect a car on a lift constantly being repaired causes people to wonder how much maintaining it and fully funding it as it is is makes sense.
It seems that delaying this mandate for a year as this bill is properly and effectively re-tooled just is logical and reasonable.
Demanding that this legislation be fully funded as it is RIGHT now seems, to me, to be a mulish,unreasonable and arrogant response!
- Johnny-
A- Rod
We 'd like him to be quiet and disappear- Anyone have a Phantom Zone Projector. Yet, We, in The United States , know the value of ---- Innocent Until Proven Guilty, Due Process and a strong, active and easily acesible appeal and review process.
Yet, Many of us would delight in a process where the heniously and obvious guilty are dealt with immediately and APPROPRIATELY and SANELY harshly! And Yet, Doubt, Fairness, Even- Handedness and Mercy also matter, powerfully, to us as well!
- Johnny -
Yet, Many of us would delight in a process where the heniously and obvious guilty are dealt with immediately and APPROPRIATELY and SANELY harshly! And Yet, Doubt, Fairness, Even- Handedness and Mercy also matter, powerfully, to us as well!
- Johnny -
Friday, October 4, 2013
Is ir wrong to expect that people will do ...
all that they possibly can to add quality to their lives and to prosper to the fullest extent that they are able to prosper? Is this an elitist concept in October of 2013?
If this be so, I must say that this notion impresses me as being tres bizarre!
- Johnny -
If this be so, I must say that this notion impresses me as being tres bizarre!
- Johnny -
Financial Reality
When you are Trillions of Dollars in Debts and it looks like you are determined to work towards a Quadrillion Dollars, Should you continue to add more debt, can you continue to demand more anmd more in taxes!
At what point do you have to say, are you required to say, " we can't afford it, We cannot be your answer. It just isn't wise or sane to go any deeper in debt!" ?
- Johnny -
At what point do you have to say, are you required to say, " we can't afford it, We cannot be your answer. It just isn't wise or sane to go any deeper in debt!" ?
- Johnny -
On October Fourth, 2010 ,
This blog began. I have learned over the last 3 years that it is good to blend commentary social analysis, humor, pithiness and more often just how I am doing, what I am thinking and how I am reacting to the given day that I am within.
Life is a roller coaster! Roller Coasters are thrilling but also have starts, sends and slower-moments as well. I'm glad that this is also an accurate reflection of what my blog has become over time!
- Johnny -
Life is a roller coaster! Roller Coasters are thrilling but also have starts, sends and slower-moments as well. I'm glad that this is also an accurate reflection of what my blog has become over time!
- Johnny -
Talent and Grace and Poise.
Chris Cooley flows richly in these qualities. Lavar Arrington totally is devoid of these qualities.
The Dismantling of 0ver 35 Years Started Today !
I sorted out one book shelf- the one closest to my desk earlier this afternoon. 47 Books were designated as needing to go!
A small and modest start to be sure but this is the day- with 3 months and nine days to go- when the finishing out of my time living in DC officially started!
- Johnny -
A small and modest start to be sure but this is the day- with 3 months and nine days to go- when the finishing out of my time living in DC officially started!
- Johnny -
Struggles are not a sign of being cursed.
I'm prone , too easily , to believe this. I gain no benefit, at all, from thinking this way.
A Madden Enhanced Day
On a slow Friday Afternoon, I played a playoff game on Madden 11. A conference championship game and pulled out a victory on a Hail Mary with less than a minute to go in the Fourth Quarter. Touchdown with under a minute to go!
Yes, It is silly and juvenile but I feel good. John Kitna ????? is going to the Superbowl! LOL !!
- Johnny -
Yes, It is silly and juvenile but I feel good. John Kitna ????? is going to the Superbowl! LOL !!
- Johnny -
Thursday, October 3, 2013
Wednesday, October 2, 2013
Will I ever let my
teams lose when I use them in Electronic Games? It would be a good exercise in dealing with lie on life's terms in a non-harmful setting!
Tuesday, October 1, 2013
This is My Hero's Birth Month
I honor Mickey Mantle by dedicating this blog entry- The SEVENTH of October, 2013, to him.
Monday, September 30, 2013
I am giving up an awful lot ...
Am I wrong to want the process to fairer and not so deeply to my disadvantage?
Shouldn't being in a relationship ...
not mean that that you have to struggle through the toughest times alone and disconnected?
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Thursday, September 26, 2013
A Solid Truth - Look towards where you are heading ALWAYS -
When you look down to see where you are going, Then, You are likely to trip over your own feet. I owe this wisdom to My Girlfriend, Amanda Lynn!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
A Weekend of Toastmasters and Church NOW looms...
before me!
I know that this is a good way to adjust gently to being back where I do not PRESENTLY wish to be --- in My Apartment in Fairfax County, Virginia just outside of The City of Alexandria, Va. To be more precise, in The Lincolnia Section of Fairfax County, VA!
- Johnny -
I know that this is a good way to adjust gently to being back where I do not PRESENTLY wish to be --- in My Apartment in Fairfax County, Virginia just outside of The City of Alexandria, Va. To be more precise, in The Lincolnia Section of Fairfax County, VA!
- Johnny -
I am glad that TODAY, September 26TH, ...
That I am thinking positively and looking for beneficial and effectively positive options for getting to November 12TH in a way that I can be proud of !
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Is Your Football team on The Brink already?
It appears that DC's Redskins are a team that is in such a condition.
Trust
Do I know that I can trust in God, in those who he has positively connected me to and to what I have, inside myself, to do well?
If I am to live well, My answer, indeed, needs to be a strong "Y!!! E!!!! S!!!" !
- Johnny -
If I am to live well, My answer, indeed, needs to be a strong "Y!!! E!!!! S!!!" !
- Johnny -
I am healing
I am getting that I can decide to make my ugly past matter less and be much less impactful TODAY!
Peace is a Personal Choice .
I need to choose to live within and practice peace especially over the time in Greater DC between today, September 26TH, and the night of Tuesday, November 12TH.
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
2013 - The Survival Of the Fittest Reconsidered .
One person - blusters brags, is hostile and very prone to be antagonistic and to impose his or her will upon other whenever he or she pleases. The other person is- kind, prudent, wise, clever, logical and well- educated. He or she speaks four languages, is a natural storyteller and a gifted speaker and presenter and educator.
The Hostile Blusterer is 6 Foot Four, in superb physical condition and runs marathons. The Clever person who is a gifted speaker and educator is in a wheelchair.
Who, in fact, is fitter and is more likely to thrive in America as it is in the Early Autumn of 2013 ? Just something to take some time to think further about!
- Johnny -
The Hostile Blusterer is 6 Foot Four, in superb physical condition and runs marathons. The Clever person who is a gifted speaker and educator is in a wheelchair.
Who, in fact, is fitter and is more likely to thrive in America as it is in the Early Autumn of 2013 ? Just something to take some time to think further about!
- Johnny -
If I decide to presently pursue my time here in ...
DC with dignity and justifiable passion, I will live better during these last days of September and throughout The Soon to Arrive month of October.
I need to be where I am on This September 26TH !
I genuinely do NOT wish to be here. I cannot profit from this stance.
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Life an a Bubble ...
Only works if you like to live your life as an isolated and clueless individual.
The Value of Talkin' Good !
I know that ' readin , riting and rithmatic are considered the cardinal virtues for a person to be well- educated and set up to be successful and marketable.
I do think that Public Speaking should be added to these cardinal nece3swsities. The ability to speak well , to be lucid at the moment, even when caught by surprise and to show others how they gain by investing in you and trusting in you is a vital asset.
Therefore, I do believe, It is critical that speakin' be added to the age old trio of readin' , ritin, and rithmatic. None, of course should be taught to the tune of a hickory stick.
- Johnny -
I do think that Public Speaking should be added to these cardinal nece3swsities. The ability to speak well , to be lucid at the moment, even when caught by surprise and to show others how they gain by investing in you and trusting in you is a vital asset.
Therefore, I do believe, It is critical that speakin' be added to the age old trio of readin' , ritin, and rithmatic. None, of course should be taught to the tune of a hickory stick.
- Johnny -
Struggling with The " Back in DC" Blues.
I am in a long distance relationship and I just finished visiting my Girl Friend who lives over 600 miles away through the Greyhound routes I travel.
I plan to move to be with her in very !!! early 2014, 3. 5 Months away. I really struggle with being away with her. I'm half tempted to walk away from my apartment and just let my landlord deal with all my posessions.
I do believe that shrinking down and reducing myself will be a painful process and I'm struggling with the temptation to avoid that struggle. I do believe in the end I will do what will be tough but most correct, proper and right. Right now, I just feel very lonely and extremely overwhelmed!
- Johnny -
I plan to move to be with her in very !!! early 2014, 3. 5 Months away. I really struggle with being away with her. I'm half tempted to walk away from my apartment and just let my landlord deal with all my posessions.
I do believe that shrinking down and reducing myself will be a painful process and I'm struggling with the temptation to avoid that struggle. I do believe in the end I will do what will be tough but most correct, proper and right. Right now, I just feel very lonely and extremely overwhelmed!
- Johnny -
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
I've made it through The Rain !
I know that I am in the midst of the temporary moving ever closer to the more, nurturing, healing positive and far more beneficial!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
The writing helped me get through the LAST 2 MONTHS !
When I write, I am making my mark, in part, and also expression my aspirations as an individual!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
I 'm leaving on A Greyhound ---
at 19:55 tomorrow. DC will not be my focus for the next 3 weeks once I depart from Union Station.
Yes, I am wise----
but it is wisdom born of pain. Yes, I paid the price but look how much I've gained. These words of Helen Reddy are a fitting epitaph to the last 9 weeks!
It was a vicious NINE weeks but it is now all...
almost done. I leave again for Kentucky tomorrow night!
- Johnny-
- Johnny-
Denying a Child's Individuality is a MOST Insidious Act . . .
of child abuse.
I have candidly stated on this blog that I suffered traumatic and pervasive child abuse as a boy being raised near the Grand Concourse in The South Western Bronx in the 1950's, 1960's and Early 1970's!
To be sure, I endured PHYSICAL, emotional, intellectual from my parents and through my time in both Catholic and Public Schools of The Bronx. I was indoctrinated , quite often through violence and through the expectation that violence was likely to be visited upon me, to " accept that" , I was less than acceptable, that I was a joke, weird ,retarded, a lose and no one that any one should regard well or be fond of.
I was told that what I liked showed that I was a " baby" or a "clueless fool" as a Gentlemen- I will not record here some of the vulgar and nasty ways that some of those statements were verbally expressed at times. I was taught to look down, be humble, act and tell people that I was unworthy and to not make eye contact.
There was a " Stockholm Syndrome" aspect to all of this. I found that I was trained to believe that those who got me to see myself in this light were " just honest, insightful and blunt speaking people." I also learned that bullies and my parents were willing to willing to use force to : duscipline me" when I argued that I was talented, creative, caring, desireable and talented . I was also " taught" that the fact that I believed they MIGHT be wrong showed how out of touch with reality I OBVIOUSLY was. The fact that I challenged them, was of course, the proof of how bizarre I was again demonstrating myself to be!
I've spoken of and posted how going o Yankee Games as a teen by myself, apart from either of my parents. gave me a place where I could be me as me and not feel ashamed of that. This is why I am a fanatically loyal Yankee fan! Attending an out of the area College- Frostburg State- also helped to get see myself in a more helpful and a more pervasively wise way.
Yet, I also, a folly that I'm asuured that others have fallen into, believed that I could just pretend all of that never happened and live my life without process it and dealing with it. My summer 2003 Nervous Break Down and the arduous to get out from under wreckage that came as a consequence of it have taught me to view this differently.
I learned to believe that people of good will who seem to be invested in my life are the best people to heed and to trust. I learned it is good to celebrate those who do well and to honor their commitment to doing well and living well. I have also learned to be thankful to the people of love and good will in my life and to tell them, again and again, of how I'm blessed by them. I also see the vital importance of affirming what children do well and encourage them to try to expand upon their gifts, abilities and capacities!
I also see how healing it can be to seek mentoring from those who seek for you to become all that it is Possible for you to become. It helps if you are steadfast in your desire to become better, in all ways, than you are now. It also works if you are willing to be patient with yourself when you goof, err, stumble and just act foolishly. That is a part of simply being human.
I know I am a talented, gifted, bright, forward thinking, clever, well-educated and at times, inspring and motivating individual. I know that I am learning to become better and practicing, more and more often, the effective pursuit of becoming a better and more improving man!
- Johnny -
I have candidly stated on this blog that I suffered traumatic and pervasive child abuse as a boy being raised near the Grand Concourse in The South Western Bronx in the 1950's, 1960's and Early 1970's!
To be sure, I endured PHYSICAL, emotional, intellectual from my parents and through my time in both Catholic and Public Schools of The Bronx. I was indoctrinated , quite often through violence and through the expectation that violence was likely to be visited upon me, to " accept that" , I was less than acceptable, that I was a joke, weird ,retarded, a lose and no one that any one should regard well or be fond of.
I was told that what I liked showed that I was a " baby" or a "clueless fool" as a Gentlemen- I will not record here some of the vulgar and nasty ways that some of those statements were verbally expressed at times. I was taught to look down, be humble, act and tell people that I was unworthy and to not make eye contact.
There was a " Stockholm Syndrome" aspect to all of this. I found that I was trained to believe that those who got me to see myself in this light were " just honest, insightful and blunt speaking people." I also learned that bullies and my parents were willing to willing to use force to : duscipline me" when I argued that I was talented, creative, caring, desireable and talented . I was also " taught" that the fact that I believed they MIGHT be wrong showed how out of touch with reality I OBVIOUSLY was. The fact that I challenged them, was of course, the proof of how bizarre I was again demonstrating myself to be!
I've spoken of and posted how going o Yankee Games as a teen by myself, apart from either of my parents. gave me a place where I could be me as me and not feel ashamed of that. This is why I am a fanatically loyal Yankee fan! Attending an out of the area College- Frostburg State- also helped to get see myself in a more helpful and a more pervasively wise way.
Yet, I also, a folly that I'm asuured that others have fallen into, believed that I could just pretend all of that never happened and live my life without process it and dealing with it. My summer 2003 Nervous Break Down and the arduous to get out from under wreckage that came as a consequence of it have taught me to view this differently.
I learned to believe that people of good will who seem to be invested in my life are the best people to heed and to trust. I learned it is good to celebrate those who do well and to honor their commitment to doing well and living well. I have also learned to be thankful to the people of love and good will in my life and to tell them, again and again, of how I'm blessed by them. I also see the vital importance of affirming what children do well and encourage them to try to expand upon their gifts, abilities and capacities!
I also see how healing it can be to seek mentoring from those who seek for you to become all that it is Possible for you to become. It helps if you are steadfast in your desire to become better, in all ways, than you are now. It also works if you are willing to be patient with yourself when you goof, err, stumble and just act foolishly. That is a part of simply being human.
I know I am a talented, gifted, bright, forward thinking, clever, well-educated and at times, inspring and motivating individual. I know that I am learning to become better and practicing, more and more often, the effective pursuit of becoming a better and more improving man!
- Johnny -
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
A Leader IS!!! A Light !
Today, I purpose to be a LEADING LIGHT during the DC Advanced Toastmaster meeting!
I am taking a deep breath.
I will choose to remember TODAY that I've gone through so much and INDEED GOTTEN !!! thorough it since I left Lexington at 11 PM on the 26TH of June!
- Johnny-
- Johnny-
Kentucky is so close - but niggling foolishness ...
makes it seem SO!! far way.
you will get to Kentucky, Please do not overly obsess upon today!
you will get to Kentucky, Please do not overly obsess upon today!
Sunday, August 25, 2013
The Future will be so much better-
Please, God, Free me from fretting over the worst slights and most serious outrages of today and yesteryear. I need to not have those haunt my future!
Do I spend so much time fussing over ...
the way things SHOULD BE , that I can't cope properly with what is?
I know that I am MY ! biggest problem .
I know that I anm improving and am, all things being equal a Positive work in progress.
I must remember that ...
going home is a delightful idea. It just happens that I am in the midst of a complicated process of truly coming home.
Dr. King
A Noble Man, indeed. At times when you think of things like slavery , You begin to wonder if creating The USA was a good idea. And then, Yes, It has been and still is.
We are, truly, flawed and stained and corrupt- yet, at the same time- still noble.
We are, truly, flawed and stained and corrupt- yet, at the same time- still noble.
Today is a day to get through
Work it so that it has been a good experience once it is in the history books.
The Price of Moving on.
Life is not only hard but it has price tags- Living is costly and it is not just a matter of money.
I love my books- They do greatly work to establish my presence or my identity. A number of them will not belong to me over the last few months of this year.
That is the price of a leaving and a beginning. Holding on to all of those books is too high a price to stay where I am and live here, day in and day out indefinitely!
- Johnny-
I love my books- They do greatly work to establish my presence or my identity. A number of them will not belong to me over the last few months of this year.
That is the price of a leaving and a beginning. Holding on to all of those books is too high a price to stay where I am and live here, day in and day out indefinitely!
- Johnny-
Saturday, August 24, 2013
Friday, August 23, 2013
Today was , in part , a
day of rest and a day of investing in my future. Both were attended to well!
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
My Conversation need to be more focused on ...
Letting others know when I see their potential and what they are capable of!
A Demand for Intense Pleasure now ....
is an act of stupidity if it denies you, due to it, years of growing devotion and affection.
Love people and Use Things
That advice from The Fourth Presbyterian College Group years ago still applies.
Monday, August 19, 2013
When you prepare well,
It is best to not fret over whether you did enough, It is time to take a deep breath, step forward and execute and perform.
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Spending Money-
If you do harm to yourself by being foolishly and unjustfiably cheap, Then, You are acting like and living like a dunce, a dullard and a fool.
I do not LIKE Metro at all.
However, It is what I have so I need to be willing to TRULY make the BEST of it!
The Yankees ...
really made Frostburg possible. I needed to be free from my tiny room and from the Bronx overall.
I need to be far less stubborn
and far more flexible. God, Please turn my heart of stone into a heart of flesh TODAY, throughout this ENTIRE DAY!
My Yankees .
Wow, A Great Victory last night. I needed to see that and gain empowerment from that as I left yesterday and entered into today!
Lord, No matter how hard I wish ...
I cannot transform today into either August 29TH or 30TH. Acceptance allows for freedom, more prudent actions and pervasive healing.
Asking people to use what they ...
have gained from years invested in an organization to fire up new members is a way to keep an organization great fun to continue to be a part of.
Saturday, August 17, 2013
Some times, Things just linger too far ...
long and it hurts to need to keep moving your way through them.
Friday, August 16, 2013
You are A Champion
DO NOT DARE to allow a tough season to be the cause of your forgetting that this is true!
I am seeing the return of energy and resolve ...
as this Fine Friday Afternoon continues on!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Help Me-
Let Me remember that it is better to admire and marvel over the Stars than to study the mud.
It is good ...
to get up and keep going. This week, to my regret, I would not allow myself to think this way!
The intelligent person studies ...
what is and will not rest until he or she knows and truly groks why today IS as it is!
I am having a great afternoon
This Friday AFTERNOON, August 16TH, feels like The Gorgeous Day after being battered by a long -lasting and intense storm.
I do know ...
that I survived a really vicious week. I'm hurting and glad to be on THE OTHER SIDE of THIS!
- Johnny-
- Johnny-
Is treating The Poor and Disabled in a way ...
that confirms, often, that they are in a one down position really a humane policy. ? Does letting people know that you believe that they are dependent and incapable of doing better really bless or benefit anyone ?
2 weeks from right now ...
I will be in Kentucky again, Labor Day Weekend, I crave The Freedom that you shall provide.
If you want to know why more Americans are NOT !!!!
willing to ride public transit on a continual basis, Please consider The way WMATA in DC is operated and how they treat their patrons.
Monday, August 12, 2013
Sunday, August 11, 2013
The 1,000 Posts for This Year mark being reached . . .
before this Blog's Third Anniversary on October 4Th is becoming more and more of a certainty.
Sometimes a sign , an acknowlegement from you ...
to you that it is rough but it will not ALWAYS be this way is the best that you can do for yourself on any given day!
Not The Weekend I needed or desired ...
but I wasn't given a workable option. It appears that I've gotten through it.
Saturday, August 10, 2013
God, Let me cover my fear and loneliness with the ...
dazzling garment of YOUR HOLINESS on this Saturday night !
- Johnny-
- Johnny-
Those who believe in needing to live with the ...
consequences of our actions ALWAYS know , EVEN IF they are not appealing. Not having great choices before you does not absolve me or anyone else of the need to STILL make choices.
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
A Decade ago, I abandoned myself to a Nervous Breakdown . . .
Tonight , I'm in a severe battle and I am doing all I can to fight for myself and my happiness and satisfaction.
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
You know the value of being consistent ...
This is Johnny ministering to and being there for Johnny now.
God, Tonight, Please ...
Pour Wisdom, Prudence, Acceptance and the ability to value ANEW delayed gratification in my life on this Early August Saturday Night in dank and unappealing Lincolnia!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
I need to get control over my growing frustration 2 night ...
Saturday Night, August Tenth and remember that I truly have an amazing best friend, The one I see in my mirrors. He is the one that needs to come through in the clutch for me on THIS LONG SATURDAY Night!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Where is The Visionary , Where is The Dreamer and
Idealist I know that is , Johnny? The day you need to focus on is Day 64, Thursday, August TWENTY- NINTH when you board a bus and head to where the difference and the difference maker is.
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Does being an American Citizen mean something ?
If so, Our borders MUST be safeguarded and our immigration laws obeyed and enforced.
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Remember, Ultimately, You must trust in God ...
and do all that you can to advantage your life as fully as you, on your own, if it comes to that can make this so!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
I hope tonight will prove to be less of a dud ULTIMATELY ...
than last night did. by the time it was over.
I did enjoy celebrating My Fellow Toastmaster, DTM Paul White, but not being in contact with Mandy turned THE REST of the Night into a Dud that ended with a Thud.
I did enjoy celebrating My Fellow Toastmaster, DTM Paul White, but not being in contact with Mandy turned THE REST of the Night into a Dud that ended with a Thud.
10 years ago, You were getting ready to discover how ...
ugly it was to be homeless within a few days, You were in denial about it being soon to arrive.
Tonight, August TENTH , 2013, You are doing far better!
Tonight, August TENTH , 2013, You are doing far better!
I know that you appreciate that today is not the best of ...
times for you, Johnny!
Remember time is moving forward and preparing you for the new!
Remember time is moving forward and preparing you for the new!
Remember gide your actions tonight ...
as if you are lead by a GPS programmed to get you to YOUR !!! long awaited future!
The First World War ...
Too many shortsighted people who demanded far too much and left themselves and the pre-war World in ruins!
Seek to live
Remember that you have NOW navigated through FORTY- FIVE !!! full and long days since leaving Lexington.
This may be The Nadir of August
It is tough to get through a Summer Weekend without a motivating, effective and spirit empowering Church service to attend tomorrow.
Friday, August 9, 2013
I am an explorer
It is difficult for me to rest with be provided an " I don't know" or let it rest. My curiosity gets ornery and more determined when it believes that it is being denied.
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
I wrestle with issues and have conversations during my ...
sleep as I attempt to sleep.
This seems to merely be quintessentially me and does serve as further proof that my brain does not possess an off switch.
- Johnny -
This seems to merely be quintessentially me and does serve as further proof that my brain does not possess an off switch.
- Johnny -
Thursday, August 8, 2013
I know that being
ready to speak clearly and support timeless ideas that have been proven clearly to be timeless and vital ideas....
Makes people uncomfortable but is vitally needed by this last and rambling, and sorely out- of- focus nation at present!
- Johnny -
Makes people uncomfortable but is vitally needed by this last and rambling, and sorely out- of- focus nation at present!
- Johnny -
I know that as I continue ...
to post, I am, overall, thinking more clearly and precisely.
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
We Americans need to speak more candidly ...
and worry far less about who we offend. I am offended by people who say things that they do not really believe and adhere to kust to keep[ the peace!
That version of peace making is best spelled - C O W A R D LY !
- Johnny-
That version of peace making is best spelled - C O W A R D LY !
- Johnny-
I know that I must endure
Today is not an amazing day but I am getting closer to the next day that I am ceratain I am more likely to find to be amazing!
This is My 200TH Blog Entry For This Month of August 2013.
I fully believe that I will attain a Thousand Blog Entries for This Year before I reach This Blog's Third Anniversary in Early October!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
A bit of a lost day - On This Thursday!
This is part of the price my insomnia exacts upon me. I must cancel activities every once in a while and just allow myself a DAY OF REST to catch up.
- Johnny-
- Johnny-
Does Russia Bully and Act Out Against The LGBT ...
community?
Notable Star Trek Legend George Takei clearly believes that they do .
Notable Star Trek Legend George Takei clearly believes that they do .
A Musical Duet as an Act of Bullying ...
A Duet Between Carlos Santana and Michelle Branch became a pop hit a few years ago. If you listen to it, Santana easily overwhelms and comes very close to drowning out Branch.
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Wednesday, August 7, 2013
Freedom is deciding what is of highest value to you and ...
Then deciding what it is worth to obtain it or retain it.
Tuesday, August 6, 2013
The time has come to stop Today !!!!
I have placed my open soul for all to view enough for now!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
A Library Visit and A Hunt for
Diverting and well- done Comic books is on my menu for tomorrow, Wednesday, August The Seventh.
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Healing often does not transpire ...
because the person who needs this is rejecting this as an option. Sad and Appalling, but still, IT DOES HAPPEN!!! - LOL!!!!
I have seen this, pathetically, get proven true in MY LIFE !!!!!!
- Johnny -
I have seen this, pathetically, get proven true in MY LIFE !!!!!!
- Johnny -
God does need to ...
let me suffer, even if it lasts for a long while until I finally get THE POINT that I must get, which is, " Why am I doing this to MYSELF, again and again and, yet!!!, again.!!!! "
- Johnny-
- Johnny-
I am getting some joy as I ...
more skillfully and, with verve, mountain climb on THIS Tuesday night!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Help Me, Lord,
I know I can be so much better than I have portrayed myself over the last few weeks!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
You gain better perspective
when you stop in tensely riveting your eyes on the ground as you move through life!
I am hard- charging my way forward tonight !
I do have 900 blogs fopr the year steadily within my sights!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Good News - I AM SMILING AND REALLY ....
experiencing happiness as I type out these blogs!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
I know I am . . .
building a sound structure that gives me reason to delight in what my future shall be like,
Know well that is marvelous and most right ...
to treat your TROPHY GIRLFRIEND as if she is exactly such!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
Do not be plagued by doubts through out THIS month,
It causes you to believe that you are pathetically weak, sick and hopeless.
What is possible and what can I do to ...
bring that possibility to life, Please Johnny, Make this August a month where you place this into practice faithfully!
- Johnny -
- Johnny -
On Wednesday, August 7TH,
Seek intensely to find out why This Wednesday is glorious and a treat to be within.
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